Being late in love
Love Me
I went back into the room. Behind the door I cried. It feels heavy if I have to continue acting like that, showing an attitude as if I am strong, even though I am very fragile. My heart is broken, which woman will be combined? Including me, I was just pretending to be strong so that I wouldn't be bullied. So that I don't look weak in front of them.
Actually I don't want to share a husband, not at all. But I'm not a cruel person, I can't stand it if I have to play rough, I'm afraid of karma. I don't want to be a bad person either, even if I'm being ignorant, I have to stay strong. Got to!!
I just found out that my husband's second wife has an ugly nature behind her pretty face. Bru also he came into my house, but he dared to threaten me.
I won't stay silent either, but maybe my way of seizing my heart doesn't seem like it. If Iren snatches it the rough way, then I will snatch it the smooth way.
At 03.00 am I woke up, immediately I rushed to the bathroom to get water. I knocked on my husband's door and asked him to pray Tahajjud as usual. We always perform the Sunnah prayer. If I wake up first, I will wake him, and if he wakes up first then he wakes me up. Isn't that romantic?
Even without love from him, I believe God will slowly move his heart to love me.
After Surya came out, I didn't see Iren coming out, so I asked him why he didn't come..
"I woke him up, but he didn't want to come along, he said sleepily, so I let him."
" oh..."
After performing the prayer, Surya returned to his room, while I continued my activities to complain to the Creator. I just need to be sure and believe that what He has set is the best for me.
"All your will is best for me. I believe and believe that You never sleep to always guide me... But God, I never slept with my husband, but why did he come so easily with my husband? I think this is unjust, so give your justice, Lord..."
After praying, I went back to my room, I humored Sholawat to comfort my still sad heart. My tears haven't stopped since. And until I was finally lulled into a dream that I hoped was beautiful...
After the morning prayers I was still struggling with the kitchen, I made my favorite breakfast mas Surya. Fried rice egg ceplok plus basil leaves. It just so happens that many basil leaves grow in the yard next to my house.
After I finished putting everything on the dining table, I made 3 servings for the three of us, before waking them up I took a few house breaks for a while.
When I finished, I knocked on my husband's door..
Tok...
I haven't been able to say Surya has opened the door. I saw he was tidy, but time still showed at 06:30. He sat down at the dinner table, I took him a plate of fried rice for him to eat.
seriate...