Being late in love
First cook
The Surya POV..
I feel lonely in this house, there is usually Hana who prepares breakfast for me, There is Hana who watered flowers when I came home from work, even there is usually a voice she sings with her merdunya. But now everything is different, everything changes. I want to regret what I did, but if I regret it, Hana won't come back to me.
this yard is usually neat but now even a lot of grass that has been high, all the beloved plants of Hana is not maintained anymore, some even almost died because it was never watered.
Sometimes I also have emotions for Iren without cause, unlike Hana who can sort words and persuade, Iren can only refute my words and end up crying
I'm upset, why have my feelings for Iren changed? Even if I think back on her killing our baby that made her difficult to get pregnant, I feel like venting all my anger.
I was too late to realize my feelings.
"Aren't you cooking? I know you work too, but can't you prioritize me first?" I'm upset with Iren.
"Today we eat out first, Mas, then later I learn to cook for you." Iren replied casually.
"Try Hana's here, I'm definitely not starving like this." I insinuate Iren.
After I said that, I saw the look on Iren's face turned sad. And I don't care. All I want is for her to be like Hana. I also don't know why I'm charging Iren too much right now.
This morning I was in a hurry to go to the office, after the dawn prayer I rushed to leave, planning to eat outside, but when I went out the door, I went, I heard the sound of the spatula fighting against the cauldron. I was curious so I could get closer to the kitchen.
It turned out that Iren was cooking, and it looked so funny in my opinion, the kitchen was scattered. I watched him for a long time until he made his first meal in the house. Egg Orek.
I sat down at the dinner table, and he treated me to his homemade egg. When I tried it, ughh...My stomach is instantly nauseous. Without saying much, I stood up from my seat and immediately went to the office without caring for him who was astonished to see my behavior.
He called me many times but I continued on my way to the car I had heated up.
I went without saying goodbye to her, no affection, no kiss on the forehead as usual. I forgot, didn't he work today? Let her. Waiting for him to prepare will definitely take a long time for my mind.
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This afternoon I tried to go to Hana's cafe, after I got there I found that the figure was with an old woman, I noticed them, I never knew that Hana had a grandmother. It turned out that Hana's attitude was spoiled, even she was spoiled.
If only he had struggled with me, oh really I am so happy. I could only look at him from a distance right now, I occasionally thought if he could come back to me? o Lord, show me Your way, I want to atone for all the sins I have committed with Hannah. But I don't want to hurt Iren, either.
I realized I was being unfair all this time to Hana, and after I thought about it I seemed to be doing the same to Iren. Ah... stupidly I, how many more women will I hurt?