Being late in love
Did I Divorce Him?
Pov solar
"What did I say? Did I divorce her? I just divorced Hana?" I asked Iren
"Dear, thank you for choosing me over him. I love that you love me more. I promise I'll take care of our next child.
I hugged Iren speechlessly, I love Iren, but I can't deny I've started to put my heart on Hana since this week, whatever Hana does I like.
But now I'm divorcing him? Oh God...dumb I, I ignited emotions to say talak?! How can I go back to him? my actions are truly unforgivable.
What about our parents? Ahhhh.I can go crazy thinking about this.
"Darling, I'm hungry..." Iren said spoiled.
"What do you want to eat? let me buy it."
"I want to eat chicken porridge in front of the hospital, it looks good.."
"Well, wait a minute, I'll go buy it."
Along the way I thought about Hana, I really never thought I was divorcing her, but I wanted to be closer to her, Oh God, what should I do? in his eyes I am a very bad man, forgive me, O God..
On the way I saw Hana sitting on the side of the road, sad not playing, I regretted hurting her. I didn't even listen to his explanation. I was about to run after him, wanting to apologize to him, but my steps came to a halt when I saw my mother-in-law coming towards him. I saw him take Hana to the front garden of the hospital. I unconsciously followed them.
And I listen to their talk, why does my heart hurt when she cries like that? It felt tight in my chest to see him helpless. It was my fault for divorcing him without knowing why.
Is he really not the one who's wrong? but is it possible that Iren took the foolish act of eliminating the fetus he was carrying? It doesn't feel possible. O Allah, give me your guidance, and guide me to the path of truth.
"Mas, why daydream? I can't eat with my left hand" he said spoiled
"Here I bribe.."
"Thank you dear.."
"Yes..."
I smiled at her, her face white but pale, I also thought of my son, the child I craved from my loved ones. The boy I've been waiting for his presence.
Sad to remember, I even prepared a good name for my son. But now that she's gone, maybe it's not my fortune to have a child now.
After I finished eating, I told Iren to rest, the doctor said he could go home if his condition was stable, but maybe today he will stay at the hospital. I need to get some of my gear to stay. But when I got home, was Hana still there? I threw him out. Did he go home to his parents?
But I took care of her again, she's not my wife anymore. I say goodbye to Iren to pick up some clothes at home, I leave them to the sisters to look after Iren.
From earlier my heart deg ser..what is it? Never mind, why think time, but now my mind is chaotic. Dizziness me.
I was shocked when I walked into my yard.
So many my inner...
Solar POV END