Being late in love
Egotistical
Iren hasn't been at work for a month, I haven't asked him about it, I really don't care.
When I abgun for dawn prayers, it turns out he was already dawn first, I who was still confused to see him slightly changed also did not care about him.
My curiosity was covered with my annoyance at him. It happens to be Sunday, so I'm off.
Iren took me to my room and told me he wanted to talk to me.
"Why?" I asked for the point
"Why has your attitude changed the same as mine?" Ask Iren directly
"I shouldn't have to say it again, right?"
"Stypically I've tried to be the way you want me to be.." Iren looks at me softly
"Yes I know, but when I remember all your behavior I feel very happy with you."
"Keep what to do?"
"I don't know if my heart can change for you or not, which is obvious now that I'm upset. I don't know why either."
Iren bowed sadly, I saw her tears flowing. I know I made a mistake too, and I've committed all my mistakes to her.
"That's it, I'm sorry. Let's fix this together, I'm sorry I was selfish with you. I just realized how I felt about Hana, so it made me feel depressed because I realized it too late."
"Do you regret marrying me?"
deg...Why would he ask about that? "I have no regrets, because you were the one I loved so much before."
I didn't think about the question, and I couldn't answer the question either. My tongue is my tongue, as if the words I want to put out are stuck in my neck.
"Mas, I will try to be the best, and I apologize to you for all my mistakes back then, I have intentionally eliminated our child-to-be for my obsession with you."
"My heart still can't accept that, Ren,,
"Do I have to persuade Hana to return the same mas?"
I was surprised by his words. What does it mean try?
"What did you say?"
"I'll try to get Hana back with you. If it can make you sorry I'm mas."
"How do you want to?"
"Please divorce me if you don't want to be with me." Iren said
"You crazy? I promised your papa I'd always look after you, I couldn't divorce you." I raised my voice a little
"But you're outrageous mas!" he yelled at me. "I've apologized to you, I've tried to be the best but you're thinking of another woman instead? What have you been assuming I've been all this time? I'm your wife, I made a mistake yesterday, but don't you understand how I feel? What happens to me is a punishment that God loves me, is it not enough if God alone teaches me? are you also going to teach me a lesson with you being selfish like this? God is so forgiving, why can't you forgive me?! I'm tormented too!!"
He ended his sentence and went straight out of the room and did not forget to slam the door. I also had the emotion of hearing every word he made to me, everything was not wrong, everything was right. And I refuse to admit it all.
I am a selfish man. I want everything to be mine so I forget the love I've been fighting for all this time. Even now I hurt him.
Solar POV End