Deja Vu [ Lilian Ashley ]
29. Try to Die

SPONTANEOUSLY I turned my head into the apartment and everyone stared at me.

My eyes again stared at a beach scene where there was a guy standing on the beach with his feet touched by the sea water. The hand that was not holding the phone waved at me. His mouth raised a friendly smile and began to give movement a speaking sign.

"Ashley, you heard my voice, didn't you?"

A voice I don't want to hear. My tears almost flowed as my negative forecast had materialized. Why should Zack? Why is he the target of my organization? To make matters worse, I made two faces to lie so that I could provoke the capture of the man who loved me so much! Was it in the previous parallel world, I am also like this?!

With my heart pounding and tears unstoppable, I pressed the 'mute' feature of this phone and twisted my body until I stared softly at all the guests of this room.

I shook my head slowly before saying, "You guys .. You guys targeted Zack?!"

"Why? What's that guy talking to you?" asked Rua who was trying to step towards me.

"Don't come any closer!" my orders while pointing the phone at them, as if to make an antidote. "Gue wanted to ask one thing."

Zack was willing to commit suicide just to live with me in another world. He desperately tried to protect me from death even though his other personality strongly rejected his good intentions. Repeatedly I saw him in the past by accident until now I realized that the guy wanted to monitor me from a distance. If all that is wrong, then why are we related like this?! It was impossible for me after knowing that fact to hurt someone who was my protector.

"What do you want Zack to do after he catches him?" my peek.

"Otherwise, of course kill him," Crystal replied lightly to the point that it left me dumbfounded. "He was one of the senior assassins from the Near company who was still in the business of his boss. After all, he had no state identity at all. So, it doesn't matter if he disappears from the earth."

Very brutal. If Zack really is like that, then I'll make sure that in my home world I don't know he's a good guy! He must be so only in this strange world!

"Smort of killed too." Zeha nudged Crystal and then looked back at me. "At least we'll hold him down so he doesn't accept missions from his superiors, Ley."

"We've already talked about this" said DJ.

Even if Zack is detained, then I will have no protector in avoiding the dangers of this world. I also can't guarantee her safety if she's locked up or somehow they're holding her back! It could be that Zack is going to kill himself for thinking negative thoughts while I manage to live past the date of July 20.

My mind became muddled and faded as DJ's faces looked at me closely.

"Why, Ley? How crying?" DJ wiped my tears with his index finger. "What do you think, you fell in love with Zack?"

Gawat, Zack must have seen me with a DJ like this. I hope he understands.

"Lo's got me, Ashley!" The DJ shook my body until I gasped. "Can't and shouldn't fall in love with our target. He's a criminal, and we all know that."

Now I get it. In order to undergo the task from them in order to pull Zack into a trap, I had to approach him naturally. The function of the DJ having a relationship with me is only as a barrier so that I have a deterrent to love Zack. How cruel Ashley is in this world. Whether or not Ashley was aware in the past, I was really just a tool for this organization. Actually, why am I following the organization and undergoing this kind of feud between two camps? If I could, I wish Ashley to a world that in the past was conscious!

"No!" my screams while jerking the DJ's hand off my face and taking a small step back. "You can't catch Zack!"

DJ's shoulder was attracted by a hand and replaced by his position by Aya who put on a sangar face.

"This isn't the Ashley I know." Aya looked at me cynically. "Lo who, huh? Ashley's a dagger, jutek, cutie, strong. Not like this. From the beginning, you were weird when I looked in the lobby."

I don't know what my true nature is because there's not even a tiny memory stuck in my brain from waking up from the dead. They won't understand and will definitely call me a man who fantasizes.

"What's the reason Zack brainwashed you, Ley?" knock DJ with serious face water. "That means, he knows our plan?"

I was silent and didn't know what to answer.

"Then this is the case, our mission will fail before acting," continued Yurika with a parched face in looking at me. "What the DJ is talking about isn't true, is it?"

"An Ashley! What the DJ is asking is wrong, isn't it?!" racau Aya with passionate emotions while pointing a fist at me. "Lo don't macem-macem with me, yeah, Shit*n!"

Zeha held Aya's hand and shook her head slowly to prevent a physical altercation.

"H*t. I've had a hard time building Norn's organization to destroy the dark company, but you just want to be a barrier?" Aya looked at me getting fiercer. "What do you mean?!"

This shitty organization is called Norn. The atmosphere was getting worse and I tried to turn my head towards Zack. The guy was still in his place and still looking at me.

I took a breath and exhaled it to calm myself down. "Gue knew that you must be feeling weird about my behavior right now. Not like the Ashley you know."

"Lo said what, anyway?" cerca Crystal doesn't understand what I'm saying.

"Let me answer the DJ's question. The answer I don't know, even I'm sure if Zack also doesn't know about this," I said very clearly. "But I'm asking you to stop trying to catch Zack. He's not the guy you know."

"About you know her so close, then just talk if we don't know about her?" cetus Aya's.

I was confused how to explain it to them. What words should I say to them again? Now it's not just those who are confused, I'm more confused. For the umpteenth time I turned towards Zack and he remained still in place. If I die without feeling pain, then Zack has a chance to live. Moreover now that it was night time, surely the vile personality of that guy would appear to survive.

My eyes glanced down where there was the swift waves of the night sea. From the third floor of this apartment down to the bottom is quite high, moreover it must be the depth of the sea is very deep from the vertical starting point of my existence.

"Yes, you guys really don't know about Zack and don't talk to me about it carelessly." I stepped back until my waist touched the balcony guardrail. "I'll prove what the real person you think is a criminal."

I put the phone back in my ear and turned off the 'mute' feature to talk back to Zack. I looked at him and at the same time he picked up his phone again.

"Hello, Ashley? Who were you talking to earlier?" ask Zack.

I smiled and looked back at everyone in my apartment. "Take a good look at me from there."

"What do you want to show me?"

My hand threw the cell phone I used to call earlier into the apartment and I put both my hands on the balcony railing.

"Lo want to prove what?" The DJ who began to understand the fluctuations, immediately became agitated.

Without giving any more reply, I dropped myself among the breeze that felt extremely cold. Finally my actions produced many screams that were not at all beautiful in my ears.

"ASHLEY!"

"HE JUMPED! HEY, WHAT'S GOING ON?!"

"What does he want to prove by suicide?!"

All sorts of cries of anxiety with shocked herbs had been heard by my ears. While enjoying the journey of falling my body into the water, my eyes looked up and waited for the DJ to help me if he really had the love of being in a relationship with me.

Now all I see is the head of the DJ looking towards the beach. Not the beach, Zack.

"PLEASE! NOT AGAIN!"

DEG!

My heart felt knocked when I heard the scream.

BYUR!

My eyes blocked in surprise after detecting the final scream, unaware that I had been plunged into the sea and waiting to get to the bottom.

That voice, that phrase, and that exact same intonation when I fell down the abyss to accept death for the first time. That's Zack's voice! Really sound!

Zack had been watching me closely from the beginning, just as I had been unaware that his presence existed when I crashed myself into a zebra cross to be treated in the hospital. He was also in the forest during the tour of the officer first. He who witnessed my death, he who cried out, he who felt afraid, and he who sounded so frustrated.

I'm guilty of making her so scared of losing me.

It was cold sea water that surrounded my body. No sound came into my ears, but there was nothing. Meanwhile, my lips revealed a relieved smile due to my eyes that had not ended closed until it had glanced at someone who caught up with me too quickly.

His hands extended towards me, his pale face looking even paler than before. He who so displays the face of fear, I express my relief comfortably. I won, I can prove. Those at the top had definitely seen how Zack took the initiative in trying to catch up with me.

So what is this thing called suicide?

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