Deja Vu [ Lilian Ashley ]
32. Love And Fear

The sun has set, the barbeque show is about to begin. At once there was a commotion in the fight over food.

With good gastronomy, Kurt got a part in making steaks and processing potatoes as a carbo. Vin brewer with River. While Kai and Megan prank Kurt in picking up cooked meat.

"Who wants marshmellow?" shouted Sherly who brandished a large pack of marshmellows.

"Gue-go!" Kai answered quickly maybe. Remembering to me that Kai liked marshmellow to snatch mine back then.

Different from before, this event is also decorated with fireworks shot by DJs to enliven. It was this calm and pleasant atmosphere that I was waiting for. This is the function of the tour so that employees feel inadequate by working only and can assume that their work will have a special holiday like this to refresh the mind.

"Wagyu, Sirloin even has caviar" Kai said, pointing at the food on the table. "Everything's expensive, it turns out our caffe is this rich."

Kurt who came put down some steaks answered Kai's words. "Miss Manager told me to buy this kind of material."

Although I don't know when to order it and it must have been done before I was conscious in this world. Ashley on the world is now effectively royal on everyone.

After spending a long time, we began to climb to the top to watch the fall of the leonid meteor.

"Don't carry anything heavy. We'll get tired easily" Kurt ordered to make Vin put down his big bag.

We all set out to the top by passing through the forest scenery and made me remember how fateful my death was here. DJ became a travel guide because he said he had been to this place several times. Some of us took large wooden twigs as sticks to help with the trip. Slippery, cold, dark and a bit of horror atmosphere accompany the climb. I hope there are no mystical things present.

In the end we arrived at a place where it was fenced specifically and a little bright by some lanterns. Not only us, some people have also arrived first to watch the meteor closer together.

"We're going to sleep here?" Sherly asked with a little worry.

"Yes, I've brought a light, thin tent. Even up to two pieces," said Kurt who thrust a bag containing a tent. "Two more Vin."

"Not heavy?" River looked at Kurt in confusion.

"He's not a loyo kayak elo" joked Kai who got a shot from River.

DJ also followed. "All lo katain loyo. It's innate to be beaten up by a child."

For tonight alone we all sleep here and tomorrow will return to the villa.

At exactly 00:00, a light with a gradation of purple and blue has shot across the sky until its beauty hypnotizes the eye that is looking at it. All eyes were fixated on the meteor shower like shining dust falling from the sky.

Kulirik Sherly who was standing next to me while putting her hands together and closing her eyes.

"I wish luck would always be with me" said Sherly, who prayed. Can a meteor grant someone a wish? Maybe I can try.

I followed him and started to put my hands together while sharpening my eyes with a serious feeling.

"I hope my memory returns and with Zack, our lives are saved without experiencing another parallel world move" I solemnly prayed.

The hope I'm waiting to achieve. I hope so.

Many cameras take pictures of the beauty of the sky to capture this rare moment. Half the visitors were lying on the ground to enjoy the viewing. I prefer to stand near the guardrail as high as the neck so that I can see the lowland scenery that is not less beautiful with the sky.

A cool breeze has hit my hair. This is how peace calms the soul so that it can clear all negative thoughts in my brain.

CRINGS!

Spontaneously I took the phone out of my pocket when I heard a ring indicating that the phone call was ringing. Then, I pressed the 'accept' feature when I saw the name that contacted me. Who else if not Zack.

"I thought you were asleep. It's good if not" said Zack, who started the conversation.

Zack's friendly voice made my mouth invite a smile. "Why call me at midnight like this?"

"Of course to watch the fall of the leonid meteor all together!" A tinge of excitement enveloped Zack's voice and rubbed off on me. "Come, look."

"Where are you, by the way?" many rush.

If Zack was watching a meteor on the beach, then he would be waiting for me on the balcony of the apartment. I have to answer accordingly so he doesn't know I'm here.

"There's a park top. The place we've been." I let out a sigh of relief after hearing Zack's reply. "It's a great view of meteors in the sky. Loss for you if you don't see it."

"I'm looking at it too, Zack," as I am. "If not, how could I still wake up at night like this."

Somehow I could hear the sound of Zack breathing with a smile. "Is it on the balcony of the apartment?"

"Yes," lie. If not on the balcony, then where else do I have to answer?

"Alright, now let's pray for each of us's safety!" connect Zack with spirit.

I also laughed a little. "I thought you'd say to pray for each other."

"I pray for you all the time, Ashley." The words sounded bright and made me feel overwhelmed. "And now I will pray that I may always be by your side."

Is it in his brain always jubilant my name? I don't understand Zack's love, he can't let me go at all.

"Lusa yesterday, I want to invite you to chat while waiting for the leonid meteor that fell on the first day," said Zack who made me remember by the incident I threw myself into the sea. I just figured out Zack's purpose in asking me to stand on the balcony. "Although it failed, now we can be just like before."

"Have you?" My eyebrow reflexes raised. "That means, we've seen meteors together before, huh?"

"No, we're just watching a shooting star and it's the first time I've prayed for our togetherness forever" Zack replied in a happy, yet sad tone in my ear. "In the end, my prayer has been answered until now."

He really hopes to always be with me, in the sense of living happily like his normal people. But, destiny says another, which is that we must be together in a way that is beyond reason.

"Even though we are together, yet you do not know me. It's okay, I'm still grateful." Zack is making me stunned. "Seeing your smile from a distance. Even if not for me, but the original lover of the parallel world that we studied. I remain grateful. Very grateful."

He was grateful for breathing in the same air as me and still being able to see me despite not knowing him at all. Zack must've seen everything I did with Kai, River and Kurt. And more DJ. I can't imagine her jealousy being covered with relief for being grateful that my life has returned.

"Even though the world refuses us to be together as it is now. Believe me, I will still force myself to be with you" Zack said earnestly. "Although it must pass through painful death."

Had he given up on my death, could it be that I would not have had another life like now?

"Thank you Zack" I said. "The old Ashley, who had not lost her memory, must have been very happy after learning that she loved the right man."

"I hope so."

Instantly asked about an important topic. "Zack, you haven't answered my question yesterday."

He was silent for a moment and he definitely knew what I meant. "If you knew about me, would you refuse to let us talk together like this?"

Again he was silent for a moment. "Hopefully so, because you weren't away from me. Even though I know everything."

Although I couldn't understand how I was so hard-hearted when I found out that my lover was a murderer. However, I won't darken my eyes to the evidence of Zack's love for me.

"Before this, I was a hit man. But now I'm not dealing with the job" Zack replied in a tone not as low as before. "I don't know what my original activities were when I arrived at another parallel world. Whether I'm still the same hit man I was before or not, I don't care. All of that has been replaced with a busyness in monitoring you from danger over long distances."

"So, you don't work that kind of job anymore, do you?" ask me to make sure.

"I work like that, because I have no purpose in life." Zack's words implied that he had stopped doing this heinous thing after meeting his love, which was me.

It could be that it was not Zack who did the job, but rather the other side of him. However, does not the dual personality have a big trigger that is due to traumatic taste? As the vile side of Zack said, he came from feeling repeated pain just because he killed himself to die with me. I can't validate, it's likely that Zack's vile side already had him earlier than I knew. If that's true, then the Zack I know is the real killer.

"You ..., afraid of me?"

My daydream broke in digesting all my assumptions after Zack let out his voice.

"A little bit" I replied.

"Did your memory begin to improve until you learned this?"

I can't tell you that information I got from Norn members. I don't want my mouth to answer, "yes, or maybe."

"As I suspected. Ashley's still Ashley, never to change."

It's all clear. Although there are still some facts that I have not found, I can at least conclude the answers to all of my questions.

One thing that still feels gray is myself. The entire parallel world only gives such a thin difference. It is undeniable that I am a member of the Norn in my home world. If so, it could be that I have no feelings for Zack and remain focused on the mission even without having a relationship with the DJ. This assumption became strong because I was not at all afraid when Zack said that I did not stay away after knowing the facts about him. All at once, the main factor was that I knew that he was a criminal and which sane person would be willing to approach the brutal criminals that the company was sheltering?

If it were true that I was like that, then I am the real villain in this life. The cause of our soul movement is my act that is so willing to play the feelings of someone to successfully change his character. Zack has been blinded by love to the point of not caring about his hardships in life's leap.

I hope that's a bad assumption I can break. The only way is to get my memories back.

I finally decided to ask, "Zack, how do I get my memory back?"

"I .., I don't know, Ashley," Zack replied in a tone of regret. "I'm sorry."

Instantly a commotion from behind me had appeared. Who else if not my employees. Kai and River who like to shout, even Vin did not escape also come along. They're really childish.

"The tent did not know!" sergeant River to Vin while holding a tent that has stood firm.

"Superficially doubtful." Megan.

Vin grumbled, while Kai made a bonfire muttering indistinctly. Of the whole, the only calm is Kurt. He stared at the sky along with the hand that was writing on top of the book. Smart people are different.

"Why is it so stormy? Is there anyone near you?" said Zack who made me confused to answer.

"I turned on the TV with a large volume. I'm sorry, it seems too disturbing," I hurried. So that this topic doesn't continue and who knows Zack asked me to downplay my lying TV voice, I switched the conversation. "Gold, Zack. I remembered how I fell into the abyss and saw you there at a glance."

"Yes, it's me."

Redirection worked. It's time to continue, "When I wake up in another world, why would anyone say that I've fallen down the same and you helped me? Are we not moving our lives together?"

The sound of laughter was heard by me. "Ashley, you're so chatty, yeah. Too many questions."

It sounds more like a fact than an insult.

"I don't know what my relationship is in that world. Maybe I was the one who passed by and took the initiative to help you. You're talking about me being in before the 20th, aren't you?"

"yes" I replied briefly.

"Know it. When you fell, I was so frustrated that I dropped down with you" Zack said, leaving me stunned. "The pain was only for a moment. After all, it is not as painful as the deaths of the victims who were once tormented at my hands. Maybe this is my karma."

Without a second thought, he did all that as if his life was not important at all. On behalf of karma to unconsciously make his other personality also feel the pain of death on him.

"What the fuck?" Zack's voice sounded so far away from his phone, even his tone became different from before. "Damn it, he called this disaster-bearer chick. I felt dizzy, but now it was midnight. This fool never thought about his health at all."

BEEPING... BEEPING...

The phone connection has been disabled by him. From his style of speech, he must be the Keji alias the other side of Zack. Its appearance is due to dizziness. Now I understand that the Keji just wants to get the best for his body with Zack. He didn't want to feel pain until he showed up to stop Zack from hurting himself. For example, just last night, wake up until midnight to cause pain in the head.

Selfish, that's a good word for Zack.

"Miss Manager! If you are sleepy, sleep with us!" I looked over and found Sherly who had shouted at me.

My feet walked closer to the tent that Sherly and Megan entered.

"Three sleeps?" I just can't believe that the tent in front of me can fit three girls.

Sherly who was still sticking her neck out of the tent immediately replied, "Make it up, Miss. The tendon is big, especially the masang is River."

River glanced cynically, while Kai and Vin were just on their backs at the mocking sign. My head shook softly while smiling in response to the behavior of all of them.

"You want to sleep?" I said.

Sherly nodded and I immediately entered the tent containing a mattress that was comfortable enough to sleep. From the right is Megan, the middle is Sherly, and the left is for me.

"Miss Manager," call Megan who's sitting on me. "I'm jealous of you. Can be a Manager at a young age."

"Yes, tell the tips to us both dong, Manager." Sherly followed.

I also smiled too. "I also don't know how to become a Manger like now."

The two of them were both disappointed and returned to lay down their bodies.

"Alright, Megan. Let's sleep. The manager must be sleepy" Sherly said.

TLING'S!

Instantly I opened the phone after hearing the message notification and saw the sender was Zack.

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