Deja Vu [ Lilian Ashley ]
57. Epilogues

SILENCE and everything began to change. There is no fear, despair or pain that has spread throughout the body. There is nothingness, as if it were in a dimension of emptiness. Legs that have no footing and no wind that feels hit my body.

This place is like the second dream I've ever seen. A true sleeping flower is a leak of destiny. But this time it was different. No feeling of any kind concerning or the latest glory was displayed to me. Could the destiny presented as before have been exhausted by me?

At a glance, all the memories of life had appeared like pieces of memory that were deliberately used as a trailer to my brain. The experience of bitter, sweet, and cursed things has left a bitter taste as well as regret for all of it. A gloomy childhood, the normalcy of living in adolescence, the worst regrets of living a life of romance. There is no luck to be proud of in it.

Suddenly, a glimmer of white light flashed that made my eyes widen for a moment. The sound of echoes that are not so clear, makes me provoked to try to approach the light. It was dim, as if refusing to be approached.

Then, right in front of me a sparkle began to gradually appear until it formed the body of someone so radiant. Very bright, but to me so bleak. I wanted to step back, but my body refused the brain's command. My eyes stared blankly at this smile before me.

Zack, again he's by my side.

"Ashley," he muttered as he hugged me without feeling anything that touched my body.

There is no racing heart rhythm, high worry or even fear. However, I still hope not to meet him, even in another dimension or even in the next life. Meeting him and me, as if fate really forced us to bind each other. No matter how tormented or not, like two different magnetic poles, it is impossible to unite despite being brought closer together many times.

Yeah, I already knew that. All the bitter memories of him to me will be wiped out by amnesia. The paradoxical butterfly effect will be present and twist time endlessly on the two lives that are destined together. Totally ironic.

If only I could control the memories in my own brain. Or if only I could be a time traveler and meet with myself, so ask him to stay away from Zack. If I hadn't decided on an action according to my feelings. If, if and if ..all that is sickening. What I expect from my own mistakes is a foolish thought that is certainly unattainable. A very futile concoction was thrown out.

Instantly Zack's embodiment was gone, replaced by darkness that again surrounded me. A speck of light like the summoning portal started to slowly shine again. However, every time I tried to step up, the distance between us grew further and smaller.

I fell silent, and slowly the only illumination came closer by itself. Fulfill my vision and like I want to envelop me. It was as if something was entering slowly but surely.

I knew that the future would be explored without any memory. Therefore, right now, I curse myself to die rather than to return to Zack's fold.

In the end, my full consciousness disappeared in just a moment.

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