Deja Vu [ Lilian Ashley ]
41. Approaches

STARTING from here and after this, Zack and I are getting more and more familiar. Our closeness was progressing, even when he and I met quite often on the road. Or maybe Zack is willing to accompany me to come home from work. Everything went well and as I wanted. Hopefully there will be no change that can separate us for the umpteenth time.

However, I found a bully of my life for the umpteenth time. Not the organination of Cate or the dangers of nature, but the fans of the Vin club are very crazy. Because of them, I who know nothing until frightened and plunged into the abyss. Remembering that makes me grit my teeth.

Now is the time to go home from the cafe and all cafe employees go simultaneously to meet the exit alley. Add to that the girl fans are waiting for Vin. Seeing them constantly has pissed me off.

"Who are they?" Zack asked when I realized I was walking nearby. He also watched the three girls surrounding Vin in a frenzy.

One of them moved his hands away from me and a small crack as if to code for me to stop looking at them.

"They're Vin's fan club" I told Zack without turning a single glance. "Did you know? I could have been killed for their madness."

Vin's horde stopped by the roadside after coming out of this small alley. While Zack and I continue our steps with a cute. 

"What's that?" I saw a sheet in Zack's hand that he was going to show me.

"This is your picture I printed." He handed me the 2R photo. I'd better buy a figura to put that photo on my bedroom nightstand.

"What do you mean? Killed?" Zack asked again and I was confused to explain. 

BRUK!

My body almost fell and Zack was slightly grabbed by me when a girl slammed into our shoulders from behind. He passed me without apologizing, then turned to look at me like he was checking things out. His face that was looking at me had made my teeth bully irritated. That girl was one of Vin's fan girls who was chanting me at the time. Moreover, he was the one who had slapped and cut my hair.

Even though he had forcibly apologized, and I had no courage to resist the effects of amnesia that made me innocent. Now I know what to do so that someday he won't ruin my life again. 

Spontaneously my feet stepped quickly, then immediately grabbed the woman's shoulder violently until she screamed out of surprise and pain. I saw her very fashionable appearance from top to bottom. While she is just an ordinary High School boy, but her appearance is like an adult woman. I thought of a girl in a high school uniform who broke Kurt's apartment glass with a stone.

"What's the problem with pushing me on purpose?" I threw a question and the girl just kept quiet while looking at me cynically. "Sissy, huh?"

He once called me mute, and this time I threw it before he tried to curse it at me. 

His hand tried to jerk from me and the girl gave me a hostile look. "What, anyway? Don't hold it, you jal*ng!"

THE PLAQUE!

Without feeling guilty, I slapped the girl's cheek as her mouth hurled a swearing that was completely inappropriate to hear. I just asked and replied to what he treated me, but the answer was not wearing at all. 

He wouldn't run away and die after being slapped like this, and obviously wouldn't be as lucky as me. 

"Just because I'm staring at Vin, are you behaving like this?" I pointed at his shoulders violently and raised the intonation of the voice. "Even if you bully anyone close to her, she won't suddenly fall in love with you!"

My eyes almost cried when I began to remember how scared I was when I did not know the world, but got the terror and the bundles of this girl gang. 

The girl stepped away with a stomping foot and I who was staring at her departure reflexively let out a heavy sigh. Hopefully my words can awaken the bad nature of it. Or maybe I should tell Vin about the attitude of his fan girl. But, it must have been useless, because I had reported this to her at the time, but her response was very disappointing.

I turned around and found Zack rounding his eyes looking at me. Maybe he was amazed by my attitude towards the girl. 

"What's wrong?" I asked as I approached him.

My reflex tilted my head and looked at him confusedly. "Give affirmation to the girl? Isn't that natural? He's dangerous to me."

Suddenly Zack held onto both of my cheeks and chuckled until I jumped in shock. This was the first time he had any physical contact with me.

"What did you say? A woman like that could get you killed? Precisely your attitude is much more suitable to kill them," said who still chuckled in looking at me.

Eyes that always look dim due to the glare and dark adorned eye bags, now become changed. He looked at me so grumpily that I was reminded of the vile side of Zack. This is the look I am afraid of. 

"Even if he knows he's dangerous. You remain determined to give him an affirmation?" Zack continued with his words. "I like it, Ashley! I like that attitude! I call that bravery!"

The reaction is excessive. Could it be that I was already the type of woman he liked? Though I could be strict with anyone who would harm me. It wasn't just one of the Vin girl fans that I treated like that, before this was Zeha.

"Your reaction is too much." I took Zack's hand off my face and shook my head slowly. His expression had started to fade, then my smile was engraved. "I can only warn like that. Not that I could really fight what would harm me."

Imagining how a pot fell on me by those crazy girls has horrified me. They were completely determined to harm me in any parallel world. I can't deny that they're going to happen to my real life. 

"So, where's my picture?" I glanced down and looked at Zack's face, who was also looking for the existence of the object.

"Maybe fly because I fell when I was knocked down" he replied, still looking around. There is no wind strong enough to fly paper. "What's wrong, I can print again for you."

I exhaled for a moment and felt disappointed. I hope that photo comes back to me.

My eyes became misfocused as I looked up at the sky that was behind Zack. The stars have fallen to decorate tonight. Without speaking, I pointed towards the sky until Zack turned his head back and took a peek at admiring the scenery that could rarely be obtained. He also took out a camera and captured the night's blips.

Focus my hand by filling the finger spaces, then closing my eyes. "I hope that what has been lost in this part of my life will return as soon as possible."

Most people say, if there is a shooting star, try to say a prayer. Who knows, it will be done.

"Would a shooting star grant a prayer?" I opened my eyes and immediately nodded when Zack asked. He followed me and offered prayers while raising his head.

"And I wish that I could be with him in any life" said my returned prayer.

"Who are you referring to?" My lips smiled faintly without opening their eyes when I heard Zack ask for the umpteenth time.

For a few seconds, I just opened my eyes and immediately saw the innocent-faced Zack waiting for an answer to his question.

"You," I replied, smiling widely and making him stooped to the point of turning his face away.

"Can I ask you again?" My head nodded in sign of approving Zack's request. "What's missing until you hope to find it?"

My index finger pointed towards my chest and said, "I," Before he asked again for not understanding my words, I continued my words while changing the direction of my index finger to Zack's head. "In your memory."

The wind blew so hard that it hit both of our hair. Silence, and no more questions were asked of me.

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