Doctor Ella Love Story
137. S2 - Disappointed

And so he realized Roni had brought his own face closer to Ella's face. Closing his eyes tightly. Closer and closer until finally their two faces are not far apart. Roni finally landed her lips right on Ella's lips until their lips met. Roni kissed the girl without warning.

Sweet, for some reason it tastes so sweet and pleasant that it feels on the lips. The pleasant vibrations directly propagate giving sensation from the stomach, chest and spread throughout the body. Increases the hormone adrenaline which can make his heart rhythm to beat faster. Thumping and banging like a drum beat before the war.

The pleasant sensation made Roni unable to stop to continue kissing and memb*m Ella's lips. Again and again, Roni could not stop his increasingly heated action. Follow his instincts and his heart. Both of his arms had even moved from Ella's face. Grabbing Ella's body to be grabbed by her very tightly clinging to her own body.

Ella was shocked, confused, and shocked to discover what was suddenly happening to her at this time. Roni's hands and fingers continued to hold her face, making her continue to look up at the man's face, without her being able to avoid it. Worse still when Roni suddenly lowered his face closer to Ella's face. Until finally Roni's lips landed on his lips, storming and kissing his lips without excuse.

It is undeniable that there is a little thumping feeling because of this kiss from Roni. Spontaneous reban due to embarrassment and shock due to this sudden action. Shame on realizing they were both in public. What if they get caught as a bawdy couple try?

But somehow Ella felt no pleasant sensation blooming in the chest. It felt very different from the kiss Ella had once felt from Ardi. Not same.

No sweet, smooth, intoxicating sensations. There were no shakes tickling her chest like Ella had when Ardi kissed her first. Even after three years, he seemed to still remember how the sensation of kissing with Ardi.

For this kiss from Roni, there was even a sense of tightness in his chest. There is no sense of romance and passion. Which makes Ella want to return the kiss. Ella could only be silent and resigned to receiving every kiss and suction from Roni without any desire to retaliate...

Although now Roni is her boyfriend, somehow there is a sense of unwillingness, and rejection in Ella. Not willing to feel Roni snatch his kiss without permission like this.

Waves of disappointment, unreality, humiliation, helplessness, and despair instantly struck at once... It's sad, and it's stifling. Without Ella noticing the clear details of her tears flowing slowly from both corners of her eyes. Miserably...

For a moment Ella felt confused and confused. Ella decides to stop Roni. By exerting the strength she was trying to gather with all her might, Ella pushed Roni's body away from her. Ella even beat the man in the chest to let him go and stopped him from kissing Ella.

Ella hurriedly turned her face away from Roni once she managed to get herself out of the man's arms. In a hurry, she wiped her tears. Shocked, confused, claustrophobic, sad, broken and disappointed it feels to merge into one. How could Roni do such a terrible thing to her?

Well indeed they are now in courting status. But still Ella felt Roni had no right to do that to her...Stealing his kisses by force and lust, passion, passion, and violence like that.

Why didn't Roni ask nicely? Why use violence and coercion like this? This was their first kiss since they were officially dating. Why not do it softer, and more beautiful? But why does it have to be like this?

Maybe Ella won't mind just giving a light kiss to Roni. Maybe Ella would not refuse if she asked him kindly and gently. Since they were both adults, it was very natural for such an interaction. Ella is also not as petty as that to continue to avoid body contact with Roni. Proper body contact is done by lovers today who are dating.

Ella's violent thrust seemed to awaken Roni from her madness. Madness from burning flames of anger and jealousy. It was as if a demon possessed him, seizing his consciousness and common sense. To do a crazy thing that was never even imagined in his mind.

Roni was shocked to see Ella's reaction. Why is the girl crying? Have I gone too far? Was I too forced to kiss her? Did I hurt Ella and make her sad? Inevitably Roni became very guilty as well. He who always tried to take care of Ella, even now hurt the girl...

"El...Excuse me... Me, I'm khilaf..." Roni is confused as to how to apologize for his attitude to Ella who realized that it was too late and overstepped.

"I'm emotional, El. I can't control myself." Roni could not bear to see Ella who was crying so much while turning her back like that. The girl was very sad, disappointed and hurt because of her actions.

'Aaaarrrgggh! I've really gone crazy!' Roni cursed his own stupidity. Regretting his failure to regulate emotions. Regretting his heart that could not resist the demonic impulse and passion. Regretting his overly brutal and violent actions on Ella. A clear act of hurting and hurting Ella's feelings.

Finally Roni could only be silent looking at Ella's back which was still as unwilling as she cried. Waiting in silence for Ella to overcome her own grief. It felt like holding the girl, lending her a chest or just her arm to where Ella was crying. But it seems that it is not possible to do. After the evil thing he did was the slightest physical interaction from him could have hurt the girl even more.

Ella did not reply, still busy arranging her wounded heart. Still busy wiping his tears that just keep flowing without being able to contain it anymore. For a long time he was not as sad and as broken as this. Disillusioned...Well, more precisely, he was very disappointed at this moment.

Ella was disappointed with Roni's attitude. Roni who is usually good to him, Roni who always takes care of him, Roni who faithfully accompanies and comforts him. Why has that changed since they finally got together? His nature is too possessive and jealous that sometimes makes him out of control and irrational.

Ella just realized the nature of Roni like this. Maybe it was her upbringing as the last child to make it so. Not much different from the nature of Linggar who is the same last child. That's why the two of them are very suitable for feuding and fighting like that.

I don't know why Ella wanted a man who could care for her. Keep it gently. Even when he is angry he will not speak rudely or be rude to him...

The ardi? Somehow also the figure of Ardi who suddenly appeared in his mind. Ardi who was always gentle with him. Ardi who even when angry prefer to stay silent or succumb to him. Ardi who always took care of him, loved him. Unfortunately those times have passed...

Slowly Ella turned her body towards Roni. Ella tried to give a smile to the man.

"I'm OK" he answered.

Roni's heart felt more broken to see Ella with her eyes. Shit, even though I always blame Ardi for making Ella cry. Now I made Ella sad and cry like this. Roni cursed himself.

"I'm so sorry, El...Sorry me...I'm laughing at emotions."

"I will forgive you...But it's hard to forget it...Because I'm very sapointed to you."

(*I'll excuse you. But it will be hard to forget. Because I'm disappointed in you).

"You have every right to be disappointed. But you must know, I've done that because I love you very much...I love you a little too much."

(*But you should know, I did all that because I love you so much...I love you a little too much).

Roni didn't force Ella to forget her mistake today. Because it is the nature of a woman. Women may be able to easily forgive something that hurt them, but they will never forget it. Forgiving but not forgetting.

"Make a lesson, hopefully in the future you will be more mature in controlling emotions."

"I'll try my best. Thank you for your understanding."

(*I will try. Thanks for your comment.)

"Jaudah now we go home first yuk." Roni invites and helps Ella get up from the park bench where they are sitting. Stop by for a bit to the wastafle available in one corner of the park so Ella can wash her face. Removing the tear marks on his face and slightly restoring the freshness on his face.

Next, they return to Roni's car and immediately slide towards Ella's house. Again, the two of them were silent in the car. It was too awkward and awkward to start a conversation between them.

"Go to the hospital, Ron. You have a schedule to keep this afternoon." Ella glanced at the watch on her wrist. It was more than four in the afternoon. While the schedule keep Roni at five.

"Ga papa is late. I anterin you to the house anyway." Roni insists on delivering Ella to her house. It's crazy to take Ella to the hospital when she's like that. How did he get home from the hospital? Take taxis? How could Roni possibly let him try?

Ella smiled lightly in response. Roni had already returned to being her usual self. Roni's good, and pay attention to her. Well Roni sometimes likes to be carried away emotionally and impatient. But for matters of attention and kindness, Roni had clearly passed the test. There have been countless times even kindnesses that Roni gave to Ella.

A relationship will inevitably face a storm of problems. Think of it like Sweet salty and sour that will make the taste of the cuisine to be delicious. Some small problems in a relationship are very useful for coloring, peppering a relationship. And Ella is mature enough to be forgiving, trying to maintain their relationship. Because this problem is not fatal.

Ella would rather remember Roni's kindness to her so much than to remember such a rare occurrence. Even before officially becoming his girlfriend, while still in an unclear relationship Roni was also very good to him.

The most touching is when Roni willingly accompanied Ella to Papua to follow the social service held there. Roni was willing to rearrange his schedule at RSUD for the sake of the event. And during the activities on the unknown island Roni always took good care of Ella. Even as the terrified Ella rode the helicopters for the first time to the relief site, Roni faithfully clasped Ella's hand tightly as a tranquilizer.

Ella almost fainted on campus due to severe abdominal pain on the moon. Dysmenorrhea. Roni was the one who was ready to help at that time. Lifting her body and taking her to the campus health clinic. Keep it until it feels better and then drive Ella home. Of course because of that Roni so skipped some college.

Not to mention the innumerable various other little cares and kindnesses. Call it Roni who is always faithful to take her home every day from campus. Roni who is loyal to help him every time there is a troublesome lecture assignment. Roni who is always faithful accompanies her in joy and sorrow. It felt like too much Roni had done for him.

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