EXO: "EXOPLANETS"
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"Only after this progress did I realize how limited the EXO gene really is. However, they told me not to worry and that they would provide subjects for me. I never thought it would be an undesirable subject, I considered this organization to be subject to the law. I don't know how they found you, but I guess they have the technology to do it. Only nine out of seven billion people in the world. What a shit fate. "

He looked at me with sympathy but his eyes were still empty. "After finding the three of you, they put your photo in front of me and told them they wanted a gun. They said they would achieve this using my research, but I immediately refused. I remember staring at the pictures on the table, some of you at school smiling with friends and others with family. It was then that I realized how deep I was, how delusional I was. I thought, These kids are just kids, almost adults, and they told me to do things that they couldn't say. I don't even know who I am anymore and I really don't know who Evolve really is. I asked myself, how could I be so blind and how could I be so stupid. "

He knocked three times, the voice echoed throughout the room and his regret was clearly like the day on his face. "From the start, the offer they made was too good to be true and there was of course a reason: I was paid to end up torturing people. I told them I couldn't do it and I wouldn't do it so I stopped and threatened to burn all my research. I've gone for good, or so I thought. "

Another hysterical laugh bubbled out of his mouth and he covered his mouth with a hand to stop it. After he calmed down again, he continued, "but when you deal with demons you can never break all ties. After that I lived in fear, knowing that they would come for me in the end but they came for my loved ones. They blackmailed me, saying if I didn't do what I originally agreed, my family wouldn't live to see another day, she said, I don't doubt them because I know what they are capable of, it's not just a threat. of course I knew that when they took my little sister and beat her to a pulp just to send a message. So I did what I had to do. "

He rubbed his hands under his face and he looked tired recalling his past memories. "So they took you in, stripped you of your family, your life and I injected that evil serum into your body every day. I tortured you, inflicting pain that no one could endure, until I achieved the results I needed. All because I was selfish. I look out for myself and the people I love. "

"So, that's. Nine of you are my greatest achievements, you are the truest form of evolution. But every time I see you, I want to pluck out my eyes because you remind me of what I've done. I turned you into a monster and in doing so I became a monster myself. "

I don't know how to react, it's too much. I don't know what's lying and what's real. I don't know what to believe or who to believe. He was convincing but was it all just acting?

While he was telling his story, I felt sympathetic towards him. If what he said was true, then he was also forced to do this. However, he had made a choice: to save himself. He doesn't care about us, he never cares about us. He could have stopped this but he chose not to. None of this would have happened had it not been for his curiosity, his obsession.

I was angry and it poisoned me from the inside out. Two years. Two years of pain and hatred caused the anger that was living inside me. It won't just disappear because she told her life story. It doesn't work that way. Someone needs to pay and I need a way out for this crippling anger.

"I'm sorry," he said sobbing, "I'm sorry for everything ."

Even though it was an apology, the words he spoke triggered me, ignited my anger and made it come alive. I walked forward and held her tiny body on the shoulder that made her stand up.

"You think you can tell me that you're sorry and hope that all will be forgiven" I shouted in her face, "you think that two very few words can take away the pain of not just two years but the rest of my life. "

She closed her eyes tightly, as if she was trying to block my words, but I needed her to hear it. I need him to know he's to blame. So, I shook it while shouting, "look at me!"

"Look who I became, at what I could do," I demanded. Releasing my grip on his left shoulder, I raised my hand showing him the fire I had. " This abnormality, it's your fault. You did this to us! Nothing will be normal anymore. We'll end up running our whole lives trying to get away from people like you . Cruel people, who don't care that we're human and just want to use us. "

The more I spoke, the more I felt angry and my fire extinguished it. I was so angry and the hatred I accumulated clouded my judgment. I can feel it, I will do something I will regret but I cannot stop now. I don't know how.

"I see the fire in your eyes, the constant burning and the raw power. I see there's a darkness inside you that you can't control. You have to be careful with that darkness because one day, it could be your downfall" Doctor Choi warned clearly.

At that time she was an ingenious intelligent scientist, I knew she was not the crazy and fragile woman she had tangled up to. I know his words have meaning and I don't want to break them apart but he has hit the rope. Because what he said is true and I hate the fact that he may be right. I can't believe, after everything he did to me, he dared to say there was something wrong with me.

"You're right, I can't control it. The darkness swallowed me completely and I let it go. Sometimes, I even like it," I scoffed and I continued with my actions.

Clutching my hand at her neck, I squeezed, cut through the airways. Raising his body off the ground, his eyes widened due to lack of oxygen. He struggled in my grasp and scratched my hand but I barely felt it.

I should have been ashamed of myself but something about his despair was satisfying. Vengeance is like biting a forbidden fruit and I bathe in glory.

"I want you to know, I blame you for everything and I hope you burn in hell for all your sins" I spit with spite, wanting him to hear my parting words. I tightened my grip with malicious intent and only a few more seconds were needed and he would die.

"Yinjul!" someone shouted from behind me. I turned to see Suho standing by the door. He was panting with sweat rolling down his temple and he looked tired from the battle.

"What are you doing?" she asked and looked at me as if she had never seen me before. I felt like a kid again and was caught doing something I shouldn't have done. "Chanyeol, listen to me, he's not worth it. You're better than this, I know you. Don't bend to their level because it's something you'll regret for the rest of your life."

Jolted out from my fog of anger, I released Doctor Choi and her body tangled to the ground. He grabbed her by the neck and began to take deep breaths, trying to inhale as much oxygen as possible.

What was I thinking? I looked at my hand, realizing I really didn't know who I was anymore. I almost killed someone with my bare hands. It doesn't get any more barbaric than that. Suddenly, Doctor Choi grabbed and grabbed my leg tightly. "You have the right to blame me, but don't forget who the real criminals are" he said.

I didn't have enough time to process what he said before Suho urged, "we have to go, now . They'll be here soon."