Forced to Be an Actor
I Shouldn't Be Here

“Ma, Ms. Tasya did not come to the mall because she was having a headache,” I said with a serious look to convince Mama Elsa if I

not lying to him.

I saw Mama Elsa frowning deeply as she did not blink at me. “Mama, very

sure if it was Tasya, even Mama also saw him walking alone in the men's lingerie store,” I'm more curious about what was done by Ms. Tasya in the men's underwear store while Mas Sadam

not being with her, or maybe the woman is going to this mall with her affair, my God why I think bad like this.

“Ma, we should have this conversation because now

Mas Sadam and also Liora were waiting outside and we better not say this to Mas Sadam because Mama knew for herself if she would not want to believe what Mama said,” I tried to give advice to Mama Elsa because I understand very well how Mas Sadam will still defend Mbak Tasya.

“Iya, you are indeed right.”

Me and Mama stepped out of the toilet mall, Mas Sadam and Liora were very surprised to find out that I was together with

Mama Elsa came out of the toilet. Liora immediately burst into Mama Elsa's arms, I saw a sweet smile etched plain from her lips while Mas Sadam himself looked at me questioningly. I said that if I accidentally met Mama at the Mall and Mas Sadam nodded his head understanding maybe because the man already knew that Mama Elsa was indeed

often shop alone.

Mama Elsa invited me to buy makeup at her subscription store

at first I refused but Mas Sadam persuaded me to buy makeup so that what Mbak Tasya used I also used it because Mas Sadam wanted to be fair to both of us, when engrossed in choosing makeup, Mama Elsa and I accidentally listened to Mas Sadam call the name of Ms. Tasya.

“Tasya, isn't that Tasya,” I saw Mas Sadam already running away from us.

I immediately grabbed Liora's hand following the steps of Mas Sadam who was far ahead of us while Mama Elsa herself was still busy paying for what we bought at the cashier. My heart beats great it turns out Mama was not wrong to see even Mas Sadam also saw Mbak Tasya but I had not seen anyone who was in front of Mas Sadam.

“Ma, is Mama Tasya here?” asked Liora to me it turns out that this little boy also listened to Mas Sadam mention the name of Ms. Tasya earlier.

“Mama, also don't know, Darling.”

I stopped my steps behind Mas Sadam. I tried to catch my breath as I quickly followed her earlier while Liora herself was now crouching on the floor feeling tired. I saw Mas Sadam still flirting around like he was looking for someone I patted his arm slowly and said.

“Mas, where is Mbak Tasya?” ask me to Mas Sadam after being able to regulate the roar of my breath again.

“Maybe I saw it wrong, I saw Tasya was holding another man but when I followed him he ran and I couldn't see him anymore I must have been hallucinating seeing him earlier, I was,” I saw the man rubbing the sweat that had soaked his forehead now Mas Sadam looked at me and also Liora who looked very tired while

Mama Elsa walked towards us with quick steps.

“Have you found, Tasya?” I saw Mama Elsa

follow dizzy here and there looking for the whereabouts of Mbak tasya.

“Ma, it looks like Sadam was wrong, because where might Tasya be with another man.”

being at the men's underwear store, But Mama did not see who was with her,” I saw Mas Sadam's facial water began to reddish like holding back anger.

“Papa, Liora thirsty,” whining Liora while still crouching on the floor. I turned my gaze to see Mas Sadam who immediately rubbed his face rough as if the man was trying to throw away the emotions that had gathered at the top of his crown then snatched Liora's small body.

“I'm sorry, dear Papa. Liora wants to drink what?” I was so amazed to see Mas Sadam who was angry but his attitude was still

relax if you're with Liora.

“Liora wants that ice cream, Pa," I set my sights on Liora and I offered to buy Liora the ice cream, but Sadam refused and bought it herself.

"Why the boy still does not want to believe if his wife has had an affair with another man, whether the spell given by Tasya until my son is so stupid that he can not see the lie before his eyes," I saw Mama Elsa speaking in a heavy tone of voice. The fine line around her eyes was visible because she frowned as she spoke, this facial water I had seen before when Mama Elsa was having a big fight with Mbak Tasya the other day.

"Ma, don't think too much later Mama can be sick, we should just pray that God can open the door of Madam's heart so that she can see who Tasya's real mother," I take Mama Elsa to sit in a chair that is reserved for customers who want to eat while sitting in this store. Mas Sadam and Liora were waiting for the seller to give their order.

Mama Elsa held both hands she also looked at me softly, a warm gaze that had always strengthened I could see the figure of the biological mother that I had not been able to see in this world for a long time.

"Sifana, can you promise me, Mama?" I saw the woman looking at me with a pleading face as if she was hoping big for the answer I would give her.

"Well, what, Ma?" I didn't answer right away for fear of breaking a promise so I made sure first what the middle-aged woman wanted from me.

Before I spoke I saw Mama Elsa wiping the clear crystal in the corner of her eyes and she looked back at me with those eyes. "Mama, want you to promise never to leave Sadam under any circumstances, Mama only agrees if you will be with her now until later," I can not immediately answer, Mama said, I chose to bow my head confused as to what to say.

After I found the answer to Mama Elsa's request, I raised my head to look at my bead with a soft eye saying, "Ma, Sifana is just a second wife. Mas Sadam also never liked, Sifana hadi where maybe Sifana can survive in this relationship," my tongue tasted bitter when I remembered that Mas Sadam might just be forced to accept my presence in the house, God I really want to live happily like any other couple can you grant me someday.

"Trust me, Sadam already likes you, but the child has not realized it, Mama saw how to stare at you earlier and believe the instinct of a mother will never be wrong, Sifana."

We ended this conversation after seeing Mas Sadam and Liora step closer to us. I saw Liora happily licking the ice cream in her hand while Mas Sadam himself gave a hard look to read from her dark eye bead.

We had finished shopping so decided to go back home, Mama Elsa clutched Liora's hand while I myself walked behind the two together with Mas Sadam. I looked at every shop I passed by then I stared at one dress that was pics-colored to fit the Graceful size. I imagined it Graceful to wear that shirt and my smile was perfect.

"Mas Sadam, I want to see something better first Mas Sadam waiting in the car alone," yes this clothing store is close to the exit so I will not get lost any more now Mama Elsa and Liora have just come out of one of the main doors in this mall.

Mas Sadam nodded his head then I immediately stepped closer to the boy's clothes shop. I took the pics colored shirt and smiled to myself not hurt I saw the bandrolnya, my face that was all cheerful immediately sad as if the price of this shirt immediately absorbed all my happiness so quickly.

"Sir, if not strong buy do not hold it later dirty this shirt," I was shocked when listening to the store waiter insulted me in front of many other mall visitors.

I was so embarrassed that all the visitors looked at me from toe to head as if all the clothes I was wearing were made of old trash, this is how the destiny of small people is always oppressed but the shopkeeper is not wrong because people like me should not be here - among the rich.

"Sorry, Ma'am," I can only say the word was then about to put this shirt in its place but the waiter grabbed it.

I saw the beautiful woman round her eyes at me and don't forget the insulting and condescending look that woman showed me. Even cruelly and without the heart of the waiter of this store also drove me away like I was a chicken that just got caught stealing rice in his house.

"Sorry," after saying I immediately turned my body with my head down but I immediately retreated backwards when my head accidentally hit someone.