Forced to Be an Actor
I Have to Defend Myself

I lowered my head with both hands

holding each other, now the distance between me and Mas Sadam began to erode. Now that the man was already standing before me and his hand raised this chin slowly I looked at his motionless bead while looking at me. It's not true why the distance between our faces is getting closer until I can

feeling the warm breath of Mas Sadam on this face.

I began to close my eyes unable to see the dark bead from such a close distance. I feel if my thumb

Mas Sadam began to touch my lower lip until a moment later I began to feel if our two lips were fused with each other. Mas Sadam's hand touched my back neck as I was about to end this charge one of the other men's hands grabbed my waist.

I wasn't good at kissing before because I never was

having a lover, never really like a man but it was just a love monkey and when I was very young. I opened my eyes a little and looked at Mas Sadam closing his eyes, I began to feel a surge in this body gathering at the center of it even I could feel that the blood in this body was starting to rustle violently as if there was a heat wave playing in this body.

I could not breathe and Mas Sadam stopped the charge

this, I bow my head not daring to look at it but I could feel that now the man was looking at me.

“Sorry, I ..”

“Why should I apologize, Mas Sadam is innocent because I am Mas Sadam's wife too,” I said with limited without lifting

my view.

Brak!

I don't know what happened until Mas Sadam got angry and left me. I lifted my eyes with tears that had run down the river. Why was he angry was there something wrong with my words? I was still standing in my position until I started to hear the sound of a door being knocked by someone, I immediately rubbed the clear liquid in the corner of my eyes and quickly opened the door.

“Sifana, does Mama bother you?” I saw Mama Elsa was neat while carrying her tote bag

“No, Ma what is it?” I asked Mama Elsa.

“Mama and Papa will stay at Sadam's residence. Liora also came with us,” I frowned confusedly after listening to Mama Elsa's words.

“Didn't you just now, Mama asked us to stay here?” ask for an explanation.

“You and Sadam remained in this house,” I was about to refuse Mama Elsa's request but the woman immediately hugged me and

just walk away.

I stepped into the kitchen and made dinner, where Mas Sadam was now could he leave me in a house this big alone, usually in this house a lot of servants but this afternoon Mama Elsa asked all the servants to go home early and leave me and Mas Sadam alone in this house. I keep making food

night for both of us, just accept fate if until Mas Sadam returns to his own home because I cannot deny Mama Elsa's request because

that middle-aged woman has been kind to me and also Graceful all this time.

Now I've put two plates of food on the dining table, I just sat down my body was going to eat the food alone because maybe Mas Sadam will not come back again it turns out I was wrong because now there are footsteps tapping on the marble floor of this kitchen room.

Mas Sadam put a chair for him to sit down and eat food on the plate without making a sound, I just silently did not dare to open

the sound again was only the sound of forks and spoons that filled this room. The man didn't want to look at me at all like he was really angry. Me and Mas Sadam had finished dinner without looking at me the same

once the man immediately stood up from his sitting position then was about to

stepping away. I can't go on like this, having decided I will

what was it and immediately stopped his footsteps.

“Mas Sadam, what exactly happened? Why silence me

like these? If I am guilty I apologize but I beg at least, Mas Sadam explain what my fault is,” in a trembling voice and both hands hold tightly to the dress cloth I wear I step closer to him.

Now Mas Sadam looked at me sharply without speaking, while I ventured to see him. “Do you always tease other men in this cheap way,” like there is a hard object that directly hit this heart, what happened why Mas Sadam came back as rude as before when just last afternoon the man was good to me or because in this house there was no Mama Elsa so Mas Sadam showed his true attitude to me.

“Do, Mas Sadam have proof if I do that?” for some reason I started to rebel when my husband said this hurtful word, I also started to feel tightness in my chest when I saw the insulting look

blazing from that pitch-black bead of eyes, why did the happiness I felt so quickly fade away like a puff of smoke that disappeared without a trace for a moment

after being blown from the lips of a cigarette lover.

“You can't accept me saying that,” the man grabbed my waist and brought our faces closer this time I saw the sharp look in his eyes

like a sword ready to decorate this body with reddish liquid. “if you are not such a woman, then why do you easily receive my kiss.”

I just found out why Mas Sadam was angry

that guy was jealous? No, he was not jealous, but the man was angry that his wife had been punished by someone else.

“I was silent, because Mas Sadam was my husband,” I tried to break free but the man pulled my waist even more

closer to his body until there was no blame between the two of us.

“Tasya once told me that if you ever seen flocking men, whether such a woman can still be considered a good woman, whether,” turns out all doubts in the heart of Mas Sadam during this time is due to slander from Mbak Tasya. “Tasya also once said that you ever sold

your self-esteem in the striped man,” I feel my skin getting heated up every time I listen to the name of Ms. Tasya called, the name is always trying to slander and also drop me anytime.

The internal memory in the brain immediately rotates slowly like a replayed cassette, I remember very clearly when I was in the kitchen Mas Sadam offered me money and it turned out that he got incitement from Ms. Tasya. Maybe it's time for me to defend myself

I can't keep letting my pride fall in front of my husband.

“Mbak Tasya lied, he even hit me often when Mas Sadam had gone to work. And I've also heard that Ms. Tasya names people with affectionate calls even women often go out in the middle of the night just to contact someone and I believe if it is cheating ….,” not finished I spoke but Mas Sadam already raised his hand on me with a sharp look.

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