Forced to Be an Actor
Reason Behind Sadam's Anger

I stared at Mas Sadam with a clear crystal that still had not stopped falling from this eye patch. With a faint I can still see the flames that had filled Mas Sadam's bead eyes began to disappear with the swift tears that flooded my face.

Mas Sadam pulled me into his arms. "Darling, I'm sorryI really didn't mean to talk rudely to you like this."

"Mas, I want to rest" I said without addressing his apology, my heart is already hurting now. I let go of his embrace slowly then rubbed the rough clear liquid that had already decomposed on this face.

Mas Sadam reached for my hand and then grasped this soft hand. "Honey, listen to my explanation first," Mas Sadam asked me with a pleading face.

"What else to explain, Mom. All is clear, you accuse me of a no-no, for whatever sake. It never crossed my mind that I would look for another man." With a trembling voice I spoke even this clear crystal also did not stop spilling over both cheeks.

"Honey, I'm afraid you'll be like Tasya who left me with another man, I can't bear to have this happen a second time."

The deg!

Like there was a hard blow to my heart, all this Mas Sadam did because he was afraid I was going away from him. "However, you don't have to keep thinking about it, you can't equate Me and Ms. Tasya. Mas Sadam having you was such a big fortune in my life that maybe I thought I'd find another man out there."

The emotion that had been ignited like fireworks ready to explode in the air had disappeared, melting when I found out what the reason behind my husband's anger was. The trauma of Ms. Tasya's treatment of Mas Sadam without me knowing it turned out to be very deep in her heart and made the trauma arise in her heart. It was fitting that Mas Sadam looked possessive once, even I also had a chance to catch a faint anxiety that was clearly visible from the wrinkles on his forehead earlier.

"Darling, I'm sorry I won't doubt you anymore" said Mas Sadam as he rubbed the clear crystal on his cheek using his thumb.

"Mas Sadam, I'm sorry also for not understanding your condition which is still overshadowed by the past." I hugged him and put my head on his shoulder.

Believe me, slowly but surely the wound in the past will heal over time. And I'd show us if not all women were the same.

***

I opened my eyes to feel heavy maybe because I had cried last night, I vaguely saw Mas Sadam had woken up from his sleep and now the man was looking at me.

"Morning kiss" he said, peeping at my forehead.

"Mas, your tumben is already.

wake up at this hour?" ask him while rubbing these eyes. I didn't return the kiss and I haven't brushed Ehehe's teeth.

"I couldn't sleep well yesterday, I just kept being haunted by the guilt of hurting you" she told me.

I buried this face in the chest of his field. "Mas, have you done that, what if this morning we ate pecel at street vendors?" I asked Mas Sadam.

"Darling, we'll just order the food at this restaurant." I know Mas Sadam must be unsure of the taste of the cuisine on the side of the road.

"Mas, but I want to eat the pecel on the side of the road and the fried food is also very good" I asked him with a face of sand.

***

I smiled sweetly as this body had already landed on a simple bench made of wood. It is not teak wood but it is still strong, there is a wooden table and there are some ink scribbles on it there may be a buyer who invites small children and because of bored boy drawing chicken on the table.

I stared at Mas Sadam who was sitting straight as if he felt uncomfortable eating on the side of the road like this.

"Mas, I used to eat pecel in this shop a lot and it tastes really good" I explained to Mas Sadam.

"really?" ask Mas Sadam back. The man's face seemed less sure of what I said just now.

"Mom, I ordered two rice pecels in love with lots of vegetables and also spices as usual," I told Bu Ida-sang the owner of this pecel rice stall without standing from a sitting position.

"Yes, Son Sifa," he said kindly to me.

"He knows us?" ask Mas Sadam.

Madam Ida walked towards me with a sweet smile. "Sifa, this is the pecel" said Ida Bu while putting two pecel plates in front of us. "What about your sick sister?" connect with Ida.

"It's healed, Mom is even now out of the sick room as well" I told Ms. Ida.

"Mother Ida, I am glad to hear this good news." Bu Ida glanced at Mas Sadam who from earlier did not stop looking at me.

"Eh, introduce this Ma'am his name is Mas Sadam-my husband." I know the meaning of the questionable eyes that Bu Ida showed.

"Why you're not invited."

"Our marriage was simple, '" I told him.

"Oh .. so, I pray that you soon have a baby" said Bu Ida while rubbing my back. "Yes, you have eaten so that Ms. Ida can make two glasses of iced tea."

"Thank you, Miss Ida." I smiled sweetly at him. Ms. Ida was always friendly to me she even often gave me free food.

"He's very nice to you." Mas Sadam spoke while rubbing the back of my hand.

"Ida Bu. Had one child, but the child went nowhere Even for about three years I subscribed to rice pecel in this place, even though I never saw the child," I said lyirih to Mas Sadam.

"It is good that He considers you His Son."

"Don't tell Mas Sadam that his name is evil" I said as I pinched his arm.

"Aw .. aduh newlyweds, or making out continues to feel like the world belongs to both while others contract," said Bu Ida while carrying two glasses of iced tea to our table.

"Eh, that's not it, ma'am." I'm embarrassed, and I'm lucky there aren't many people in this shop.

"Have not been ashamed, when the newlyweds did not want to be away from the husband" he explained to me. I felt both cheeks start to heat up because of the words of Madam Ida just now.

"Mas Sadam's. Let's eat pecelnya," I said to Mas Sasak when I found out that Bu Ida had left our table.

"Darling, I have no taste for breakfast this morning" said Mas Sadam as he pushed the rice pecel plate away from him.

"Then let me take a bribe." Without waiting for an answer from him I immediately scooped vegetables mixed with spices and rice.

"Darling, I don't want to" said Mas Sadam.

"Alright then" I said with a disappointed face. I immediately lowered my head.

"Yes, I've been eating but one bribe." I straightened my head with a sweet smile. I know my husband can at least see my face sour.

"Mas, this is in eating the same anchovy peyek even more steady taste," I told him.

Mas Sadam immediately ate the peyek that I offered willingly. I was so surprised to find that Mas Sadam pulled the pecel rice plate closer to him and said.

"Honey, let me eat alone" he told me.

"Said you didn't want to?" ask her.

"Darling, I changed my mind."

Mangkanya before tasting it does not feel dolak deh Mas Sadam.