Husband's Regrets: Revenge Marriage
(MM&GL) CHAPTER 40. No Matter of the Past.

The next day Joana woke up first. He smiled at Devan who was still asleep in his arms. It was the most beautiful sight Joana had ever seen. He rubbed Devan's cheek gently, looked at her for so long and kissed her nose before she got out of bed and got up.

Joana immediately cleaned herself up and changed her clothes. Today he plans to get out, but even then if Devan allows it. There are a few things Joana wants to do later.

As he was putting on makeup, Devan woke up from his sleep. The man just stayed in the bed smiling in his sleep, deliberately silent in order to see what Joana was doing. It turns out that woman made something really amazing. It seems now he wants to continue to fall asleep soundly, but now it is 7 am and time he works. But somehow he wanted to laze around.

"Good morning," said Joana returning Devan's smile from the glass in front of her. The man was still disheveled but somehow his good looks did not diminish at all.

"Morning." Devan said briefly, still too stiff to be sweet to Joana.

"Want to take a shower now? I'll get your clothes ready, yeah" said Joana finishing her dance quickly and then getting up from her seat.

"Hm, come. It looks like I'm going on holiday today" said Devan, still not wanting to get out of bed.

"Holiday?" Joana scrunches her forehead, but she complies when Devan asks her to come closer.

"Yes, just want to be home." Devan nodded then pulled Joana by the waist and hugged her.

"There's no work?" Joana smiled, she rubbed Devan's hair which is now being spoiled on her.

"I'm the boss, so it's up to me to come in when" Devan joked arrogantly.

"Hahaha, right too. If you have a holiday, you can rest at home. Yesterday should not have gone first, 'it still hurts, '" said Joana commenting on her small laugh.

Devan did not say, he was engrossed in drowning Joana in his face and enjoying the hair of the woman. Then he remembered something, he looked up and looked at Joana.

"I have to finish everything," said Devan ambiguously, leaving Joana confused.

"Solve what?" ask Joana.

"I want to marry you as you immediately" Devan explained.

Joana rounded her eyes, quite surprised by those words as well. But isn't that nice? He and Devan are unlikely to continue living together without a bond. It could make Joana repeat the same mistakes as before. Where he had to destroy himself because of that very fatal mistake.

"Before you marry me, you should know how I used to be," Joana said in a choked voice. Suddenly his heart was so scared that Devan would reject him after knowing how bad he was.

"I once made the life of an innocent person suffer. Being an evil woman who wants to snatch the happiness of another woman. Even I've been bugging-"

"As you accept me, I will also accept everything in you, Joana. I don't want to know what your past is, all I know is you now. Someone who is great and can accept all my vices. To me you are the greatest woman I have ever met in my life in this world" Devan closed Joana's lips with his hand.

If Joana could accept this sinful self, why would she have to take issue with Joana's past? After all, a person's past is not at all important to Devan. Most importantly now she knows Joana is the right woman for her and the only woman who can understand her.

"I'm not that good, Devan. I killed my own son for selfishness. Can you take it?" Joana does not want to be called a great woman, because she is such a bad woman.

A woman who would willingly eliminate the baby in her stomach who had no sin whatsoever to her. Does such a woman deserve happiness?

Devan was quite surprised by Joana's remark. He thought Joana was just someone who had given herself to another man until she lost something very valuable. But it turned out to be unexpected.

"Yes, I'm that bad, Dev. Maybe God is cursing me right now. He's innocent, but I ...." Joana is unable to continue her words, she cries and distances herself from Devan. Too embarrassed to talk about his past.

Devan immediately hugged Joana and calmed her down. "I don't care about anything. All I know is I love you, and losing you is what I fear the most. From this second on, stop thinking about the past, I want us to start all over again" Devan said in a flat voice, but it sounded soft in Joana's ear.

Devan breaks his arms, sits down in front of Joana, holding both hands.

"Devs." Joana was so shocked to see Devan's attitude.

"Joana, I may be a very cruel man in your eyes. I will try to change myself, even if it takes a very long time. Thank you for accepting a sinner like myself and making myself a choice. From this second on, I'm Devandra Dawson, promising to always support you and will protect you until I can't breathe. Give me a chance to fix everything, Joana. Give me that chance and will you marry me?" devan holds Joana's hands tightly, her eyes deeply and lovingly looking at the woman who is able to make her realize that there is someone who loves her sincerely other than her mother.

Joana cried, she clasped Devan's hand no less tightly before nodding with confidence.

Devan smiled, he kissed Joana's hands and then got up and embraced the woman so affectionately.

"Thank you, and sorry for not being able to give you the ring. Most importantly, I've tied you up now. So you can't go anywhere" Devan said with a serious look.

Joana chuckles on the sidelines of her prey. "How can I go, while you have bound my heart and my body?" chirps Joana put on her pretended face.

Devan laughed, he was so anxious to see the woman and made her grab her nape and kiss her lips with affection.

Joana smiled, she immediately grabbed Devan by the neck and kissed him back. Indeed there is nothing happy other than mutual love like this. Much love has passed through Joana, but only Devan has a special place in her heart.

Their kiss gets more and more intense, Devan almost falls asleep and pushes Joana to the bed to start their hot battle like yesterday.

However, the door to her room was suddenly knocked on making their kisses come off and their concentration instantly scatter.

"Shittttt, it feels like I'm going to kill the guy out there" said Devan with an annoyed expression that was not covered up.

Joana smiled, she pushed Devan's shoulder slowly and let go of herself. "Clean yourself, young master. I'll see it first" said Joana twisting one eye.

Devan thinned his lips, holding the smile he wanted to engrave on his face that always looked cold. Now he seems to laugh and smile a lot, does that mean he is happy?

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Joana meets Ken who is standing at the door of her room. The man immediately bowed respectfully as soon as he saw Joana coming out.

"What's up, Ken? Devan is still bathing," said Joana told as well as asking.

Ken seems hesitant to say it, but he remembers Devan's words if Joana should also know whatever problem Devan is doing or what happened to Devan.

"Out there's a cop" Ken said.

"Police?" Joana's feet suddenly wavered at the name of the police.

"Yes, he wants to meet Mr. Devan and is waiting downstairs," continued Ken with a lowered face.

"Why are there police? Did something happen?" Joana asked again with an unceasing heart beating fast.

"Every night"

"What's up, Ken?" Devan interrupted immediately before Ken said anything, giving the man a conniving look.

"There's a cop looking for you." Ken explained back.

"I'll be there." Devan nodded briefly, he gave a gesture to Ken to immediately leave them.

Joana went straight to Devan, she looked at the man with a worried and questionable face.

"Hey, why is your face like that? I'm fine, calm yourself down, Joana. It's not hard for me" Devan gently stroked Joana's arm.

"I hope it's true, Dev," said Joana.

"Believe me, I'll see them for a minute. You don't have to worry." Devan again calms Joana even though he himself does not know what he will face at this time.

Besides why Devan should be afraid, hasn't he always won?

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