Love That Pain
Is this karma for me?

Every time, Chelsea talk about children, and it really makes Alex feel very frustrated. He did not know who to share the matter with, nor could he possibly tell Betrand all that, for now his best friend was to marry Vika, who was none other than his wife's best friend.

Alex is increasingly depressed, he is currently undergoing hormone therapy, but he is also not sure if it will restore fertility. The man even felt so reluctant to go back to his own home, because every time he was with Chelsea, surely what the woman discussed was about children.

Alex does not deny, he also wants to have children, but he also can not do anything. He is now trying, but if he is always pressed like that, for a long time he also feels careless and frustrated.

Betrand is ready to go home, there is still one week left for him to take leave, “Lex, do you not want to go home?” he asked when he opened Alex's door.

“You go first, I still have work to do.”

Betrand went into Alex's room, “we still have time to finish this job, you better get home now. Chelsea must be waiting for you.”

“Iya, soon this is also finished, so you go first,” said Alex without turning his gaze from the laptop screen in front of him.

Betrand sighed, “well, then I go back first, don't think too much about this work problem, I'm sure we can definitely finish it in time,” he said while patting Alex on the shoulder.

“Hem..”.

Betrand turned his back and stepped out of Alex's room. After Betrand completely walked out of his room, Alex let out a rough sigh, he leaned his body against the back of his chair.

Alex stared at the ceiling of his room, “what is Chelsea waiting for me now? I really want to go home, I really miss him, but.Why is there only a child and a child. I'm really sick of hearing all that. I know, he really wants children, me too, but I can't do anything either.”

Alex scooped his face riled up, “sayang, I'm sorry, I'm sorry this imperfect, I'm sorry.”

**

Chelsea saw the clock on the wall already showing at 20:00 p.m., but Alex had not yet returned home. The woman looked so anxious, she finally decided to contact Alex. But, after a few minutes, there was absolutely no answer from Alex, and that made Chelsea even more anxious.

“What Alex overtime again, but he is now rarely overtime. I'd better call Betrand, he'll be working with Alex.” now

Chelsea also contacted Betrand, and it did not take long, the call began to connect, “halo,” he said.

“Tumben you contacted me?”

“Is Alex with you? Until now Alex has not yet returned home.”

Betrand scrunched his forehead, “not to go home yet! But he said he would be home soon after finishing his job.”

“What is Alex overtime again?”

“I also don't know, if it's true, just wait a minute, he will definitely go home. Don't worry too much about him, he's a big one, no longer a little kid,” Betrand's lead.

“Yes natural, if I worry about him, he is my husband, if anything happens to him how?”

“Iya-iya, Dear Mrs Alex. I didn't expect you'd be this pure as Alex,” god.

“What are you mocking me now!” chelsea are upset.

“Not to mock you, but if you remember your attitude to Alex first, I still can't believe you'd be this much like Alex.”

“All those people can change, including me. yes already, I hung up first, I want to wait for my husband to come home.” Chelsea ended the call.

Chelsea got up from her seat, she then stepped her foot towards the door. Just as he wanted to open the door of his room, it suddenly opened from the outside. Alex came out from behind that door.

“Honey, you finally came home too.” Chelsea hugged Alex, “I think you'll be home late again,”.

Alex takes off Chelsea's hug, “sorry, have I made you anxious?” ask her while she brushed off her smile.

“Of course, I am very worried about you, I also contacted Betrand to find out where you are,” Chelsea said, pursing her lips.

Alex kissed Chelsea's forehead, “forgive me, I had to finish my job first, I also did not expect it to be until this hour.” The man then moved his feet towards the door that was connected to his study.

Alex out of his study, “I want to take a shower first,” he said.

“Then I prepare dinner for you.”

Alex shook his head, “I don't feel hungry, you better take a break.” The man then moved his feet towards the bathroom.

Chelsea are increasingly curious about Alex's change of attitude, but he does not want to think badly. The woman chooses to prepare the clothes for Alex. While waiting for Alex to come out of the bathroom, Chelsea chose to read her favorite book, of course, about pregnancy. Lately, Chelsea often read books about pregnancy and how to take good care of children. He asked Vika to accompany him to buy all the books that contained about both of them.

Chelsea even read half the book, but until now Alex has not been out of the bathroom. The woman felt very anxious, she moved from her seat. Just as he was about to step foot into the bathroom, the door suddenly opened. Alex came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his body.

The stocky body that was still wet, Alex's hair was still wet, making Chelsea swallow. For some reason after their honeymoon at that time, Chelsea was so obsessed with her husband's body, she did not even feel satisfied before she could feel the pleasure of her husband's body.

The touches of Alex's hands all over his body, really able to make him float. Chelsea realized from his daydream when Alex suddenly patted his shoulder, it turns out Alex was finished dressing.

“What do you daydream about, baby?”

“Em...not anything,” said Chelsea while brushing her smile.

Alex sat his body beside Chelsea, “today I was tired, the work in the office was very piled up,” complained while leaning his body on the back of the sofa.

“Do I want a massage?” chelsea Tegap.

Alex tilts his head, he looks at Chelsea's face, “tumben, surely you want something from me,” godanya.

Chelsea shook her head, “don't think bad first, I sincerely want to massage you. Husband said tired, I was so alone, later you said I am a wife who does not understand anymore,” said Chelsea while pursing her lips.

Alex smiled, he then leaned Chelsea's head on his shoulder, “later, I want to be like this used to be the same you.”

“What happened? Do you have a problem? Why don't you tell me the same?”

Alex shook his head, “it's okay, I just miss a situation like this,” he said.

“Darling, are you so tired?” chelsea asked while playing his wiggle finger on Alex's chest.

Alex already understands the meaning of the Chelsea question, he definitely wants that. But Alex also can not refuse it, because Chelsea's body is like an opium for him. What makes Alex frustrated is that, after they've finished the relationship, Chelsea always say, if she hopes she'll get pregnant soon.

Alex smiled, “I am tired dear, but for that matter, I will never feel tired.” The man then moved from his seat and with one move, Alex had carried Chelsea's body and carried it to the bed.

“Darling, do you love me so much?” alex asked as he stroked Chelsea's cheek gently.

“Why did you suddenly ask like that?” asked Chelsea in curiosity.

“Because I want to know, will you leave me when I am unable to realize your wish?”

Chelsea shook her head, “I will never leave you, no matter what happens, I will never leave you,”.

“I love you.” Alex then kissed Chelsea's lips, when Chelsea started him, Alex would not be able to hold himself back.

**

Alex flushes his body next to Chelsea. With a gasp of breath, Alex hugged Chelsea's body and kissed the top of the woman's head.

Chelsea are starting to fall asleep. Alex decides to get out of bed and clean himself up. After finishing her bath and getting dressed, she chose to head out to the balcony of her room.

Alex looked up at the clear sky, “Yes God, what is this karma that You gave me, what is this punishment for me, because I used to play with women's feelings, often, until you give me this much ordeal?”

“I admit, I used to not care at all about the women I slept with, even I treated them very cruelly. But, Lord..Is this punishment not too heavy for me to live? I don't want to disappoint Chelsea, he wants to have children. But, with my circumstances like this, I will not be able to realize his wishes.” Alex let out a long sigh, if Alex was the old Alex, he would vent all the problems by drinking liquor. But, now that Alex has changed, he doesn't want to disappoint Chelsea again.

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