My Heart (Zafier and Zaafira)
matters of heart

the twilight view of Jakarta looks very beautiful from where it stands, orange light bouncing into the sky takes over the color of white clouds to reddish adding to the beauty of the afternoon. but the beauty could not help but comfort the man who was standing in front of the window of the room since an hour ago, his gaze blankly forward. because in fact the beauty presented before the eyes was defeated by the shadow of two women who made him disappointed and fed up.

clenching both hands on his side, he felt tight when the shadow of the woman of his heart adoration was guarding the heroic man, also his head hurt thinking about other women who are foreign but are pregnant with his future child.

in an instant he became the saddest man.not only did he lose, but he also had to get involved with a cunning woman like Raina.

the woman was very smart to play a role, but Jefry would not be interested. As was the case, when they met in the hospital, the woman passed by without a word, even the woman's gaze was flat, even, the woman seemed to not care about his presence even though Jefry believes Raina is having fun as if getting a jackpot because Manda began to consider the struggle of Marva.it means the plan of the two brothers was successful. Jefry is sure the woman must have been very itchy to stick to it but the selling snobs are expensive. Or Raina hopes Jefry is after her? huh don't dream! the woman's attitude only makes Jefry more fed up.

jefry's daydream was jolted when a taxi car entered the house, the woman he had been waiting for was seen coming out of the car. suddenly Jefry immediately went out of the room and ran down to open the door for the owner of the house he was living in

"Jef" said Manda a little clumsy after the door opened, although since on the way home she had prepared herself to meet Jefry but in fact Manda still felt a little stiff when dealing with her former future husband after the incident in the nursery Zaafira

"twins where?" Jefry circulated the view looking for the existence of two toddlers that he had considered as his own biological child

"at the hospital"

Manda's wry reply provoked Jefry to take a deep breath, unraveling the resentment and jealousy in his chest.

not only are Manda going away from her but also twins, they no longer want her after finding a real place to go home.

"they're tired, shouldn't you take them home?" a dozen hours in air travel plus a day in the hospital of course the two twins need a home to rest comfortably, thought Jefry

"they don't want to get away from their papa"

"papa" parrot Jefry smiled. twins have completely forgotten the daddy. whereas Jefry waited hours for them to come home.

"i took a shower first" Manda then left in front of Jefry

"can we talk later?" Manda stopped her steps and turned towards the source of the sound

"yes, after I'm done" he answered and continued his goal

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"are you really neat?"

"i want to go back to the hospital" replied Manda while showing a paper bag in her hand containing twins

nodding dumbly, Jefry did not know what to say other than to allow Manda to sit with her chin.

"he... is he okay?" Jefry knew that was not what he wanted to say but he could not stop his mouth from speaking again

"that man, what is the proper name for me to pin? papa twins? your ex-husband... or the ex-husband who will return to be your husband?" jefry asked with a slanted smile.I don't know why Jefry was so tempramental just because of something related to Marva.

Manda gasped with Jefry's last sentence, her eyes shining in confusion at the expression Jefry was displaying.

"you still love her, don't you?" sue Jefry

Manda was still silent, not not intending to answer but seeing the man in front of him was not okay to make Manda choose to turn her head to the side

this is not about the heart, but for the happiness of both of his children

"what 4 years after all this do you still wish for his love?" Jefry wouldn't be satisfied if Manda hadn't given him an answer

"yes" Manda replied as she returned Jefry's gaze "i used to go carry my love alone, so when she offered me a love reply I was happy and gladly opened my arms wide to receive it. his love for her was my dream for a long time" he continued, but Manda's words instead made Jefry to keep a thin smile.The woman's speech, gestures and twinkle were out of sync from the vision of psychologist Jefry

"want to when do you continue to sacrifice yourself? you're just an ordinary human being, you need to fight for your own happiness, you don't have to consider everything until you feel alien to happiness" Manda chuckled little to hear Jefry's reply, psychiatric doctors are hard to complain about. Jefry with young reading herself.

"the happiness of twins is my happiness. My love for twins that made me sacrifice everything, everything, whatever it is" this time Manda really said with her heart. indeed, the feeling of love for her ex-husband is no longer recognized since she recovered from her trauma 2 years ago. What is left now is only pity and guilt due to the fact that Marva also suffered since her disappearance, which is also, but despite knowing that fact does not make his love that has made his soul and heart broken into pieces easily again he presents.

"twins is happy as long as Marva can meet them, you don't have to go back to the guy"

"you certainly understand if the happiness of children is to have a whole family, do not you have many cases like that?" ask Manda to return Jefry's assumption

"so you want to go back to her even without love?" Jefry asked the question without replying to Manda's question which clearly they knew the answer to

"yes, for the sake of my children" Manda replied firmly, still with the gaze of Jefry, she continued her sentence "and you should also be responsible to Raina who is pregnant with your child"

"the child is innocent Jef, he is a creature created from your part, your flesh and blood.You should also consider his future" Jeffry closed his eyes, slapping his words

"i left first, twins must have been waiting for me. I've been saying goodbye to mami" then the woman moved away from there leaving Jefry who was only able to look at the back of the former fiance with a pushy look

so all is enough to get here?

3 Years he sailed loving alone, and when his love will soon be anchored to the idol of the heart but must be thrown by the waves.they are separated by the reality of harm.

how does he live his life ahead? should it be with pretence? because he was desperate for a happy hope.

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"i will marry your son and aunt" said a flat-faced man staring at the two middle-aged couples in front of him

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