My Heart (Zafier and Zaafira)
Diaries 2

~as a result of my misery in the past took me on this day, losing the best woman as well as my two hearts, the house where I should have come home now welcomes the return of its new inhabitants, and it is not I~ Marva Phelan

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although the tightness continues to gnaw his chest with a blurry view due to the rate of tears that continue to come out but Marva still continues to read sheet by sheet of the diary book, he must know how deep the wound he incited in order to make him look, reflect on his mistakes, mistakes that he will account for even though he is aware if the accountability is too late. but he believed in the saying, It is better to be late than not.

june 19th, 2020

"today is exactly one week Marva out of town, If you miss but if you do not have the right to ask the news of Marva. Honestly, the house feels lonely. I'd rather be yelled at and roughed than not see Marva's sister. I'm sorry, sister, it seems that Bila does love Marva's sister. Forgive the feeling when. When the promise will not burden the sister with love when. If you're going to hold it yourself. Quickly go home sis, bruises on the body when it's healed loh"

If, his young wife, a 17-year-old who is too stupid to manage feelings until willing to be tortured by him in the name of devotion to a jerk husband like him. And what was that? Missed him? Loved her? Oh, if, what a pity your fate could meet a bastard like me. Don't apologize baby, don't, you deserve to love me. And I hope that love is still in your heart until this very moment. I promise I'll fight for you? Please give me a chance. Please Marva

june 20th, 2020

"brother's return day. If you're happy to see my sister again. Moreover, we can finally eat at the same table, the dining table at Mama Reni's house. Sorry if If you steal a glance, because if you miss very much the same sister. Honest If you want to throw a hug brother, but If you are aware that you do not need a hug If, in fact, do not embrace the presence If not Marva needs a hug. Evidently when the sister lowered Bila in the middle of a quiet road when the time was already midnight. When afraid brother. When nearly raped by street thugs. Lucky there was a nice guy who helped Bila and drove Bila home"

So that night? The night he dropped Bila in the middle of the road because his anacond reacted after sleeping one week, he inappropriately left Bila for kl*b to find prey to satisfy his anacond, he left in vain, but before he entered the building of the sinners, the anaconda was again numb to make Marva careless. Because he did not want to be ashamed, he chose to go home after paying 3 women jal*ng who did not manage to wake his anacondas. And when he came home he saw his wife just arrived home with a man. Marva with all her hate looked down at the clothes when the disheveled. And now he's getting slapped on that fact. All the more because. His wife almost became a victim of abuse because of him.

june 20th, 2020

"still on the same night, again, brother forcibly took my brother's rights to me. When sad, sick and disappointed.not satisfied brother playing with sister's mistress? brother dropped me off on the lonely road without thinking about the rainy weather because Marva sister couldn't wait to go to meet the sexy woman.not that I was disgusted to be touched by Marva's sister, but When hurt, if I'm sick, brother treated them gently and affectionately but with me brother was so rude as if this was just a numb object. Brother even accused me of prostitution*r. It hurts so much sister. Especially when you question your kemawn*nan when the brother snatched in a drunken state before the sister went out of town. And with a stand of his sister yelled out Bila as a cheap woman, even sister Marva would not admit if If pregnant it is not an older child. If you swear brother, If only do it with brother, husband Bila. it feels when you really want to give up on this marriage, but when afraid of the needs of the sister there is nothing to meet. Who will prepare the breakfast? Who will make brother porridge reliever drunk, who will be brother to order if he is sick. If you love your sister regardless of what you do to Bila"

Even in her already very apprehensive state, When still thinking about how Marva was doing when the girl left. Tol!! Marva too t*lol wasted the beautiful girl. Throw away such a beautiful diamond just for a stone at no price.

june 21, 2020

"my body feels crumpled. But when I realized that time was moving, it made me fight the pain in my entire body from my brother last night. When rushing out of the room to prepare brother breakfast, but what can Bila? All defenses when destroyed are not left. Brother is planning something that makes Bila give up fighting. Because If you are aware until whenever you only consider Bila as a burden. Forgive If the too foolish understand the wishes of brother. In the end, if you lose because you cannot win the heart of your husband. If the divorce papers can make you happy, if you will do it without consideration again this time, there is no need to set a plan to give If to another man for the sake of a proof of betrayal. Thanks for the 5 months, brother. When I let go of Marva's sister. May Marva's feet be healthy always, do not be sick and hopefully with the departure of Bila, brother can return to be a man full of joy and happiness without any benevolent like me."

BOOM!!

So then? That day when he knew his plan, and for that reason when he left. Who a strong woman remains after her own husband threw her to another man. But by not knowing himself Marva even put his suspicions on If who ran away with his affair when he was in a coma due to an accident. really anj*ng you Marva.

and now Marva knows if Reni knows all the problems because of the little book that houses the big facts that she is currently holding

not only did Marva lose her soulmate, but she also had to lose both of the people who had brought her into the world. but now he needs a hug and encouragement from his parents to encourage him to fix all the problems he creates.

until when does he continue to mourn his destruction? doesn't he need action right now to try to fix everything? yes, he must fight right now, there is or is no support. After all, the one who created this destruction is himself

aware that if everyone does not think it is the result of his actions, Marva moved from his place.he should not waste any more time.just 4 years he was stuck with his regrets. in 2024, he will pay for all his mistakes and fight for his property so that he can be held back.

after cleaning himself up in the bathroom, he wears his best clothes, he will fight to the last life to get sorry from his beloved woman and her two children.

with her chest pounding, Marva drove her car to the company that the last 1 month has been the workplace of the mother of her twins. he hoped that if there was in the office with twins considering that the 2 toddler school hours had run out a few hours ago

Marva breathed a sigh of rage.his chest skipped a beat.before getting out of the car that he now parked in front of the company Mr. Sucipto, Marva chanted some prayers.Hopefully hopefully the coming of his welcome.

but does his presence deserve to be welcomed by the woman? no. gabe. Marva can't break her despair before trying.right said Radit, resting in the leg If Marva will do to get that apology.

after gathering courage, Marva opens the car door, but the movement of her hand is stopped when her eyes catch the object of heartache.fate, hope lives hope, the sense of boiling it back into a sense of inferiority and despair.

an alp*rd car that had just stopped right in front of the lobby, it was not the car that made him shed tears while smiling grimly, but the four-wheeled occupants who are showing happiness through their laughter, a picture of the happy family that he dreamed of the last 4 years, he said, but instead of him being a cast there instead he had to end up being a pathetic spectator

the fact that he tried to ignore the woman and her two children already have a bride.

true people say, the biggest regret and very painful is when we realize a mistake but no longer have the opportunity to just say sorry.

all too late, my heart was broken because of my mistakes and stupidity.When I came back to find it God seemed to slap me with a reality, that he was no longer mine.

If I had, my diamond now had a warm hand holding it, and this was the time of my true destruction

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