My Heart (Zafier and Zaafira)
Diaries 1

~you were the biggest mistake of my life, the mistake when I didn't realize how valuable you were until I foolishly pushed you away. When, sorry, my love came late~Marva Phelan

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Marva groaned loudly for the umpteenth time. The man banged his head against the wall, sitting on the floor. He closed his eyes, enjoying the pain that was gnawing at his soul because of a word called regret.

Radit had already returned home after driving himself home. His assistant was unable to accompany him for too long because Radit had to return to the office, dealing with some problems after Marva 5 days did not enter because he was hospitalized

"gue can help lo nanganin company problems but not with personal problems lo. message me to elo, if you have to prostrate and cry blood in front of them, you really deserve to do it, but remember, if you have to bow down and cry blood in front of them, never force them to accept you because here you are the villain who creates a lasting wound in their lives" Radit said before the man went back to teasing in Marva's brain

Yes, he is a criminal, no... The villain was too noble to be paired with him, he was not even worthy of being compared to an animal.

"ARGH!! FUCK YOU MARVA!" he shouted while punching the wall, hard.

BUGH

BUGH

BUGH

blood now adorned his right fist but Marva did not feel any pain there, as the tightness in his chest took over all the agony of his body

The ping book was still in his left hand. The book he read until it felt like he wanted to die right now. Yes, he wanted to outsmart everything by taking away all his sins, but a speck of consciousness told him that there were two little angels who did not yet know his figure. I don't know, it tastes for two of his flesh that Marva wants to be selfish. He wanted to be known as a father figure to them.

deserved it?

Sentence by sentence each sheet of the book completely destroyed Marva. The memory of his cruelty to Bila again slapped his pride. The memory that he buried 3 years for the sake of his mental health after coming out of the mental hospital again roamed in his brain which made his breath gasping

The figure of the newly graduated teenager came to him resignedly in the name of arranged marriage, If the same as it seems, forced to undergo a marriage arranged by their parents, but in fact, the 17-year-old girl was able to respond with an adult attitude, inversely proportional to Marva who chose to rebel by doing physical violence and playing women in front of his own wife, as a form of rejection.

The sincere smile that the girl gave when welcoming Marva for breakfast, even though last night Marva just hit her. The sincere smile that the girl gave every night when welcoming Marva home drunk and accompanied by a woman jal*ng. the sincere smile that the girl gave every time apologized for a mistake she didn't even make. The girl stayed by his side for fear of sin leaving her husband, a husband like her who even deliberately committed adultery to get rid of her.

07 February 2020

My first love, my husband Marva phelan, thank you for mentioning my name on your promise before God. God willing I love you and will learn to be a good wife to you

08 February 2020

the first letter from you I received, which turned out to be a letter from a religious court, ignoring my pain, may I consider it a first love letter from you to me. I'm sorry I was too hopeful. hehehh

Hehehehs? Where is the girl's heart made from? Chuckles when Marva throws him a divorce letter as if it was something funny even though Marva blatantly insults him.

February 9th, 2020

first slap and mockery of you on the third day of our marriage, I hope tomorrow when you get a hug and a strand of love from your sister

A slap from her burly hand slapped her cheek hard, grabbed her hair, tried to avenge the pain of her behavior first. Paid off? Oh sure it doesn't.

03 May 2020

Hopefully one day the woman that you hug and kiss is Bila. owned by brother is Bila but why brother instead hugged another woman. I'm sure brother must be khilaf right? don't apologize, I'm sorry for the error of brother kok. hehehe

Again, for the umpteenth time the girl chuckled at the end of the sentence in her handwriting. Though Marva's behavior has crossed the line. How could he treat his wife first? Where are his brain and conscience? The answer, all because of his crazy obsession with the beautiful woman of his first love, Maya. The woman who turned out to betray him before the matchmaking herself with Bila. Arvino is proof of how the woman he fought was fighting for another man, the father of a child conceived outside of marriage.

29 May 2020

Sick. until it feels like if you want to die just see your sister wrestling with a paid woman brother on the sofa living room of our house, brother did the adultery in plain sight Bila. If it is not strong anymore brother, but If you are afraid of sin if you leave your husband Bila, because heaven If there is in the soles of the feet of the husband, even though your own brother has tarnished our holy marriage, also because.... When you love your sister, be sincere from the heart! 🖤 I want to be selfish to keep thinking that the khilaf brother did it

Khilaf's? Even he did it just to make the girl go away from him. Oh when how can I atone for all my sins to you? raung Marva

12 June 2020

Whether if you have to be happy or sad, the precious treasure that Bila has and maintains for 17 years has taken brother, If sincere because it is the right of brother as husband Bila. If it belongs to the brother completely. Although in a forced way and really hurt Bila but if I hope this is the way to sister no longer play with the sexy women, she said, hopefully with this incident you consider if there is in your life, as a wife

Dumbass! Rutuk Marva on him. How could he not distinguish between dream and reality? Back in the same day as the date on Bila's note, he thought that night was just his illusion and his sleeping flowers were making love to his wife. He was drunk but he still had a little bit of consciousness. The proof of that night when he was almost raped by Anggi in a hotel, he still remembers coming home and blatantly rejecting Anggi's touch. Stupidly, why was he trying to remember all that? When everything was too far away for him to reach. He was too long trapped in the mud of disappointment and now when he tried to get out he had turned into a dwarf man.

should he accept forgiveness for all his sins to the beautiful woman?

Bersambung....