PENGHALAM
Chapters 11. I'm willing to Share Your Love

If the wife who has been hurt and hurt many times but chooses to forgive you, not because she is stupid. His heart just can't hurt the people he loves.

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All along the journey Vira had been thinking about what she should have done. Vira doesn't want to be selfish. It's not Yudha's fault either. Saperti said her mother-in-law, if she loves Yudha, she must be willing to sacrifice.

Doesn't all this happen because of his lack of self. If only she could give her husband offspring. Of course Yudha would not ask for any of this.

"What do you want, honey?" ask Yudha.

Vira smiled cynically when she heard the words of affection that her husband said. If he used to feel happy, right now that sense has changed. It felt bland when the word was said by her husband.

If you love me and love me, there will be no second. Because if that love starts to divide it means it is no longer whole.

"I'm going to go back to work like I did yesterday" Vira said.

"Is that the only condition?" ask Yudha.

"If I apply another condition, fear that you won't be able to grant it and can't get married again!" vira said with a cynical tone.

"Don't say so, dear. Like I really wanted this wedding. Everything I do is for you too. If I have children later, you will be able to carry them too. You will also feel how to be a mother."

Yudha kissed his wife's forehead. Vira smiled cynically in response.

From today I will not cry again. I had enough tears to shed all this time. I have to be strong to deal with everything that happens in my life. I'm not gonna play the feeling anymore. My love is dead. There is no love for any man. I will serve you only as an obligation without playing with the heart again. My love has died with this heart wound.

"May I know who the woman you chose to be my honeymoon. Do I know him?" ask Vira.

Yudha nodded her head in response. Seeing her husband's reaction, Vira could guess who the woman the man chose as his honey.

"I'm sincere, Mas. If not sincere why would I allow you to marry again. I can't hold both hands, because it's hard for you to walk into the future. Let me lay one hand in his hand, for us the three way to his riddho. For your happiness, I hold one hand in his hand. Even if it hurts me so much. This may be the best fate to think of."

"Alhamdulillah if you are sincere. Because heaven is the reward for a woman who sincerely accepts if in honey. In our religion it is also not forbidden to marry more than one woman."

"Vira, in the letter of An-nisa verse three which reads, if you fear that you cannot be fair to the orphans, then marry the women you like, two, two, three or four. Then if you are worried about being unfair (in giving a living and dividing the day between them), then marry only one woman or marry the slave girl you have. That is so it is closer to not doing any wrongdoing.”

Yudha took a breath of it for a moment before continuing her words. He is not a religious expert. However, in order to convince his wife Vira, the man must learn that.

"Can you be fair later, Mom?"

"Vira, I'll try to be fair to both of you. I want to be a husband you can be proud of. Just so you know, until this moment you are the winner of this heart. Your name is still on the throne."

"Alright, Mas. I hope Mas holds his word. If later I feel Mas can not do justice, I will step down," said Vira.

"What do you mean, Vira?" yudha asked with a bit of surprise.

"I'll give in if you take our household trip later, you can't be fair."

"I don't want to part with you. It means you are not willing to share. If you're sincere you won't go."

"Don't be selfish, Mum. If it turns out I can't, I'll go. It is also to reduce your burden, because you no longer need to think about sharing love fairly. Once you get married again, I'll work. Doesn't your burden increase by marrying again."

Yudha. He knows, surely Vira wants to go back to work so as not to meet her mother often and also definitely also her new wife. However, as Vira said, he should not be selfish. Slowly Yudha finally nodded her head in agreement for Vira to return to work.

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