PENGHALAM
Chapter 38. Tired Of All This

...Sorry, let me back off. Too much patience is wasted. I mistakenly thought you would change as I persevered. YOU DON'T NEED PATIENCE. Except I was less conscious. I should have let you go early so that no man would be willing to hurt himself, for the sake of someone whose feelings had somehow grown for whom....

Vira came out of the house without saying goodbye to anyone. His heart was very wounded. This was indeed his fault, allowing Yudha to remarry.

Vira's driving a car out of town. He wanted to calm his mind. What is wrong if Vira envies seeing Weny who is pregnant, even though her marriage to Yudha just entered the first month.

The woman was driving the car at a moderate speed. Go to one of the hotels near the beach.

Arriving at the hotel, after putting his bag into the room, Vira walked out of the room towards the beach behind the hotel.

Enjoying the breeze by the beach, Vira's mind returns to Weny. Vira feels if she is a very lucky woman, just one month married to her husband, Weny is already positively pregnant.

Vira walks on the beach barefoot. Enjoy the beach sand. The woman remembered the time she was alone with her husband Yudha.

"Oh my God, I know this is all your destiny. But am I wrong to want the same thing as Weny. I also want to feel how to be a mother. I know everything that happens in this life is best for me. Teach me more sincerity in accepting your destiny" Vira murmured to herself.

Vira stopped at a shady tree. Sitting under a tree without any pedestal. His view seemed empty. Tears fell soaked her smooth cheeks without the woman being able to prevent it when she remembered Yudha's treatment of her.

The proof at this time, the man did not contact him, even though he knew he was not home. Or even her husband didn't know if she went off thinking . Vira took a deep breath considering how miserable her fate was.

"What are Your plans, Lord. I almost gave up on your test. My mind is completely drained. My soul is not okay. I took everything without anyone knowing how I was. They were fooled by my sweet smile, my cheerful face, and by my laughter. My head almost broke and I was really tired. It felt like pausing to breathe with relief," Vira murmured to herself. Her tears came down profusely wetting her cheeks.

"Remove your tears. Don't cry for someone you don't deserve. Live only once, do not waste time on people who do not consider your presence valuable. Remember, we live to seek happiness not suffering."

"Mr! Why is it here? You following me?" ask Vira.

The question Vira is able to make a Raka become misbehaved. The man smiled in response.

"Is your confidence level really high? What is the reason I followed you? I'm here to see the progress of my hotel" Raka said.

The man also chose to sit on sand. Vira wiped her tears with the handkerchief Raka gave her.

"I don't know what you're crying about, if it's for someone, I think it's worth your tears. He won't know either."

"Don't cry even if your problems are severe. Think of it as a lesson that makes you stronger. Remember, there will be smiles after tears. There will be no futile struggle. Keep your heart in order not to be hurt anymore" said Raka again.

Not to stop crying, but the sobbing sound of Vira is getting heard. Afraid of the person who looked like he was thinking, Raka carried Vira's head into her breast embrace. Vira's tears fell down her clothes.

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