PENGHALAM
Chapter 52. My regrets

A smile was always etched from Raka's face. Somehow the man always seemed happy if he had to go alone with Vira even if it was just to attend a meeting.

This time they will visit the company where Yudha works. Raka deliberately hasn't said their purpose.

Vira's forehead seemed to be wrinkled to recognize the road they were traveling. She was convinced that this was going to Yudha's company, her ex-husband.

"We're going to company X, sir?" ask Vira at last.

"Yes, they invited lunch for the company's anniversary celebration. Are you uncomfortable because of your ex-husband?" ask Raka.

Vira smiled at the man. It was not that she was uncomfortable meeting Yudha her ex-husband. He just wants to forget everything. I don't want any more contact with that guy. Although currently in his body there is flesh blood from the man, but for Vira it is not important. Didn't the man acknowledge his presence.

"I just don't want to be in touch with him anymore, sir!" vira said slowly.

"Then you go home. I need a driver to pick you up or I'll take you back to the office?" ask Raka.

Vira smiled again at the face of her boss who looked nervous and guilty. The man looked back at Vira.

"Why are you smiling?" ask Raka.

"Father when nervous is funny. I'm not what. No need to pick me up, too, sir."

"If you are lazy to meet your ex-husband, when you see him hide behind my back. That little body of yours I'll be able to hide."

"Mother insulted me. Later I fat Dad is also difficult. I must have eaten a lot."

"You will eat how many times I will prepare. The important thing is that you are happy" Raka said as she looked at Vira.

Raka's intense gaze made Vira so down. His heart beat fast as their eyes met.

Half an hour's drive, finally arriving at the company's courtyard. Raka quickly got out of the car and opened the car door for Vira.

While walking towards the company hall where the event was held, Raka and Vira became the center of attention of the company's employees. All the employees knew that Vira and Yudha had just separated.

Vira walked down. She was ashamed to be the center of attention. Surely they also know at this time Yudha has legitimately become her husband Weny one of the employees in this company as well.

Entering the hall, Vira could see Yudha standing far away. The man looked thinner and his face looked tired and pale. He looked at Vira who seemed more and more contained since they separated, very inversely proportional to her.

"Vir, I was invited there. You coming?" ask Raka.

"Brothers are there. I'm just here."

"Do I get you some food first?" ask Raka. The man had indeed gotten used to using my word as they chatted together. Raka also once asked Vira to do the same if they were alone. But to the woman I said, stating a close relationship. So he still uses it.

"No, Sir. I will be a gossip. The time of the superior who serves the subordinates. Until I get all the food. I can do it myself" said Vira nervously. The woman thought her boss was too pitched.

"Don't think about people. We're gonna be hard going."

"Father, we are social. You have to think about the words of people too. Just go there. I can do it myself."

"Non't go anywhere. Later I will find it difficult to find you," said Raka.

Vira nodded her head in response. Sometimes the boss is too possessive. Just like her partner. Vira's face flushed imagining that.

Vira walks to the food table providing snacks as an appetizer before they have lunch together. The woman took a few pieces of fruit and a glass of orange juice.

"You seem very happy, Vira," said someone. From the voice alone Vira already knew who that person was.

Vira turned around and smiled at her ex-husband. From a very close distance, Vira could clearly see his face. It looks very weak and pale. Is Yudha sick, thought the woman.

"Mas, why should I be sad?" ask Vira.

"You're right. Maybe living with me makes you depressed, so this parting makes you happy."

"Any farewell will leave a wound. Why I cry. Everything has happened. I have to be ready to face that. How is he himself. Healthy mom?" ask Vira.

"Do you remember mom? Aren't you vengeful with mom?"

"Why should I get revenge? With me vengeance will not bring all back either. I have sincerely let go of all my past" said Vira again.

"I'm not ready to let go of everything. The more I try to forget you, the more your shadow haunts me. What is the guilt in this. It all happened because of my selfishness."

"Don't regret what happened, Mom. Life goes on."

"My regret is to have been in your life and destroyed your perfection. Crying over my regrets, I know this might be karma, yes I accept this karma, the fact that time will never come back."

...****************...