The Tarnished Holy
Hikmah strand (sepesial hijri new year)
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happy reading, I hope I'm never disappointed.
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Her tears could no longer be weaved, she slammed the steering wheel with a feeling of non-smiling .Everyone can say that he is weak, but..
There is something urgent into the heart ransacking the soul to force it to cry like this . He came down and slammed the car door so tightly .la did not know, from which this feeling was present and made her in Landa agitated so much. Her hands tried to wipe her cheeks to dry, while her footsteps accelerated, she wanted to cry .In the room. alone !
fikhar's family who were talking seriously suddenly fell silent, as soon as they saw his arrival . The face of his cold papi impressed scary, while a pair of netra owned by the mother chose to avoid his gaze.although even so, the feeling of care also pain was very clearly fused on his face. And the brother, choosing to pretend not to see, as if cool to enjoy the chips of his immortality with bland chews .
Fikhar hides the book that bi May married in the back of her laptop bag . The man stepped on his feet, slowly passing through the living room with heavy strides .
He took a breath as soon as he made it through all his family .After that, he then took a towel and went to the bathroom, to be holy as his aunt had suggested to him .
"Nawaitu ghuslal repent lillahi ta'ala"
"I intend to take a bath of repentance, because Allah ta'ala"
Slowly the water flowed from the base, shedding its defenses all this time, shedding the powerful nature that had been languishing in life, he knew he was too arrogant during his life on this earth.
"Yes Rab... I hope, my sins can be shed with tears !" He nodded with tears.
Finished, he did not really understand what he was doing but his heart really meant it.He really wanted to change starting tonight.
In accordance with the prayer guide, he chose the prayer first repentance, two rakaat with readings that are perfunctory.
it has been said that he does not understand so much, but his mind is so strong that he wants to change .
Born the time he chose to rest, for tonight, in tamaram .He was a nobody, not a rich man, not a perfect man as he had thought all along but he was just a long lost servant, who had long gone ,who had long been trapped in a steep void and tonight, God waved then called him back .
"I've been gone a long time, haven't I ?
I've been leaving you so long .Aye right?
But ... Tonight I came, along with myself who had been covered in sin, with myself who was filthy and so despicable, to take this self and give it back to you .
After what I did, did you accept ? I came back because I felt that I was unable to live this life, I came back because I felt not strong with what you put on my heart .I realized that this self is weak, so weak even to breathe I need you !! " The piece of jewel again fell once his chest in the trap heard the tightness. He wanted to cry loudly , he wanted to scream but again the whisper in his cry was the slow sounding .
"Lord... Almost every major sin I have ever committed . I know my sin is greater than the sea, higher than the mountains even more than all the drops of rain .I know it, I'm a drinker, I'm a Zina offender, who has hurt both parents, and disappointed them a lot, I know that my man has endured the pain of my actions !" He grimaces, feels the pounding of pain so intense once the man who has fought and bet his life to give birth to his ,raising lovingly looming in the eye temple had secretly been crying because he had hurt her .
"I'm cruel, right ? I have dzolim, haven't I ? For that, I came to ask forgiveness from you . Yes Rab.. If you don't accept my forgiveness, lantas... To whom is this self begging for mercy ? "The scream is in the heart . His heart was tormented so severely, by the mistakes he had made.
"I know I am not a worthy person on the throne of heaven, but.. I am also the one who will never be able to withstand the torment of hell .May God, a man like me you put into heaven, marry while I overspend your prohibitions !.. I'm afraid, Rab... Afraid, too scared.. !" His tightness with tears somehow more and more dripped when he recalled the consequences of the punishment for the ban he had violated .
"I know I don't deserve this from you .If you will, find me with the shaleh, the shaleh environment, make them my family-family Sholeh people because their do'a is the hope for sinners like me . It is my destiny to always be with the righteous, Lord... If you only accept the do'a-do'a shaleh people, lantas.. To whom do sinners like me ask ? He sobbed, felt endless pain .
" I beg ... Make the one who has recently colonized my heart to be my companion the world and the hereafter...Hold and hold my heart so that it always adheres to you .Guide me until I find the light and the straight clue.. !" Cover it with tears .
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Hi sis...
I wish YOU HAPPY NEW YEAR HIJRI 1445 , . May this year be the year where the ideals and expectations of the sister are all achieved . May God eliminate our mistakes in previous years and may our worship all be in destiny for the better of the year before it .
The purpose of life is death, for that ...
Happy carving of goodness in the remains of the Year to come .
#Greetings dear, long distance kiss...
@Salma