The Tarnished Holy
It's torture!

This novel I changed the title akak, hoping many are interested in a new title to peek at the story. , but the story remains the same!

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I guess everything will be easy, like on our first night together .But for almost two weeks, everything remained the same. There has been no change in our relationship .He only spoke for something that was taught to me, the rest is not there.Although he never refused with all things my treatment to him, but still.His heart is still frozen and intact untouched.

It's okay, with her wanting to marry me too , it's something I'm grateful for .So , I say I'm fine .I really enjoyed my role as a husband of Nafisah , even if everything needed a great struggle & yet my heart did not feel heavy at all .I was so excited 'to learn what I never thought I could do before 'from washing ', cleaning ' the house ', shopping ' and a lot of things I can't call one by one. Just cooking, I think in Jakarta later I need a course first, for now I still always buy it outside.

These two weeks, I'm handling all the homework .I let her stay in room , linger with her book even though sometimes the sound of crying is often heard there. I know he still cries a lot, because not infrequently his swollen eyes I found when the morning greeted .

My heart often feels pain, not even infrequently I always find my tears falling .Not because all my struggles are not appreciated, but his views with deep wounds are what always take forcibly .If I can, I want to go back to the happy twinkle in his eyes, but I have absolutely no power over any of this . I held my breath, feeling such painful torment. I just found out, that loving you can feel this painful .

She was changing clothes as soon as I opened our room door . My body froze, my eyes hypnotized by beauty, my veins moved faster, delivered such painful torments, and I was fully aware that my perverted brain was not completely gone. I'm a normal guy, however, and holding back like that is the hardest thing for me to control.

I set my heart rate, my eyes blinked several times trying to repel the shadow of his white back that had been exposed when he tried to pull the zipper of his shirt on the back .It's so excruciating, listen ..I am so tormented ! Sick, of course !

That pain when we desperately had to hold back and control our dirty brains so, the smell of shampoo in his hair pierced his nose and ransacked every defense in me .The pain, when looking at the neckline is also a smooth calf that is sometimes exposed in front of my eyes .Sickness is like that my friend, with the woman we love in a halal state but can do nothing but look at her .

I exhaled slowly, when I found the look of the flat eyes still radiating in his view . I know his soul has been lost by half, I know that half of the Breath is not in its place because some are gone, constrained in pain and all that I did.

"Tomorrow mas want to go to Jakarta to see mami . If you don't want to come along, Mas will take you to the house of umi !"I said, Why does my voice sound cold even in my own hearing.Ah ..I forgot, that the other torments have not completely disappeared in my body.

He simply nodded in response, then thrust the empty glass towards me ."Mas do not sleep here , suppose you need something can call mas in the chair , if not in the next room !" I said tell .He was still silent not answering until I pulled his head then kissed him briefly .

I received his "Good sleep huh, good night .Love you more than yourself, promise to be okay !" Close me, and as always .Tears crept slowly, I don't know what she was crying for .

Are my words so bad ? why do I feel I have hurt her !!

I got out of the room after turning off the lights first .I hope he doesn't have nightmares like the nights before. Not that I have the heart, how could I not allow myself to be close to her if I did not want this self to really get out of control .

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sorry, if there are many typo .

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