Why Should I ?
Misses

Nadira looked astonished. How can the man ask so casually, even though he knows if Nadira is agitated to think of Kinan. What Nadira had in mind, was that it was only soon possible to arrive at Kinan's house.

"Why Dir ? Oh, Om know, you must not have eaten yet, right ? Yeah, well, what if we stopped by first...."

"Om ! Om not aware of it ? Dira again worried thinking Mama, and Om even busy thinking stomach ?"

"Mmm..bu.not that Dir. Meaning Om..mmm..."

"What Om ? Did Om lie to Dira ?"

Abbas fell silent. Even he did not dare to drop his eyes on the eyeballs of the girl beside him. The girl who was looking at him was full of anger.

"Down Nadira here Om !"

Not wanting to mince words, Nadira already knew what Abbas could not say. Nadira knew very well the spirit of someone who was lying. Just like Kinanti back then, when she covered up her mistake in front of Rama.

Abbas, however, did not pay attention to that. He just kept driving his car to split the heat during the day. The more leisure the road, the faster he stepped on the gas pedal. Even Nadira's babble that actually makes him upset, he no longer listens.

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There was not a word Nadira said. Even just a small talk to thank Abbas for the ride that he gave Nadira did not say. His heart was mumps, eager to curse the man who was much older than him. However, he still had the manners that Rama always taught. He could not possibly utter words that hurt the feelings of others, even to someone he hated deeply.

Nadira slammed the car door hard after he managed to bring down his mini suitcase. He swung quickly, half running as his heart was already impatient to meet with Kinanti and his two younger siblings.

His hand had not been able to knock on the door, but his younger brother Kevin had already greeted him with a bright smile. He suddenly opened the door, and showed a cheerful face upon seeing his brother's arrival.

"Sister Nadira....."

Soft embrace, which is no less warm than the decapitation of Rama. Kevin was too tight to hug Nadira, so Nadira was reluctant to refuse him. I feel like I miss the one so deep. He had not seen the innocent face of his little sister for too long. The sad look, who had the same high dream as him. If only time could be turned back. Nadira will certainly try hard so that the household of Rama and Kinanti does not end just like that. He will be the shield, which saves his Mama from forbidden love. But, it's all over. It doesn't take too long to regret. Everyone has their own path. Everyone has their own destiny of happiness. Time does not allow them to be together. At least, their prayers met each other in the sky, and went hand in hand to meet the same end.

"So how are you ?"

Kevin took off Nadira's body, but not completely. He still holds his brother's arm. Like I don't want to be apart any longer than that.

"Bad brother Vin. You make it as long as brother doesn't exist ?"

Nadira pokes Kevin's little nose, then he grabs the little man's shoulder and invites him to step in.

"Healthy brother."

Kevin seemed to have remembered something. He pulled Nadira's arm, as if forgetting one thing. He looked back, circled the courtyard, looking for something. There was nothing he could find, other than Abbas's car. He also did not see the man he did not like, either was away or was still in the car.

"Where's dad, brother ? Same brother Daddy's here, right ?"

Deg ! Nadira's heart was racing. Kevin's question, reminds him of Rama. Nadira forgot to give news, even happy things about his graduation.

'Stupid!' Nadira grumbled in his heart. He berated himself who could forget the figure who always gave him support, when others underestimate his dreams.

"Sister ! What father ?"

Kevin repeated the question. He also wiggles Nadira's body, to make her aware of a daydream that Kevin does not know.

"Dad ? "

"Yes brother. What father ?"

Nadira had not thought about it before. He also did not prepare an answer if his sister asked about it.

'Stupid!' Nadira cursed again. He was getting annoyed with his own negligence.

"Sister, which father ?"

Kevin is still a little guy who needs a father's love so much. He could not lie to himself even the people around him if he missed Rama very much. He always cried when he was praying, especially when remembering his farewell with Rama. The more days, not the more forget. His heart became more and more entangled with longing.

"The father of Vin's work. I haven't come home."

Kinanti who heard Kevin's whining came straight out from inside the room. He immediately answered Kevin's question, before Nadira answered wrongly.

"Mama lied, didn't she ?"

Nadira looked at Kinanti, and vice versa. With a look of pity, there was no way Nadira could tell a similar lie to Kevin.

"Father at Grandma's house in the village right, sister ?"

"Mama told me Vin. Daddy's working ! Why are you being told once ?"

"Vin, Mama didn't lie. Dad's working, let's get to high school. Let your dream of becoming a pilot come true."

Nadira crouched in front of Kevin. He wiped the cries of his brother. A gentle hug that no one else can hear. A gentle swab of Nadira's fingers, at least it could slightly ease his heart. Not waiting for time, Kevin scattered his body on a warm figure that always makes him calm. Kevin hugged Nadira. He let go of the sadness there. Pouring all the feelings that he had been holding back. Her crying broke, sobbing on the shoulder of the older brother.

Nadira let Kevin calm down by himself. He only rubbed his sister's back, and did not release the tiny body, before he took it off himself.

Kinanti looked at them fiercely. As if not happy with Kevin who was so lightly asked to be spoiled by Nadira. 'Didn't I invite him to come home ? Why is Kevin the center of attention ? Nadira, Nadira why is your attitude the same as Rama ? He is not your real father !' pekik Kinanti in heart.

"Don't be sad on deck. If you miss Dad, you pray. You ask God, so that God will keep Dad there, so that Dad is healthy, Dad is successful, huh ?"

Nadira immediately wiped away Kevin's tears, as soon as the little man stretched his arms. Nadira also floated a sweet kiss on the forehead of the sister. Her smile was charming, though her heart was broken to see Kevin's unending grief, despite the long separation.

"Sister Nadira......"

Alena, who had just seen Nadira, ran up to him. He hugged Nadira from behind. Embrace his sister cheerfully.

"Alena darling."

Nadira twisted the body, then re-embraced her youngest sister.

"Sir, Alena's kangen."

"So's not deck."

"So don't go anymore, huh ? Brother here continues. Brother Kevin, same Lena sad because Daddy's the same brother is not home."

With innocence Alena conveyed the desire of her heart.

"Lena, you've just arrived. Must be tired, we take sister to eat first huh ? Lena made cake for sister, didn't she ?"

Kinanti ended her children's drama. He immediately cut off Alena's question, before the atmosphere returned silent and gripping as when Kevin asked About Rama before.

"Oh yes, I made cake for my sister." Alena forgot, if she was waiting for her brother's answer. Her sad heart was gone, her cheerful face was now starting to decorate her beautiful face.

"Don't be good ..."

"Dong kak sure. Brother must be hooked."

Alena pulls Nadira's hand. With her outlandish accent, the little girl was agile when she made a cake with her mother. The materials he called out loud. Various flavors of cake he also served in front of Nadira. Nadira smiled, how proud he was to see the change of his sister. The little girl who when she lived could only whine, now she was good at telling stories and fluent in various names of baking materials.

"Don't you, brother ?"

Chirps Alena, the toddler girl hoped for praise from her sister.

"What a son. I like it !"

Nadira excited in biting cake in his fingers. He tried to show how happy he was with the cake made by Alena.

"Lena pinter yes. "

"Yes dong kak, will Lena want to be a rich chef on tv tv that if it's big."

"Oh yeah ?"

"Yes dong. Alena wants a restaurant when she grows up. Let brother Dira, brother Kevin, Daddy same Mama can eat good food every day."

Deg ! Nadira's heart was racing again. Since Rama resigned from the factory, they rarely eat well. Except, Abbas, the man Nadira hated, suddenly came and brought food parcels. They all enjoyed a delicious meal.

"Alena learned smart huh. Let Alena's ideals materialize."

Nadira rubbed Alena's head. Gently stroked her long hair. The round eyeball belonging to the little girl looked innocent looking at the look on her brother's face. The longing verses began to get used to detaching from the shaft of his heart. Alena's calm face, made Nadira's heart cold. Really, the chance to stare at him for longer didn't want him to miss it just like that. Perhaps, he would be a long time away from being able to see the little girl. Especially if fate has brought him to flight. Go through dreams, bring hope and come back with a thousand certainties. He wanted to pick up his success, sail across the ocean, circle the sky and come back with a million laughs.

"Snake boy ?"

Nadira rubbed clear crystals that he did not realize had dripped down his cheeks.

"No Lena, sister's just happy. I am so happy to have a sister like Alena. I'm proud of Alena."

"Alena is also happy to have a sister, who is as good as sister Dira."

Alena came down from the bench supporting her tiny body. He scattered his body, then clutched tightly the body of the brother.

"Alena love you, sister Dira."