Getting Married for Lying
155 - It's Not Your fault

"Medicine consumed Selena suppresses the performance of the central nervous system when consumed in excess. This results in paralysis of the central nervous system," Dr. Reno explains the diagnosis of Selena's condition to Vier and Vaya.

"But Selena's healing, right, Doctor?" ask Vier.

Doctor Reno stared straight at Vier as he occasionally glanced at Vaya.

"Selena can be cured. It's just, it must require effort that is not easy," replied Dr. Reno.

"Selena was so young, she was only twenty-four years old. With emotions that are still not stable, it is feared Selena will be increasingly depressed and feel that she will not be able to recover. Therefore, it must take time and enormous moral support" continued Dr. Reno.

Vaya glanced at Vier. The expression on the man's face stiffened. Vaya clasps Vier's hand tighter, assuring Vier that Vier is not alone in dealing with the problem.

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"Sir Vier, Miss Vaya, you better go home and rest. Let me and a few colleagues stand guard here."

Mike tries to melt the silence and tension that instantly creates between Vier and Vaya once Bu Cintami decides to leave the hospital. During that time also Vier and Vaya were silent, drowning in a completely gripping silence.

"It's okay, Mike, I'm going to stay here until at least we get word of Selena's condition" Vier said.

"Yes, I will also wait here," said Vaya.

"Vaya, you better go home and rest" said Vier.

Vaya shook his head quickly.

"No, Vier, I'll stay here with you" Vaya refused.

"Vaya" said Vier.

Vaya takes Vier's hand and holds it.

"I can't let you here alone, slumped by guilt that's not entirely your fault, Vier. I was wrong, Vier! I'm guilty!" Vaya can't hold back her tears.

Vier pulls Vaya into his arms.

"No, Vaya, it's not your fault. All this is my fault. What my mother said was right, I'm the one who has to take responsibility for all of this" Vier said.

Vaya again shook his head in Vier's arms.

"Vier, this whole thing is my fault. If I hadn't ruined your wedding plans with Selena, maybe nothing like this would have happened. Maybe you are having such happy days right now" said Vaya, holding back the tightness that hit her chest.

"No, Vaya, really, it's not your fault, please don't blame yourself" Vier said.

Vaya hugs Vier tightly and cries in Vier's arms.

"I'm sorry, Vier, I'm sorry" said Vaya between sobs.

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The sky began to show the bias of morning sunlight which was still so timid when peering at the horizon.

Vaya woke up from her sleep last night sleeping in a sitting position while resting her head on Vier's shoulder.

Vaya turned to look at Vier who was still asleep while crossing his arms. Vaya also saw Mike sitting in a sleeping position on another bench.

"Selena! Where is Selena?"

Vaya turned her head towards the figure of the middle-aged man and woman who had come entering the corridor of the ICU room.

Hearing the noise, Vier and Mike soon wake up.

Vier rubbed his face before approaching the two people Vier recognized as Selena's parents.

Vier shakes the hand of Mr. Steve, Selena's father. She hugged Selena's mother, Linda.

"I am so sorry, Mr. Steve, Mrs Linda," Vier said so heavily.

"Vier, you know Selena is my precious daughter, don't you?! Vier, you know Selena is my precious daughter right?!" ask Mr. Steve with a high intonation.

"Yes, I do, Mr. Steve. Yeah, I know, Mr. Steve. This is my responsibility. I will take full responsibility for Selena's recovery" Vier said.

"This is not about money, Vier! It's not about the money, Vier! This is about Selena's future! It's about Selena's future! Please consider it! Please consider that!" Mr. Steve refutes.

"Mr Steve, look, I know you are so worried, but I know what should I do. Mr. Steve, look, I know you're very worried, but, I know what to do" Vier said.

The tightness in Vaya's chest thrashed when he saw how Selena's parents were crying, lamenting the fate of their son who is currently dying and even threatened to spend the rest of his life in paralysis.

Vaya hugged his own arm, the guilt that was afflicted by him was getting bigger.

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The day seemed so cloudy as Vaya decided to sit in the garden for a breath of fresh air to refresh her lungs.

Vier offered Vaya a glass of warm milk and a paper bag with sandwiches.

"Vaya, eat it" said Vier.

"Thank you" said Vaya.

Vaya sipped warm milk which made her stomach feel warm. Vier also took a sip of warm milk and chewed on the sandwich.

"Selena's parents will take Selena to a hospital abroad. I'm sure the right treatment will make Selena recover quickly" Vier said.

"Hmm, so yeah. So, as long as Selena's on medication, you'll be with Selena?" ask Vaya.

Vaya looked at Vier fixedly.

"Yes. And I'll take that as my moral responsibility" Vier replied.

Vier looks at his smile towards Vaya. Vaya could see clearly that Vier's smile looked so bitter.

"Vier, does this mean we should split up?"

Vaya felt a sense of tightness that again squeezed his lungs. His tongue felt so faint but the question had to be asked.

Vier took a heavy breath, he threw his gaze towards the neatly arranged rows of pine trees in the hospital garden.

Vaya looked down, her tears spilled unbearably, but quickly Vaya wiped her.

"Vaya, do you love me?" ask Vier.

Vaya turned towards Vier who was now staring towards the gray sky.

"Are you going to believe me if I say that I love you?" ask Vaya.

Vier turned his head towards Vaya with a smile full of bitterness.

"Ah, yes, you won't believe me because I'm a woman full of lies, a lying woman" Vaya grinned wryly.

Vier rubbed Vaya's hair gently.

"So, you know what to do?" ask Vier.

"Give you proof that I love you" Vaya replied.

Vier nodded again, he was glad Vaya could already understand him.

"Lantas, do you love me?" ask Vaya.

Vier immediately carried Vaya into his arms. Vaya could feel Vier's body trembling. There was a soft sobbing that made Vaya unable to come to shed her tears.

Vier knows he has the dignity of a man he has to take care of.

Vier carried his forehead and nose against Vaya's forehead and nose. His fingers wiped away the tears that flooded Vaya's cheeks.

"Give me proof that you love me" said Vier. "I'll give you the same."

Vaya nodded in her tears, her quivering lips feeling warm as Vier buried her lips.

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Vaya knows, at this time it feels hard to let Vier be on Selena's side.

It does not rule out the possibility of togetherness Vier and Selena will re-seek the seeds of Vier's love for Selena.

Vaya really had no choice but to accept this situation. The circumstances in which the man must share love, affection, and care with other women.

Vaya shed her tears again. He could only cry and mourn for everything himself.

He is required to be able to accept all of this with chest space.

All of these mistakes initially happened because of Vaya. Vaya really should be heartened to accept all of this.

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