Retaliation of Disabled Girls
Chapter 2 Living Dolls

My sense of smell is gone. I went to my brother's office to tell him this. I knocked on the door and immediately entered.

My brother looks happy. I honestly can't say this, but I have to keep saying it. 

"Sister, I think there's a side effect after the magic transfer ritual."

"What side effects, Diana?"

"I can't smell anything."

My brother stood right up to me. "How is this what we should stop?" 

I was silent for a moment. Although my brother's magic power is stronger than before, he can't use more complicated magic. It was likely that the other nobles would still insult him. I don't want that to happen. After a long thought I said, "No, we better just move on."

"What if the side effects are worse?" My brother looks worried. He's got my shoulder.

I held my brother's hand. "I'm fine, brother. What matters is the honor of our family." 

"Thank you, Diana. I won't waste your sacrifice." 

My sister hugged me. I hugged him back. I was willing to sacrifice everything, even my life.

My brother started to lock me up in our house. He won't let me out. He did not want the other nobles to know our magic transfer ritual. Our family is recovering.

Then we perform a magic transfer ritual every three months. After the magic transfer ritual I lost my senses one by one. After not being able to smell anything, I could not speak and my sense of taste was gone. I communicate with people writing letters on paper.

Rumors began circulating that the Moonlight family's second child was a disabled child so it was hidden from the outside world. A beautiful girl but she can't talk. They pity my brother who has to take care of me. The nobles considered the Moonlight family's second child absent.

I don't pay attention to people's views of me. Even though I was scorned I didn't care. The most important thing is that my family can rise.

I was engaged to someone who never loved me. My brother is working with him. We got engaged to get our family relationship closer.

In the third magic ritual I lost my sight. My world is dark. I communicate with others using nodding and shaking my head, as well as writing on someone's palm. 

My fiancee left me my worst moments, I hated her. My brother canceled our engagement. He didn't want us to be in touch with the family of the person who hurt me.

Then came the fourth ritual. I prepare myself for hearing loss or my sense of speech. Life without sound or not feeling touch.

The door sounds open. My brother must have come.

"This is the fourth magic transfer ritual, Diana." Right, that's my brother's voice.

I could not see him but I knew his voice.

"Huh.huh...huh..." My brother laughed loudly throughout the room.

'What's so funny, brother?' my inner.

I shook my head a little. I don't know what to laugh about. I can't see so I don't know if anything looks funny.

My brother approached me and grabbed my arm. I looked up. I don't know where my brother's face is, I guess that's the place.

I don't understand what he's talking about.

"You sacrificed everything to lose almost all your senses. You can't see or talk anymore. I can't even smell the flowers. You are a useful victim for my sake," taunted my brother.

My brother clucked while laughing many times.

"Sadly, you'll be a disabled girl for life. Then you'll live in the void forever. I've known from the beginning that this magic transfer ritual has side effects."

I'm dumbfounded. So from the beginning my brother knew. I know and did this to my sister. Wh why? 

"You must be wondering why I'm doing this. Everything is implied by your face. I hate you Diana. You took everything from me. You made my loving mother die from giving birth to you. The father who originally loved me left me and only saw you because you had great magic power." 

I didn't know that my brother hated me so much that he was willing to bank me for magic power, but I always respected and loved him. I am completely speechless.

"One more thing, after all, you can't communicate with anyone else and you don't have anyone. You know, I was the one who planned Dad's murder. Then I changed the contents of my father's will about the head of the Moonlight family. The real head of the family is you."

I can't hold back my anger anymore. Not only did he sacrifice me, but he also killed my father.

'Basic killer!' I swear in my heart to my brother

No, he doesn't deserve to be called a big brother. I don't call him brother. I cast ice magic to attack Trevor, but my efforts were in vain. My attack missed because I didn't know Trevor's exact location. He immediately threw me with wind magic. 

I'm having trouble waking up. My body feels crumpled. The difference in our strength is too great. His power keeps increasing due to the magic ritual while my magic power keeps decreasing.

He grabbed my hand and scratched it with a knife. Blood flows. I thrashed. He hit me in the head and made me unconscious. He must have drunk my blood. The fourth magic ritual has succeeded.

The next day I could hear nothing. My sense of hearing is gone.

My world is empty without light and sound. Cannot pronounce words and taste. I can only fumble. I was like a puppet all the time.

I don't know how long it's been going. The food was fed in my mouth, I couldn't feel it. I'm just a doll that's kept alive to amplify Trevor's magic.

Then suddenly someone brought me from my prison. He told me through my palm that I was safe.

Why am I saved if I can't do anything. I can just eat, sleep and poop. Just being a burden. Surely the person who saved me must have had a certain purpose. There's no point in him taking me.

In the end, all my sacrifices were in vain. The suffering I endured was for Trevor's satisfaction only. 

I want to die. I can't stand all this. Can't do anything because of all my stupidity. If only that time I had asked the father's killer further maybe I would have known the truth. Had I not agreed to perform the magic power transfer ritual, I would not have ended up miserable like this.

If time were to repeat itself, I would avenge all that Trevor did. I will make him suffer. I won't forgive him. I will repay all those who have hurt me.

Suddenly, I felt a tremendous pain in my chest. Looks like something's been stabbed in there and blood is coming out. My body feels weak. I can't feel my hands and feet. My head is getting empty.

At least my request was granted. With this, I don't have to suffer anymore.