Tarnished Before Accident
Chapters 30. The Wrong Heart

That night, after Zoya fell asleep due to being too tired to play with Rey, we sat together on the balcony of the room. Two cups of warm tea accompanied our chat. The new habit I've been waiting for lately is talking to Rey.

The loneliness of not having a friend or someone I want to talk to makes me happy when Rey comes and invites me to talk to each other. At least, there are people who would like to exchange ideas with me.

"I didn't know you were good at telling stories." Rey sister said after sipping a warm tea that still steamed hot steam on it.

My head lowered, hiding the smile that suddenly appeared. "Not really. Everyone knows the story." I looked at him.

The man looked up, where the night sky was brighter by displaying the sparkling celestial objects. A flash of memory about the incident this afternoon made me want to find out immediately. Does Rey know if Rena's sister has returned to this city?

"Sister Rey?"

"Heem." He answered only with Deheman.

"When did Rena come home?"

He glanced at me, then set his eyes where they were. "It looks like tomorrow night. Do you want to meet him?"

It turns out that Rey doesn't know if Rena's sister is back. This is so weird. Usually, Kak Rey is always suspicious of anyone, but she does not investigate related to Kak Rena at all. Does that mean Rey trusted her so much?

I would like to say that this afternoon I met Kak Rena in the shopping mall. But soon I willed away that desire. I was afraid that my words would damage Kak Rey's relationship and trust in Kak Rena. After all, Rena said she was preparing a surprise for Rey's sister on her birthday.

"We were raised together since childhood. Although now I know that Sister Rena is not my brother, but she is still my best sister. I miss the times we were together."

I heard a breath coming from Rey's lips. The man seemed to feel guilty to me. "Sorry, maybe after this you can't be as familiar as you used to be. I knew it would be heavy. Not just for Rena, but also for me and for you. However, one thing you should know. I'll never let you go no matter what."

"Maybe Rena will be angry with me, it could even threaten to separate. But, know! I'm not letting you go."

I'm still confused about the implied meaning of his words. What does the man want to say? My brain was dull as I was translating the sentence. He always said things that made me wrong.

"You're not going to split up, are you?" I pulled her shoulder to look at me. "Sister Rey, Sister Rena loves you very much. She's happy to be married to you. Don't hurt him anymore! If me and my son could hide forever, I would choose to hide so as not to disturb your happiness."

The look in his eyes was so sweet, as if it was showing something that I myself was not clear what it was. He didn't say much when he responded to my words. However, a second after I let go of my hand on his shoulder, the man said, "What about you? How do you feel when you're with me?"

I suddenly floundered. I turned my face the other way, no longer looking into hazel eyes that were staring at me. "I ... will forever be your sister-in-law. You guys should be happy."

My eyes suddenly warmed up, holding something that almost dripped down there.

How am I feeling? I don't know. I feel comfortable with him. In fact, I always look forward to his arrival every day. I was happy when he called my name, ate my cooking, and drank the tea I made. That simple. However, he is still the husband of Rena. I can't take it from my brother.

"It's night. Sleep on!" He rubbed my head before finally leaving.

I was still silent when I saw the man's back start to move away until it disappeared behind the wall. At that instant, the corner of my eye shed tears. Why should I cry? What do I need to cry about?

It is hard to keep the heart. I can't even say and admit it. The wall in front of me was too strong for me to climb. That barrier is also impossible for me to get rid of. We're on the wrong track. There shouldn't be any heart involved in this relationship because I know how it ends.

Do you know what's scary to me right now? Yes, when I know I'm stepping into the wrong heart, but this feeling is not for me to control.