Tarnished Before Accident
Chapter 41.

Waitaminute! What did he say?

I didn't hear wrong, did I?

So lightly Rey said that. How could I say longing to her while I was just an unregarded wife. He clearly said that only loved Sister Rena. Do I have to beg for love?

Nah! That's not possible for me to do. I still chose self-esteem even though this heart actually wanted so much. It's better for me to hold back my feelings, push them to the bottom than to say them shamelessly.

"I .. not like that. Don't fabricate! I'm just upset that you came when you wanted to, and then disappeared as you pleased."

"Oh!" He's nodding.

Whahuh? Just "oh"? She responded to my emotional attitude with just the word "oh". It's a bitch, isn't it?

"If you don't miss, why get angry?"

Hearing his words, my emotions seemed to rise to the crown. Men are not sensitive to the feelings of women. I want to throw my head against the wall so that it does not tilt.

"Get out! I'm gonna take a break. Hearing you talk makes my blood pressure go up."

"really? Then just go to sleep. I'll be quietly waiting for you to sleep here. I won't talk anymore."

"Whatever!" I tilted my body, turned my back.

Piss off! I'm really upset. We only met for a few minutes, my chest was already rumbling to curse him. But for what reason did I do it?

He was right. Why would I be angry if he didn't come? Don't I really want him to stay away from me? So, why am I angry?

I felt his hand caress my head. With just a gentle touch on the head, my previously rising ice slowly receded. In fact, I myself do not understand why I became like a child in front of him. I would get angry when the man ignored me, but the anger slowly dissipated when he was near me.

The gentle touch on my head felt so comfortable. It was as if what he did was able to warm my heart. His large palms made me feel protected. It pisses me off at myself.

Hi, why am I like a caress-hungry woman? Or, is this the desire of the child I'm holding? Come on, don't make your mama like a silly woman!

I can't deny, no one has ever stroked my head like this other than the late Papa. I have never been close to another man either. Only Rey's sister has ever touched me, defended me, and hugged me. Is that why I became so emotional to him?

I felt comfortable around him, and wanted him to always be by my side.

"Sister Rey?" Trying to shake off the strange feeling that had warmed up in my heart, I decided to talk to her.

"Heem."

"Why choose me? What do you want to plan? Isn't our relationship only a few months away? What can you expect from a momentary relationship?"

The movement of the hand rubbing my head stopped, then I heard him breathing heavily. "Because Rena can take care of herself. Unlike you. You're always in trouble. Do you know, I haven't slept all night looking for you?"

"What?" I turned around, directing my full attention to the man. "Not sleeping?"

My phone was deliberately turned off so that Rey could not contact me again. Even when it was on, I activated airplane mode and cut off her mobile network so she couldn't text or call me. I nodded in response to his question.

"I'm worried about you, Alea. My responsibility is to take care of you, but you purposely ran away from me. What if something happens to you?"

"If anything happens to me? You'll be happy with Rena. Maybe it's better." My gaze turned upward, where the ceiling of the room was painted white clean stretched there. "Sister Rey, I've decided not to expect much from you. A relationship that is planned for a while, there will be no future. Come back with Sister Rena! Let's just say we're divorced because it's just a matter of time."

However, what I thought was not entirely true. Rey responded to my words with a long sentence that left me speechless.

"I really loved Rena. I let her down by marrying you secretly. But this is the destiny we have to go through. I never thought about dousing him. However, what has happened makes me have to do that." I looked at his face that changed. Is this really our destiny line? "Alea, when the child is born, I won't divorce you unless you want it" she said with hazel eyes looking at me gently.

"What?"

"There is no momentary relationship like what you think. A marriage that you consider only a deal is a real marriage. I've never messed with my wedding."

I was speechless, confused as to how to respond to Brother Rey's words. However, the man continued his sentence.

"I don't want to make the mistake of divorcing you again. For Rena's matter, whatever she decides, I will accept it even if it's a divorce. Maybe by letting go, he'll be happier."

"Sir Rey, he loves you."

He smiled in response. "What about you?"

"I ...." Why should I ask that? I can't answer it because maybe my answer will only add to the problem.

"Didn't you feel the same way?" He rubbed my head. "Do you know, Alea? Sometimes in life there is a feeling of not wanting to be guarded but not dying. There is also a story that should want to end even it becomes an eternal story. I've been trying to keep my feelings and my loyalty to Rena, but if God wants something else, what can I do?"

"You mean Rey?"

"Divorce is allowed. But God hates that. Satan will clap his hands in joy when there are divorced men after making a holy promise before God. So, I beg you. Steady, Alea! I'm not going to separate you from your son because I know you deserve to be a good mother to him. Hang on for our son! I'll take care of you both."

Honestly, Rey's words moved me. Can I be happy? Am I wrong to be touched by what he says?

I unconsciously agreed. It is undeniable that what Rey said is true. Even though I was a third party, he just wanted to account for his actions, his mistakes towards me. Whether this is the destiny that has been outlined to us or not. What is clear is that I will go through it as much as I can for the sake of the child growing in my womb.

"But, wait!" I looked at him suspiciously. Can't be swayed by his words. "If you care about me, why the last week or so has it disappeared? In fact, you never asked me."

"So that's the problem so you won't pick up my phone?"

I was silent not responding, but my eyes showed demands for answers. "My work is so much. After all, I don't need to ask you about it, because I've seen every single one of your activities at home through CCTV."

"What's? CCTV?"

I just realized that in the house there is an object called CCTV. My face is obviously embarrassed. If in my house there is CCTV, what does that mean in Kak Rena's house also equipped with CCTV? And that means I've been caught peeping at them that night?