Tarnished Before Accident
Chapter 54. Comfort

There are some questions that really do not need answers, but only need understanding. But as a woman, I need a confession. Is this story hope or just wishful thinking?

I'm waiting for Rey in her room. He said he would be home late, a lot of work to be done. Of course as a wife I have to encourage, no need to burden her with my feelings that began to be chaotic caused by the words of Kak Rena this morning.

Previously I had sincerely released Kak Rey for Kak Rena. However, ever since I became a real wife, serving her both physical and spiritual needs, the fear of losing her has become more and more pervasive. There's my possessive soul to have him whole.

Am I being selfish? I don't know, I've been too comfortable and don't want to part with him.

Sis Rey's attitude has always been gentle, treating me special. There is no gap for him. He was the perfect husband in my eyes. However, in a moment of insecurity about his feelings for me, I became afraid of losing him.

If what Kak Rena said was true that there was no love in Kak Rey's heart for me, I would try to make her love me. Four months, yeah, for four months I'm gonna make Brother Rey love me, not go back to Sister Rena again.

Maybe I look selfish because basically Kak Rena is Kak Rey's first wife. But, is not maintaining the household an obligation? I can't possibly let my husband think of another woman, while there is me and my son here waiting for him to get his attention and affection.

Scroll clock on the wall. It's eleven o'clock at night. Looks like Rey really came home late. My eyes were tired of waiting as drowsiness began to come over.

I lay my body on the bed, sleeping on my side with a pillow to prop my stomach up. Normally Rey's sister helps me sleep by wiping my stomach. Given that, I miss him.

Rey, come home quickly!

Again while asleep I felt something grabbing me from behind. Just as I turned around, the fragrant scent of soap wafted out, tickling in my sense of smell. The fragrance was so fresh that I was eager to sniff it closer by advancing my face in order to scoop it up even more.

"Hi, what are you doing?"

The sound surprised me. My eyes blinked for a moment after consciousness had already begun to creep up to the surface. There I found my nose and almost the surface of my face attached to the chest of the open field wrapped in a jet-black sleeping robe. I feel it, the damp still feels.

"Alea!" I heard the moaning sound that was held back when my palm rubbed against the surface of the chest. I turned my face up, and found that hazel eyes were looking at me sharply.

"Sir Rey, when are you coming home?" My voice sounds hoarse. Yeah, typical sounds of people waking up. I was still puzzled by my gaze pointing at her face, while my palm involuntarily enjoyed caressing the moist and fragrant surface of the body.

However, suddenly Kak Rey's hand caught my hand that had touched her since. I thought he would be angry because indirectly I had been presumptuous to touch parts of his body. Apparently not, he put my finger on his lips, then bit me small on the tips of my fingers.

I felt the heat from his breath on the surface of my finger. Highlight the eyes that had been sharp turned dim and foggy.

"Sir Rey!" I called her name, but she did not respond. His lips were still playing with my fingers in the big arms.

"Alea, touch me again!"

"W-what?" I still can't believe what Rey said. I thought he would be angry with me, but he told me to do it again.

"Your hands are so soft." He's pecking my fingers. "I love it when your hands touch me. Touch me again!"

My eyes blinked in confusion, until finally my confusion was answered with a warm whisper in the ear that made my fine hair bristle.

And right after Rey said that, she started taking off my clothes.

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In the silence of the night, when the sounds of night insects began to dominate, we were still in the same blanket. She hugged me from behind with the surface of my back against the skin on the front body of the man.

I didn't think I could do that to him. Previously, Rey always spoiled me by doing erotic touches that made me unable to resist and reject it. However, tonight he asked me to do that to him.

He enjoyed it, as if all this time craving a touch from a woman. I got late in the game, enjoying what I had done to him. Alea who was quiet and filled with acceptance, but now turned into a wild and ferocious Alea.

"Thank you" he said after the heat struggle ended with a warm kiss on my lips.

Until some time we were in the same position, I asked him.

"Sir Rey, are you asleep?"

"Heem," he muttered as he began to fall asleep.

"Sister, how do you feel about me?" I felt my nape warm up when a little kiss landed there.

"What do you want to hear?" His lips again made me unable to concentrate. He's very good at making a woman with a minimal experience like me tempted again. "Say!"

"Sister!"

Cih, I actually replied with the han village. Damnit damnit! Rey is really a teaser king. He pulled my shoulders back, making my previously tilted position become recumbent.

Now he is on top of me with his hands resting on my right and left side. I held it by sticking both of my palms on his chest. I'm gonna talk, not fuck.

"Sister Rey, up until now I've never heard you say how you feel about me. Don't you love me?"

I need to know exactly how Rey feels about me. Rena said before she left this afternoon, that maybe Rey just needed me to channel her biological desires. In fact, Kak Rena could equate me with a woman ja lang who was only made a naf su by Kak Rey without being based on love.

"Rey just thinks you're a slave to his lust. You should have realized, Alea! Rey just loves me." His words really hurt me.

Until now, I ventured to ask Kak Rey directly. I wonder if he really thinks of me as an impingement container?

"What do I answer?" He looked at me with a smile. Both of his hands that had been in an upright position were now bent so that his body was squeezing me. His large palm rubbed my head, stroking my hair. "I'm comfortable with you. And I think this comfortable feeling is more than just love. If there is no feeling in my heart for you, how could I do this with you so many times. Where could I let you touch me. And you know why I did all this to you?"

He asked while putting his thumb against my lips. I just kept quiet, waiting for the next sentence he would say. "That all happened because I .. love you."