Tarnished Before Accident
Chapter 46. Heart to Heart

You know, there are things that make a friendship or brotherhood can be cracked? One of them is if two people between them have loved the same person. No one wants to give up or appreciate their own feelings, knocking down all the struggles and togetherness that they have been through together.

Sis Rena did not accept my words, pointing right in front of my face.

"I'm sorry we were brothers." The words came out lightly from his lips, incising a wound in the heart that felt piercing more deeply.

I didn't say anything to him. Right now I can only be quiet, trying to ease the emotional turmoil in my chest. Just because he wants to throw me and my son away, Rena wants to find a father and a new husband for me. Yeah, if that comes to my criteria. However, of course I know, if the heart has been hurt, of course the choice is not necessarily best for me, but only best for him.

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I don't think Rey is going home. Or maybe he came back when it was too late as usual. But it turns out I was wrong. He came home at about seven in the evening.

Rey's sister is still the same, cold untouched. I wanted to reprimand him, but was afraid that he would be indifferent to me. However, my desire to fight for the man was already unanimous. And that's me from now on.

Just as Rey walked past me, I called out to her. "Sir Rey!"

He doesn't care and ignores me. I felt heartache responding to her cold attitude towards me. Once my call is not answered, I immediately block his steps by stretching out my hands blocking his path.

He stopped right in front of me.

I'm too naive, aren't I? Yeah, I don't think too much about consequences before I do anything. Everything felt spontaneous as my brain ruled to work on it.

He looked at me with his sharp eyes. His cold face clearly looked unfriendly.

"What do you want?" tanyanya flat.

At that moment, I wanted to stop, let him go. But, how could I give up so easily after being determined to confront him like this.

I lowered my two outstretched hands, then lowered my head in front of him. "sorry. I'm sorry."

But apparently, Rey doesn't care about my apology. He passed me by without saying anything to me.

Really, this attitude really hurt me. Why did Rey change so quickly?

I'm after Rey, I don't want her to just leave. I hugged the man from behind. My hands were tightly coiled around his stomach, while my face was drowned in his back. "Don't go! Rey, I have no one in this world. I only rely on you, having you promise to protect me. But, help! Don't ignore me!"

The hand I held tightly was opened easily by him. I could not believe that his heart was so stiff, untouched by my sincere request for forgiveness.

I bowed my face as the sturdy body slipped away from me. I don't deserve to hold her, touch her like that. I thought he was going to go after her, but he didn't. He turned towards me, touching the left and right of my shoulder with his big palm.

"What do you really want from me?"

"Nr ...." I didn't get to speak. I just want him as always, to think I exist. Not like this. We stayed flat, but berserk any reluctant.

"Don't you want me not to touch you? I've already done it. I'm trying to avoid you so I won't be tempted to make any more physical contact with you. Isn't this all your wish?"

I can only shake weakly. Is it wrong to want a little love from her?

He pushed my body, until I fell on the long sofa in the living room. He followed there, trapping me with both hands.

His face was so close to me, his breath came upon my face. Her nose touched lightly, tracing the surface of my face. I closed my eyes as the man breathed warmly into my ears, then said, "What do you feel right now? You sure you don't like my touch?"

He straightened up after saying that, then left just like leaving me. Just a small touch can intoxicate me. I couldn't lie to her how my body reacted quickly when the man made physical contact with me.

I stood up from the sofa, staring at the strapping back that went away. "Yes, I like it." He stopped his steps as he was about to set his foot on the first rung of the stairs. Good thing this time, this is the most embarrassing confession I've ever made. "I .. want your touch. I enjoyed it too." I lowered my face, biting my lower lip a little. "Maybe I'm the most hypocritical woman in the world. I wanted to, but refused. It's all because I want to be touched by the man who wants me, loves me. Is my desire too excessive? You don't know what it's like when men touch me, but instead think of other women."

Really, my chest is tight saying that. Trying to suppress the ego and mixed feelings in the heart. However, I don't care. At least what I felt was conveyed to him. Either he'll melt or hate me even more. I've resigned to all that. It seems to have been my path of destiny.

Until despair shrouded her, feeling hopeless, Rey suddenly turned to me, hugging me. My head was held tightly by him.

"Basic stupid! What are you thinking? Who thinks of other women?" He rubbed my head.

"Alea, I do love Rena. I haven't been able to get rid of my feelings for him yet." Hey, why say it again? Did he intentionally want to hurt my heart? "But I love you too. I don't know if I'll be able to love you as much as I love Rena or not. But, I sincerely married you, established a relationship with you." His burly hand touched my chin, making me look up at him. "Alea, help me learn to love you."

Her request was strange. However, I saw sincerity in his eyes. There are no lies there. I realized that. May I try to do as he pleases?

I put on a smile. It turns out that what I think about Rey isn't all true. He cares about me.

"What should I do?" I ask who does not understand. I've never been in contact with any man. I don't know how to make a man love me.

Instead of answering, Rey suddenly lifted my body, carrying me in her cradle. "Maybe we can continue that last night."

I gawked at it. "Hi, that's too extreme. Isn't there a lighter approach?"

Rey shook her head, smiling strangely. "I want a quick way." He chuckled then after a whole day of being cold to me. "Tomorrow I think again how to approach you," he added as he stepped up the stairs to take me to his private room.

"But it's still seven."

"That's better. We can warm up longer."

Oh my goodness, my brain. Surely at this time my head has been contaminated with dirty thoughts related to adult relationships.

"Oh, yeah, we'll play that movie last night, okay?" said teasing me.

I smiled shyly, drowning my face in his chest.

Do you know what makes me happy now?

Rey apparently kept a birthday present that I had not been able to give, but it turned out that she had found it. He put a snowball in which there was a mother, father, and baby in the cradle on a small table beside the bed where our wedding photo stood firmly there.