Tarnished Before Accident
Chapter 45. Disillusioned

The kiss was not the kiss like before, which was rough and painful. Her lips pressed gently, poking at my lower lip. I felt his tongue stroking the upper and lower surfaces of my lips in turn.

His eyes did not move from my dilated pupils. I was confused by Rey's attitude like this. I want to refuse, this is too soon. He never even expressed interest in me. Then, why is he kissing me now?

He hasn't taken off the paging on my lips. As if I am still and enjoying it. I did nothing until the thick blanket wrapped around my body was thrown away by him.

"Sir, emm ...." He didn't give me a chance to talk. I was caught up in his game. Until the moment I felt my nightgown with the picture of Doraemon was revealed to the top by him.

The cold night air at the same time the air conditioner swept over my skin. I felt that burly hand rub against my stomach, making this body stiffen instinctively. Then his fingers moved agilely through the surface of the stomach and back by wrapping his arms around my body.

I don't know, this isn't according to plan. I'm afraid Rey lost control. He didn't give me a chance to explain. I am a normal woman after all. A touch like this can make me float. Moreover, the erotic sounds heard from the film can ignite the passion between us.

I tried to resuscitate Rey by squeezing her hair. But I don't know why what I'm doing is driving her crazy. She let go of the kiss, but silenced my mouth with her big palm. While his lips even traced my neck by making small kisses there. I groaned when I felt a bite in my neck. He seemed to understand where the parts that make a woman's body react uncontrollably.

Really, I can't hold this. He was as if being hooded by a huge naf^su that was burning within him. I almost fell asleep. This is totally insane. Until when I felt that everything was out of bounds, that is, when the man was about to take off my underwear and put his hand on it, I could only scream. "Sir Rey, shut it up!"

His previously burning gaze now dimmed, lowering the hand that had already touched the surface of my chest. His breath was cut off, and so was mine. However, he still seemed to be able to master the circumstances. "Why, Alea? Aren't we married?"

My eyes were soaked at that moment. Does every married person have to do that? Doesn't he love me? So, how could he do this to me?

"Because you .. don't love me. Not because there is a problem with Sis Rena, you vent it to me. I have feelings too. I ... don't want to be lulled by you."

Rey fell silent, justifying my clothes. To be honest, I was a little disappointed when he chose to finish the game. However, I don't want to fall asleep. Don't let him do it to me, but imagine another woman. Of course it would hurt my feelings.

"I'm sorry, I won't do it again."

"What?" His short words were quite representative of everything. He doesn't love me. He just wanted to channel his biological needs to me. Really, the short phrase hurt me.

The man moved from his position, justifying the sleeping robe that had opened. He left while taking the laptop with him without looking at me again.

I closed my eyes. It feels so painful. But, that's how it is. Rey brother until anytime will only love Sister Rena. While with me, maybe just a form of accountability.

***

At the dinner table, there was no conversation between us. Rey's sister usually always spends her meals, but this time she only eats a little. He's getting colder and too far away for me to reach.

I had to hold this heart so as not to get too hurt when I saw him get out of the chair, go to work without saying goodbye to me. Usually, I always kiss her hands, then she rubs my head. But right now my feet are unable to catch up with him. I stayed in place watching his strapping back drift away, lost from sight.

This is how it feels to be ignored. He was very close to me, but there was a huge wall that prevented me from reaching him. Tears that suddenly drip on my cheeks. Maybe, this is the best thing so that I don't love him too deeply.

When I cleaned the dinnerware, as well as washing the dishes, there was a knock on the door. Rarely does anyone come to my house. The last time I received a guest was when Mama came to scold me. I dried my hands using a clean cloth that I hung above the sink after turning off the water tap, then rushed off towards the front door of the living room.

"Sister Rena."

***

I put a cup of tea to entertain Sister Rena. I don't understand what the purpose of coming here is. He swept his gaze over all directions, staring up at where the room on the second floor was.

"Where's Rey's room?" ask without talking.

"There, next to my room." My hand pointed upwards where the two rooms were side by side in a closed condition.

"I'd guess. You can't sleep together. Rey will never touch you." Rena smiled after saying it. I just kept quiet, not wanting to respond to her words.

"I've decided. Alea, listen to me!" Sis Rena's gaze was so sharp that it led to me. I was forced to look at her round eyeballs with bluish contact lenses.

"I knew Rey wanted to marry you just for a mistake. He just wants to account for what he did to you. Okey! I concur. I'll let Rey be with you."

I couldn't believe what Rena just said. He let Rey live with me. That easy?

"Until your son is born, Rey will stay with you. After that, give Rey back to me. He's my husband, not yours. Don't disturb our lives anymore! Can you find a husband without taking your own sister's husband?"

I gaped at hearing how Sister Rena explained her thoughts about me. He marked me as the snatch of people's husbands. In fact, here I am the victim.

"But, brother, I am also his wife. We have the same right."

"Oh, no, Alea! Stop dreaming! What kind of wife? A wife who has never been touched? An unloved wife? Come on, don't force your predestined circumstances not for Rey!" He tilted his head, as if focusing his attention on me. "Now say! Did Rey ever tell you how she felt? Did he ever say he loved you?"

I bit my lower lip. There is a sense of tightness when you realize that Kak Rena's words have a point. Rey never loved me. His fondness last night was only a form of shedding his unchannelled desires. However, his heart still belongs to Kak Rena.

"He never loved you because Rey only loved me. So give me back my husband! Let her be happy with the partner she loves. Don't be selfish, Alea! Don't be selfish! For your son's problems, if you can't find him, I can find him for you."

I didn't expect Sister Rena to say that. We are both women. I know he's hurt, but I feel the same way. Is there no empathy for me? Or maybe he really hates me right now.

I never had the intention to take Rey's sister from Rena. I always gave up so as not to hurt my only brother. However, after hearing his words today that had not thought at all of my fate as well as my son's, my intentions changed. I want to fight for Rey, to win that man's heart for myself and my son.

"Get out!" I said without looking at him.

"What did you say? How dare you throw me out of the house my husband gave me."

"I said get out, Sister Rena!" I raised my voice, not wanting to look fragile in front of him. Although my heart did not want to see the wound in his heart, but I could not hear anyone else insulting and hurting my son.