THE BALLERINA SECRET LOVE
Part 88's. Sara Thought 3's
"Why is that?" Why would he want to know if I like Matthew or not. I stared at him blatantly. Did he like me now, yesterday he was acting weird when I mentioned Nicholai, now he's kind of distracted I'm going to go with Matthew even yesterday apparently trying to get in the way of our date.
"Just want to know the truth." He replied hanging. He asked back now, exactly what he wanted. He wants to know the truth, I'll tell him the truth.
"Me and Matthew have been friends for many years, from when we were in the Corps de Ballet, maybe seven or eight years, each of us had the same dream, principal position in NYC, it's a safe point that allows us to enjoy ballet as an art and also our account is safe. If you ask me if I like it, I think we have a lot in common, our relationship will be good in the future, if we are together it must be good."
"You like it..."
"I think yes. We used to get involved in love with the location because it was too often together, it just happened. But then we became friends because I knew none of us were interested in a relationship any further. But now that he's principal, maybe he feels we can start again better, I don't know I guess so, I'm just guessing he's got those thoughts as well."
She's quiet. I'm interested in asking further.
"What's wrong, isn't it? It doesn't change anything between us, we're still friends." We remain friends. I just heard about his mother now, increasing the reason I can't possibly be anyone with a serious relationship going forward.
Although she was very seductive, maybe I liked her too, I knew enough that I could not get into her neighborhood, which was just a heartbreak ahead. What's the point of being in a relationship if you know there's going to be a lot of trouble ahead.
Again he did not answer. He finally has feelings for me. This friend's status is bullshit? She likes me, but she knows her great mother would be embarrassed if she was asked who her child's lover was.
Too complicated, isn't it.
"I guess if Matthew and I were going to be lovers in the future, I couldn't see Matthew too often. I'm sorry about this."
"He's not your girlfriend yet."
"Yes not yet. I said we'd be lovers."
"No one can predict the future. Maybe in the future you have another lover." What does it mean other lovers. Him for example? Does he want to go against his mother's wishes that he'd marry the senator's daughter.
"Yes, who knows the future. But I'm just talking about what I think." I decided not to talk about it again, if he really had the courage to say he wanted me to be his girlfriend I would reject him. I don't think our relationship is possible. "Let's eat... Oh yeah, Nicholai called you again?" I decided to switch the conversation.
"Here, he's already talked about the technical details. There's nothing to worry about."
"That's great."
The atmosphere was a bit stiff that night, although I tried to act normal but something changed. I realized if I could just be friends with him like I used to be, it would be better. There are no disturbing emotions, no hearts involved.
Now everything seems complicated.