The Lord of the Universe
Chapter 80, Stubborn Good Mother II
My mother ran to my room in a hurry. Shortly after arriving at my door. He tapped it to see if I was still depressed or not, but I didn't answer. That's enough to prove it. My mom put the key in my room keyhole and opened it.
When it opened, my mother pushed open the door. The squealing sound of the door torturing the ears was in harmony with the dark room my mother saw afterwards. The room was dark because the lights weren't on. My mother turned on the light with a switch that was nearby. He pressed it and the lights went on. After that, my mother saw me staring at the headset my father always wore. My mother was surprised for a while and then walked up to me.
"Nika...",
"..." —No response from me.
I kept looking at that headset. I am still depressed after losing someone I love. My mother went to sit next to me, put her right hand on my left hand.
"Nakano's... It must be heavy.", yeah....",
"....",
"Mother is also not willing to lose your father because he is the person I love the most...",
"....." —There's still no response from me.
My mother looked into my eyes. Eyes that have no life in them and blank stares that continue to look towards an object, ignoring other objects.
"I'm sorry, because mom can't take care of your dad and you.... Forgive me for being weak... Therefore.please open your eyes once more!",
"....".
My mother began to cry seeing her own son could not smile anymore and tried hard to achieve his dream. He blames himself for not being able to protect 2 things that mean to him. He felt weak and useless.
"Nakano's... If you're still there, please be aware... If you don't.. you'll make a mistake like mom again!",
"...",
"If you don't open your eyes... He'll be disappointed in you! Please open your eyes again... Don't lose the darkness!".
I wish I could move my mouth to talk to you. Mother, actually I want to say that I still have the roots of my life.
"Nakano's... Forgive me for not being able to take good care of your father and yourself. Therefore, I want to guide you so that you do not make mistakes like this mother of yours! Please..give me one more chance!".
Is it true that I have been defeated and swallowed by darkness? Can I just give up on seeing my loved one die fighting for something precious to him? Did... I have lost here?
Suddenly a voice I knew muttered in my mind.
"Nika....",
"Nika....",
"Nika....",
I remember what I should remember forever. The words he gave me!
"...Enjoy everything the universe has given you... If you don't like... Fight them with a smug smile!".
There he is. there he is... If I don't like what the universe has given me. I just have to fight it! Now.. wake up! Wake up! Wake bad! Wake up! There is a new day waiting for me!
Out of my mind, my mother saw my hands begin to shake. Slowly my hands began to move lifting the headset I was holding. It lifted him slowly up to the top of my head. I moved it down, more precisely wearing the headset slowly. And after a moment the headset was attached to both of my ears.
My body began to shake and I immediately stood up startling my mother. My stiffened face tried to smile wide without obstacles like my father did. Smiling arrogantly without fear. Enjoy all the fighting because that is the way Sakamaki works!
My mother was silent to see myself smiling arrogantly with a gaze that began to live. That smile reminded him of one thing. One thing is valuable to him.
"Yo. Mother." I said.
Although the words were a bit harsh for a mother, but my mother did not care because those words were for her an encouragement. He looked at me with widened eyes in surprise. I extended my hand to him.
"Let's get up and meet the others" I said,
"Nakano.." he muttered.
He stood up ignoring my hand and immediately hugged me.
"Nakano's... Thank goodness..!" said.
I smile. I can't change my full facial expression, but just a little change is okay?
"Then come on." I said and continued,
"There's a new day waiting for all of us.",
"Yes. Come on!" the answer.
The headset that my father always wore, is now worn by me. It doesn't feel right to wear someone else's, let alone I'm not their real child, but this headset is like talking to me begging me to wear it. It's weird but.. I'll keep and keep this thing well, on behalf of Sakamaki— No. On behalf... Izayoi.
And that's how my journey doesn't stop. I will not stop until my dreams are fulfilled. Not just for my own sake, but for all of them who helped me achieve my dream. I won't let them all down, especially you, Dad... Thank you for helping me achieve my dream. Thank you for teaching me to be strong. Everything you give me, I'll keep it all right. I will take care of Mashiro, and someday I will take care of your Universe like I promised before. Thanks again for everything...