The Price is an HONOR
A GOOD LISTENER

SEAN POV

This is where we are now, on top of Rain's inpatient room gurney. I sat on top of the gurney holding Rain.

Since then he cried, I don't know how many liters of tears he came out until I was afraid his tears were dry.

Yes, we are both in mourning. Grieving for the departure of our future unborn child into the world. I try to look strong and not cry, even though I'm not that strong. Men can cry too, but not now is the time for me to cry. Rain needs my support, and I need to be strong for him.

"God should not give happiness that is only temporary like gini. It's too short, until I don't want just how many days I'm on a night's day because I tested positive for pregnancy."

"Don't say that. We should still be grateful at least ever to lose that happiness even if only for a moment" Sahutku while caressing Rain's messy hair. Yes, Rain is usually beautiful, neat, fragrant, today looks messy, lemes, shoots even though still beautiful.

"Too late Sean, so suddenly like just a dream."

"Relain beb, maybe not yet when we become parents. Maybe we should just solidify ourselves in order to deserve the name of mama and papa."

"So you don't think I deserve Sean to be a mama?" Rain asked while looking into my eyes.

I'm afraid of wrong talking. Conditions like this are very sensitive. Wrong can be big.

"It's not appropriate yet I mean beb. Maybe it's not time yet." I am correcting my words.

Actually I'd love to ask why he got out of the room, just so he should have total bedrest? And where is SiAlan? I told her to take care of her brother and say kayak gini. But I'm still wondering if the time is right to ask that now.

"You must be disappointed, right? You must be guilty of me for not being able to take care of our future child?"

Shitt, Rain is a psychic kayak. He can fill my heart.

"Why did you get outside until you hit the gurney? shouldn't you be bedrest?" Yeah, I finally asked too.

"All my fault Sean, I'm careless. Well, you said, I don't deserve my mama's title yet. I don't deserve it yet." Rain's tears fell even more.

"Udah dong beb, don't cry. I'm not fucking you." I said while wiping away her tears. It's actually a lie that I didn't blame him at all. I'm disappointed why he's this frivolous.

"I know you're disappointed in me Sean. I can see that in your eyes."

Rain Pinter read my heart through my eyes. Does it look like I am disappointed right now?

"Sean, can't you buy me some medicine?"

"What medicine? did not get medicine from the doctor. There's a lot of medicine on the nightstand." I pointed my chin over the nightstand where there was a stack of drugs that I didn't understand one use.

"Medicine amnesia."

I immediately glared at him, is there a drug like that?

"I want Sean's amnesia. I want to forget all this. I want to be free from all these regrets. This is too much for Sean. I was at a point where I was disappointed in myself. I'm not just not worthy of being called a mom. But I'm not a good son, not a good brother, not a good daughter-in-law, and not a good wife. I let everyone else Sean down. And worse, I let down everyone I love."

"Sean, want you to be a good listener."

"Of course."

"I need a listener, a pure listener."

I nodded, I understood what a pure listener meant. He didn't want me to comment or say anything. Yeah, maybe he just needs to get all the burdens out of his life to be relieved.

"Well, let's just say I'm a mannequin or a wall, or whatever you want."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I sold myself. If only time could be turned back, I'd like to be at the point where it hasn't happened yet. I want to meet Doraemon, I want to pinjem tools to improve my past. I don't want to sell myself Sean. I'm sorry, so sorry."

If there really is such a device. We will not meet dong Rain if you do not sell yourself.

"I know you paid a lot to buy me at that time. 1 billion right? Haha."

Jeez, how come Rain cried while laughing anyway, I swear my horse feathers goosebumps.

"You can work and get 1 billion more. But me? I can't get my honor back. I can't get rid of the name of the prostitute that's attached to me. I can't Sean, I can't. I was a prostitute once. And at any moment, people will remember me as an ex-prostitute."

Rain cried until his body shook. I really can't bear to see it. Looks like my guess is right, dad and Alan already know about this.

"I disappointed my father. It should have been my stupid brain thinking a little bit about my father's feelings. About the sacrifice of the father who had been willing to be branded as a murderer to preserve my honor. But I'm too naive, I'm a spoiled girl who doesn't want to work hard. I do an instant way to make a lot of money. I should have sold the organ at that time, why should I sell the honor? hahaa."

Rain again laughed, I swear I was so scared. Afraid that he's depressed.

"There's no profit I can have other than just 1 billion dollars being spent in an instant. My future is ruined because of that. I was branded a whore for life and I don't know how many sins I got out of it all. I'm like a 1 billion nukar with the same curtain as a golden ticket. It's so beautiful."

Is getting me not an advantage for Lo Rain? Because it is also because we can know until marriage? I know the future is ruined that you mean the future of you ama the recruit. Can't I change a brighter future for you? But I think the future with me is far below the expectations of a bright future version lo.

"But it's too late now, Dad, Alan, your parents, everyone's disappointed in me Sean. I had to pay a heavy price for one mistake I made. And I feel like I have to pay more than I get. I got 1 billion dollars, but I had to replace it with the loss of someone I love. It's not fair Sean, it's not fair."

I hugged her tighter, I wanted to say that she didn't lose me. I will always be there for him.

"I think I just lost Gaza because of my Loyalty. But it's actually more than that. I lost everything Sean, everything."

Why use all things Gaza. Wanted to see me become. Lo felt like she lost everything Rain. Do you not want me? Don't you realize you lost everything but got me? Is getting me not worth the loss of Gaza and the future you've dreamed of?

I want to scream like I made Rain. But I held myself back because now I am a moan. I am just a pure listener. And I've decided to be a good listener.

"Dad hates me Sean, Dad's disappointed with me. I'm mean, evil, same father, same Alan, same son of ours and the same of you. Not only that, I'm also mean to your parents, they must be so happy that their son married an ex-prostitute."

Nyesel I just wanted to be a listener. I should be able to talk now, not nahan nayak gini.

I really want to say aka ask, I mean this does not mean Rain for you? Love is not like Rain. I don't think there's any gratitude for me. Lo from earlier just said that you lost a loved one due to selling yourself. You do not realize at all because it's because you dapet me, I Rain, me, your husband. Ocean Calandra's.