The Price is an HONOR
FEAR OF OPENING THE HEART

Rain and Sean enter the ballroom of a luxury hotel. They both look very compatible, the handsome one is beautiful. After a little greeting with the other invited guests, they went straight to the temple.

Yes, today is Leo and Zalfa's wedding reception. After repeatedly asking for instructions through Istikharah prayer, Zalfa finally accepted Leo's proposal.

"Congratulations." Say Rain while cipika cipiki with Zalfa. Today Zalfa looks very beautiful with a white dress and matching hijab. "May sakinah mawadah warohmah. And hopefully quickly given a baby."

"Amin. I also wish the same for your marriage and Sean's sister." They are both more familiar now. Since her best friend Maya works out of town. Rain had no friends until he became acquainted with Zalfa.

"Congratulations Bro, finally you merid too. I thought you were going to be an old virgin." Sean Ledek.

"Damn Lo." Leo slumped Sean's shoulder slowly. "Where might be a man as handsome as me being an old virgin. That's a very impossible thing."

Sean flicked his lips to listen to Leo's babble which he thought was too narcissistic.

"Gue can't wait to share duren. Virgin Bro, I don't think I'm gonna sleep all night." Leo's whispers in Sean's ears while smiling a smile at the thought of his first night. His breath even went up and down just by imagining it.

"It's a pity bini lo, still a virgin dapet who already used to have lo."

"Bini lo not aja, Lo also used goods, do not pretend to forget. What if we bet?"

"What order?" Sean frowned. "Nebak lo's bet is strong how many rounds ntar night?"

"Not that." Leo clucked. "We bet on who's going to be dad first. The loser has to pay for the cost of labor while buying all the baby's supplies." Said Leo excitedly.

"It's a song you use to make bets. Tell me if you have no money to finance your wife's lahiran."

Leo chuckled at Sean's words. Instead of not being able to finance, he just tried to get free.

"So you don't dare?" Leo smiled with disdain.

"Ish, who's afraid." Sean pretended to be confident when he believed the possibility to win would be very thin.

"Okay if you dare." Leo immediately shook Sean's hand as the beginning of the agreement. "If I'm sure I'll win." Leo is so confident. It made Sean think of something.

"Don't tell me Zalfa's pregnant now? is that why he wants to marry you?" Sean hurriedly pulled out his hand that Leo had broken. He feels trapped.

"Yes, it's not. Bini I'm a good girl, sholehah. Where to be invited ml before merid. Which is really you." Leo, who did not accept Sean's words, immediately denied it by speaking a little loudly until heard by Rain and Zalfa.

The two women stared intently at her husbands. Now they knew what topic the two of them were talking about.

"Furniture if you want them to gather so. I'm sure the talk is not far from the bed problem." Rain grumbled while rolling his eyes off guard.

"Gue sure will win because I know you fast every day." Ledek Leo whispered in Sean's ear. "If I were, I could be sure that overtime would continue every night making a baby." Leo laughed in satisfaction after successfully taunting Sean.

"Damn lo." Sean swapped Leo's shoulder and pulled Rain down. He didn't even congratulate Zalfa on Leo.

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On the way home until they were ready for bed, Sean said nothing. He kept bending his face. It seems like he has a lot of thoughts.

Leo's words really disturbed his mind. Her marriage to Rain has been going on for 4 months. But everything is still like a road in place, there is no progress at all.

Rain who was wearing skin care noticed her husband from the mirror in front of her. He felt strange to see Sean who had just been quiet. Usually the guy talks a lot. If you are silent, you must be playing a cell phone. But this time, Sean was seen sitting quietly while bending his face.

"Why are you?" Rain asked as she crawled up onto the bed and sat down next to her husband.

"We've had four months of Rain's marriage, but it's still like this. Is it so hard to love me?" Sean asked back while glancing at Rain.

Rain is actually starting to love Sean. It's just that he's still worried. He was still afraid to open his heart to Sean.

"Do I really not deserve to be loved?" His tone sounded like a desperate man. There was not much time with Rain anymore because she only gave him 6 months.

"It's not like that Sean. No matter what it's worth?"

"I'm scared."

Sean frowned. He thinks Rain's answer is confusing.

"Why?"

"I'm scared when I remember all your habits Sean."

"meaning?" Sean was confused. His brain could not yet digest Rain's words.

"I'm afraid you can't be loyal to me. I'm afraid of your habit of seeking outside satisfaction. I'm afraid when you get bored of me, you'll find satisfaction outside. I'm not ready for heartache, so I don't want to fall in love."

Sean sighed, he could understand Rain's fear. He knew he wasn't a good person all along.

"You don't have to be afraid. Wasn't it during my time as your husband I never did that again. Even though you never gave me what I wanted, I also had no intention of seeking outside satisfaction." Sean tried to convince Rain by looking her in the eyes.

"I just want your satisfaction Rain. From my wife, not from any other woman out there. I want a warm wedding Rain. Which makes me always want to go home and spend time with you. I want to have a child with you. Take every breath with you and age with you." Sean gently grasped both hands of Rain. Frowning their fingers and kissing them many times.

Rain's heart was racing as Sean kissed his fingers. Sean's gentle touch of lips was able to make him tremble.

Rain saw the seriousness in her husband's eyes. I don't know why the fear is still there. He can't just trust Sean.

"I'm afraid I can't satisfy you like the call woman you are with. I don't have any more confidence in that than Sean."

Sean closed his eyes. He did not expect Rain to think that way.

"Why do you think that far. Don't think too much. If you keep like that, until anytime you won't be able to open your heart to me. You know, only with you can I feel Rain's satisfaction. I just want to climax with you. I just want to give my seed to you. Ever since I married you I've had no passion for other women."

"Lied." Rain threw out Sean's hand that was holding onto him.

"liying?" Sean Frowned. He doesn't feel like he's lying. Everything he said was true. "I said the real Rain. I just want you, not another woman. Even if you stand among a thousand women in front of me. My eyes will always be on you."

"You forgot what you were doing at Leo's apartment back then? Do I have to remind her again." The memories are still clearly imprinted in Sean's memory.

Sean breathed. "That was all Dino. Dino's calling women not me."

"But you're having fun with that woman, I saw it for myself. I saw that woman groaning over your body. I saw my eyes closed enjoying it." Remembering the incident made Rain's chest tight.

Sean scratched a scratch on his head that was not itchy at all. He was confused as to how to explain.

"I'm intoxicated Rain, I've already rejected that woman, but she keeps paddling me."

"But you seem to enjoy it. If I hadn't come, you would have made love to her. It's disgusting, just imagine I want to puke." Rain immediately threw his face in the other direction.

Sean pulled both of Rain's shoulders to face him. "Everybody has a past Rain. I know my past is bad. But everyone can change too. You just have to trust me. I love you, I just want you, not another woman."

Rain fell silent, he did see Sean had changed a lot. Moreover, Sean's attitude has been pointing out if the man really really sincerely loves him.

"Please open your heart to me. Don't think of anything that can't happen. I can't turn to another woman. Can you be my full wife from now on?"

Rain was silent, he was confused as to what to answer?

"I love you Rain, I really love you."

Sean brought his face closer to Rain, putting his forehead on Rain's forehead. From such a close distance, he could feel the warmth of Rain's breath sweeping across his face.

Sean couldn't bear to see Rain's lips. It felt like he was almost crazy for enduring the passionate turmoil that ruled over his entire body and mind. Sean kissed the woman he loved very gently.

Rain's heart was like it wanted to jump from its place. Sean's lip-sweep really shook his defenses. He felt like a vibration he had never felt while with Sean.

"I want you Rain. I want you so badly tonight." Said Sean in a hoarse voice, the man was no longer able to resist his desires.