The Price is an HONOR
UNPREPARED

Pov Rain's

Today for the first time I entered Sean's apartment. Apartment 1 floor is luxurious but not too big in my opinion. The interior design is very elegant.

"We're just two here. But once every 2 days there's usually a housekeeper from my mom's house who comes to clean clean."

I just answered him with a nod of my head.

"This is our room, you can put your clothes on that cupboard." Sean pointed at a closet in the corner of the room. "I don't have much of a book, so the right armoire is still empty."

I opened the closet. The 4-door closet was only half filled with Sean's clothes. It seems like he is different from other rich people who usually have a special room to store his wardrobe.

"My book is not much. Flat just work clothes and daily only. I'm a guy anyway, so I don't need a lot of clothes. Wherever you wear a shirt and a suit."

"If you're tired, rest first. There's still work to be done with Danu." Sean sat down on the couch and opened his laptop.

I put my clothes together in the cupboard while occasionally glancing at him. It still feels strange to be in a room with him. After putting together clothes and other items, I felt confused about what to do. This relationship is too awkward in my opinion.

I sat in bed playing with my phone. Nothing really matters, I'm just playing a game. That's also I can't concentrate.

To be honest, I don't feel comfortable in a room like this with Sean. How can I rest if I feel my movements are being watched. I don't think I can breathe in this room.

Sean looked like he was working. His eyes looked at the laptop, and several times he chatted over the phone with Danu. But sometimes his eyes glanced at me.

"Why not sleep? are you not comfortable here?"

I was confused to answer. I honestly am uncomfortable. But do I have to be honest?

Sean closed his laptop and walked towards me. My heart just happened to beat so fast. I crumpled the bed linen so nervous. I'm afraid she'll ask for her rights as a husband. No, no, I'm not ready.

"How about we have fun first." His words were right in front of my face. Our faces were so close that I could feel the warmth of his breath. My body goosebumps when Sean's fingers touch my lips.

Suddenly the shadow of Gaza appeared. Yes, I should have married Gaza instead of Sean. I feel guilty for Gaza. Our marriage was annulled because of my stupidity.

Cup

I could feel Sean's lips start touching my lips,****** and sip. I closed my eyes, but the shadow of Gaza filled every side of my brain.

The shadow of the past when I kissed Gaza was like it was turning back. It was so different, so ungodly my kiss with Gaza. Forgive me God, I thought of another man when I was with my husband.

I was surprised when Sean bit my lower lip. Yeah, maybe he did it because he felt there was no return from me.

I wanted to end the kiss, but Sean held my nape so I couldn't escape. Short of breath, I don't feel like I can breathe.

I immediately picked up the oxygen as Sean let go of his lips. My breath was so dull, I had never kissed before.

Sean kissed me again as his hand squeezed through my chest. I immediately removed her lips and removed her hands to get away from my chest. Honestly, I feel uncomfortable.

I did this with Sean. But it feels so different. In the past, all I had in my brain was money, money and money. I'm just thinking about how to make money on Alan's medical expenses.

But right now, all I have in my brain is Gaza, Gaza and Gaza. It's all too heavy. I keep thinking about Gaza.

"A. It'll be tonight." I said in a brick-styled voice. How can I do that with Sean if my brain is full of Gaza.

"I'm tired Sean, I want to rest."

"Again, after that you can rest." He said while trying to take off my clothes. I held his hand while shaking.

"I'm not ready Sean, please don't force me." I am gathering all the courage I have.

"What! I didn't listen wrong? What did you say just now, not ready?" Sean randomized his hair, it seemed like he was very upset.

"This is not the first for us. We've done it Rain. And you were ready. You're not resisting at all." Sean protested.

It wasn't like I didn't refuse. But more precisely forced. I signed the agreement. And I need money too.

"When I paid you, you wanted to. Now that you're my wife you refuse. I swear, it's funny." Sean smiled cynically.

Yeah, sounds really funny and cheap. I was even ashamed to hear it.

"Oh I know, don't don't because of the dowry I gave less. All right then, just tell me how much you want. I'll give you this right now," Sean snapped while looking at me intently.

That's not why I refused. I was a little disappointed about the dowry. But I don't mind it.

"I'm not against Sean, I just need time. My mind is still fucked up."

"You why? thinking Gaza? huh uh?"

I kept quiet because I couldn't say yes. Sean can read my mind.

"Why are you silent? are my words true?"

I kept quiet because I didn't want to make him angry.

"Shit."

BRAKKS

Sean came out of the room and slammed the door as fast as he could. I jumped because I was shocked by it.

I refused not because I didn't want to do my duty. But more to me takes time. This marriage is too sudden. Too late for me to be the wife of Ocean Kalandra.

At least make me understand this situation first. Make me understand why you want to marry me.

I can't continue to refuse, but at least wait for me until I can truly accept this fate.

Forgetting someone and replacing them with new ones is not easy. Moreover, me and Gaza have been in contact for 3 years. There are too many sweet memories between us that are not easy to forget.

Until 9pm Sean hasn't been home. I started to feel anxious, I was afraid something might happen considering that he was gone in an emotional state.

Many times I called him but he wasn't picked up. He must be very angry with me.

Being in the apartment alone made me feel a little scared. This place is still too foreign to me.

"Where are you Sean, why haven't you come home yet." I muttered while biting my fingers and pacing back and forth.