The Price is an HONOR
WILL YOU MARRY ME?

AMAIRA POV

I couldn't sleep last night. Because what? thinking about Alan. Thinking about the look in her eyes, thinking about the song she was singing, and thinking about what she wanted to talk to me about.

Did I baper after hearing the song? answer yes. I wish he really felt lost when I left. But I don't want to be too confident. Maybe during these 4 years, there have been other women who filled his heart. And maybe, last night's song for that girl.

I hate myself. 4 years I tried to run from Alan. But I still seem to be at the same point. Like running on a treadmill, I stayed in that spot.

I dated Edward one year. But never once did my heart beat ungodly when with him. But with Alan, just looking at his eyes, my heart was like running a marathon.

"Excuse me Non, there's Mas Alan in front." Bi Surti told me.

Alan's? she here? she's looking for me? wh-wh-what for? All those questions filled my head.

"Yes Bi, I'll see you later." I answered while moving from the gazebo in the back of the house.

I saw Alan sitting in a long chair in the front yard of my house. Since long ago, he was not very willing to go into the house. He said he was more comfortable sitting in the yard.

"Al," Sapaku as he walked towards her.

"Ma." He stood up when he saw me coming. "I'm bothering you?"

"No, sit down Al." I let him sit back. For a few minutes, we were silent. It feels so awkward.

"What's Al?" I finally broke the silence.

"How are you?" ask her while looking into my eyes. I lowered my head, because looking at Alan would only make me weak, leaving me helpless.

"Nice Al."

"I'm glad to hear it." He said with a smile. "Have you been healed?"

"Alhamdulillah, finally with the struggle, I was able to recover from cancer. Fortunately, my illness was quickly detected, so it can still be cured." It feels like a miracle I'm healing. I thought I was going to die soon.

I saw Alan reach into his jacket pocket, he kind of took something. And it turned out to be true, he took out a small black box from his jacket pocket.

Alan knelt down in front of me. And when he opened the box, my eyes were perfectly rounded. The ring, the contents of the box, is a ring.

"I once promised to marry you when you're cured Ra. And I want to keep my promise. Will you marry me?"

Deg

My heart stopped beating. This isn't a dream? Alan really proposed to me right now?

"Will you marry me?" Alan said that again because I was silent.

Too late, too late. If only you had said that 4 years ago. I must have said yes without thinking. But now, there's Brother Edward, and I have to guard his heart. I don't want to worry about people who love me.

"Sorry Al, I can't."

I saw a look of disappointment in him. His eyes look glassy. But suddenly he smiled absurdly.

"I'm sorry Ra, morning already bothers you with silly things like this." Alan let out a slow breath while scratching his nape. It was obvious that he was hiding his nervousness and disappointment. "I don't know myself. I hurt you, but still dare to bed you. Begok lo Alan, don't know very well." Alan cursed himself.

"I'm sorry Al."

"Why apologize? you're not wrong. I am the sad one. But at will, I have made my promise Ra. And I feel relieved. At least, I've tried even if it ends with a rejection."

I saw a wound in his eye. And my chest hurts so much. Did I hurt Alan?

...******...

"Udah yuk yuk yuk." Sean could not wait for Rain who had been busy dressing up. "We can be late, the show is about to start." Said Sean while watching his watch.

"Yes, yeah, just hang on. I want to look perfect. I don't want to be ashamed of you in front of your friends. You say you're the most handsome among your friends? So I should also be the most beautiful dong." Say Rain while tidying up her make up.

Sean sighed, waiting for a woman to dance and indeed needed extra patience.

"Well, what do people think? What matters is that you are the most beautiful in my eyes."

"I don't want to lose if you're going to appeal to me with Delia."

"No need to insecure that way. You are more everything than him. It's ayok." Sean's words just made Rain feel relieved. At least it reduces his nervousness a little bit.

And as Sean had guessed, they came late. The committee has finished with the opening event and now the dining event is just to eat and relax.

"Hi Sean, you just came." Sapa Ahmad, the chairman of the committee.

"Sory Bro is late."

"Lo don't forget to fill the show?"

"It's really, just calm down." The committee asked Sean and his friend who used to join a band to contribute songs.

"He's lo's wife?" Dono asked who saw Sean holding a woman. "It turns out to be more beautiful than in the photos, huh? as if I only ever saw in the feed ig lo doang. I did not marry ngundang. Said the son of the sultan?"

"Just a family. My wife doesn't want a reception. Oh yeah, know this."

"Rain." Rain reached out his hand and was held in turns by Sean's friend.

"Gue go there first." Sean takes Rain to meet another friend.

"Sean, I'm not comfortable. No one knows. Where the hell is zalfa?" grouse Rain.

"Take it easy, just stick me if you feel like no one knows."

Rain sighed and nodded. His eyes combed in all directions in search of Zalfa. But he only saw Leo.

"That's Leo's brother, there yuk."

Rain and Sean approach Leo, who is talking to a friend. And it looks like Rain has to swallow the disappointment that Zalfa didn't come along. Their son was sick, so Zalfa had to take care of him.

Rain had to be left alone because Sean had to play with his friend.

"So that's Sean's wife?"

"Beautiful, but not as sexy as Delia."

"Well, Delia is a model. He was just Sean's secretary."

"It's lucky, from secretary to bini."

"But beware, who knows Sean will be smitten by his new secretary. As soon as she doesn't work, housewife does."

"Denger of gossip anyway, is he ex-Gaza?"

"Lo's oath?"

"Crazy, Gaza used to call Delia. Now Sean's got that revenge?"

It was more or less like that crunch of crunch heard in Rain's ear. But he chose silence and would not respond. Rain looked for a seat in a rather quiet place while playing mobile phone. Honestly, he was bored. Sean and his friend are still checking sound.

A waitress approached Rain and offered him a drink, feeling very thirsty, Rain immediately agreed.

Rain did not pay much attention to his drink, he who was busy playing mobile phone immediately gulped his drink. Rain felt a little strange about the taste, it seemed like he had never tasted a drink like this.

"What the hell is this drink?" Rain watched the glass, the drink was clear, colorless. Rain then tried again to taste more. "I swear, it's weird."

Rain puts down his drink when he sees Sean and his band in action. Sean really looks good when strumming a guitar on stage like this. The spectators shouted. Not a few who screamed calling Sean's name. And that made Rain a little jealous.

Rain was approaching the stage. She wanted to see her husband closer. He also wants everyone to know that Sean is his.

But just as he was standing up, he felt a strange feeling on his body. His body was hot, his head was dizzy and his vision was a little fireflies.

"I why? why is my head so heavy." Rain monologued while holding his head.

Slowly Rain walked closer to the stage. He was afraid of fainting, at least if he fainted on stage, Sean would see him. That was what Rain had in mind at the moment.

Rain felt his body shake. Several times he even hit people. Rain kept trying to walk until again he almost hit a man. For the sake of avoiding, Rain actually almost splashed into the pool in the middle of the event venue. Lucky someone pulled his hand so he didn't fall. Rain fell into the man's arms.

"Aren't you talking?"

Rain was familiar with that voice. Slowly he lifted his head. Speechless.