The Price is an HONOR
BEREFT

After class, Alan immediately headed for the parking lot. He wants to go home soon because he's not feeling well. At the end of this he often late to eat even not eat because of his chaotic mind.

"Now don't you ever bring another car, Al?" Queen asked who had followed Alan.

"It's none of your business." Alan replied while wearing his helmet.

"So the rumor that Amaira has not studied here anymore is true? You guys broke up?"

"It's none of your business." Again that word came out of Alan's spicy mouth.

"How about if you're dating me now. You can use my car every day, I don't have a problem."

Alan snorted in annoyance. I don't know, he feels the image of a guy matre is very attached to him. He never asked Amaira for anything.

"Gue less what the hell Al, I'm not less beautiful than Amaira. I'm even sexier than she is. He is richer than me. But if only give car and meet your needs anyway I can do it."

Alan smiled cynically. His pride auditioned snagat trampled by Queen.

"Sorry I don't like your offer. And your words just now, have hurt my self-esteem as a man. I feel more comfortable with Queen. Did you finish the talk?" Said Alan with a sharp look and immediately turned on his motor. He left the Queen still standing.

"Ish, damn it, pretentious talk about self-esteem. But it's clear that that's the guy matre." Queen stomped her feet to the ground in annoyance.

...*****...

Arriving home, Alan immediately laid his body in bed. This time his body was very unfriendly, his head was dizzy and a little feverish.

Alan looked at his phone. The phone that used to never be quiet from the notification because Amaira always sends chat, now it becomes quiet like a broken phone that can not sound. The girl always routinely woke him every morning, asked him to eat, had a bath, had slept and had been others. Alan was worried because of his attention. Even Alan was lazy to reply to his chat.

Amaira also always routinely sends emoticons love before going to bed. The girl never even got mad if Alan didn't return the message.

Amaira is too caring, until Alan considers it more. But now, he misses that attention. He misses the sound of incoming chat notifications. She misses the sound of Amiara's carousel waking her up every morning.

"Gue misses you Ra." Alan was monologuing while staring at the photo of Amaira smiling on her phone. "Who else is doing it now? Don't you think it's the same with me?" Alan stroked Amaira's face on her phone.

Several times Alan called Amaira's number, but in vain, the girl had changed her phone number.

Flashbacks

Alan drove Amaira to his house after returning from labuan bajo.

"You don't want to go in first Al?"

"I don't think Ra, I just went home. Greetings to your mother and sister Arya." Alan immediately turned around and walked away.

"Al, wait a minute." Shouted Amaira before Alan exited the gate of his mansion.

Alan turned around and saw Amaira walking towards him.

"Aren't you going to say something to me?"

"Gue's tired Ra, want to sneak home. You buruan rest there. Later if you are tired can drop again." Said Alan while stroking Amaira's head. "Gue go home first Ra, and get in there."

Alan immediately went out of the gate and left Amaira's house.

The next day, Alan goes to Amaira's house to pick her up for college.

"For Bi, please call Amaira. Tell Al to wait for you."

"Loh, I don't know Al?" Bi surti frowned.

"Know what?"

"Non Amaira is not here anymore."

"meaning?"

"Non Amaira has moved to Singapore."

Alan rounded his eyes, he was shaking in disbelief. Obviously yesterday Amaira was still with him.

"Neong Mas, Non Amaira moved to Singapore. He'll stay there, in addition to medical treatment, he'll also go to college there."

"What's? studying there?"

"Yes, my mom moved there too. Here only Den Arya stay."

Alan's knees were limp, his chest felt tight. He did not think that Amaira was serious about the word when she said in Labuan Bajo. He thought Amoara was just bullying him back then. He thinks Amaira couldn't have gotten him to break up, because she loved him too much. But in fact, Amaira's words really. And now, the girl had already left him.

"Oh yeah, aunt almost forgot. There's a note from Non Amaira. Just a minute, my." Bi surti went inside and came out again with a pink envelope.

"This is Mas, from Non Amaira."

"Thank you Bi." Alan took the envelope and opened it immediately.

*Hi Al

Sorry I left without saying goodbye.

Now you're free Al. There will be no more aggressive women who bother you. There are no more sick women who ngerepotin lo.

I guess when I'm gone, you don't think I'm the same?

I'm too smart a time.....

Obviously you will not miss the skinny sick girl like plywood, there is no sexy sex at all like me.

Al, sorry yes, I've never nyium lip lo pas lo again overslept. I also often take silent photos. Yeah, I'm crazy about that.

Forget that I ever married. Lupain also about your promise that will marry me when I recover later. I don't want to be burdened with that. You are free to marry anyone.

You know what I am most afraid of in this world?

First, I am afraid of death. And second, I'm afraid of losing you.

But I finally realized. I have to be a strong girl. And to be strong, I had to eliminate all my fears.

When we fall in love, we must also be prepared for heartbreak. Now it is time to remove my fear. It's time I took off. I am ready to lose you, actually not ready, but must be ready.

I also began to be ready to eliminate my fear of death. Wouldn't all the living be dead? I have to be ready whenever God calls me..

I will not forget Lo Al. It will always be in my memory. You are the most beautiful memory of my life. Yes, it seems that you are only destined as memories, not the future.

I will always pray that you may meet your true love. And I have one request too. Doain I hope I can heal Al.

Thank you for staying with me for a few months.

From Amaira, the girl who had stopped in your life, but not lo*.

Flashback off

I miss Lo Ra, I miss it. What else is going on now? Don't you miss me, right? You said you needed me Ra, but why did you leave me?

Al's tears slowly trickled down. He did not expect that an Amaira who used to be crazy about him, could leave him.

I am stupid Ra. I always try not to love you, I always hurt you. But I can't lie to myself if I love you. I'm a loser Ra. I was too afraid I could not make you happy, so I always hurt you and hope you go. But after you left, I tortured Ra, I'm crazy for missing you.

Alan recalled the words of Amaira

I'll give you time until we get to Jakarta. If at that time you shoot me, it means we continue. But if it's not, it means we're Shrimp.

Regret is the last. And when we have lost, we only realize that we love him so much and need him.

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