The Second Woman's Regret
Should I Go

"Sister," Ciya went into the room. My oldest brother hugged me tightly. "Ciya knows how big brother feels right now, Ciya is also sure Big Brother is not like that. Brother is not a girl. Ciya knows that well. Actually mother did not intend to expel brother, mother just confused. It all just happened so much that I couldn't think clearly. Mother loves sister very much. But the tests that brought us back have to go through something really bad like this. Did Ciya talk to mom to keep brother here. Ciya knows that brother is fragile, not going anywhere. It should be at home, yes. Ciya also could not bear if you have to go back to your own boarding house these nights." Ciya was crying.

"Yes, I'm nothing." I said. While wiping away the remaining tears. As much as possible I tried to force a smile, although in the end it became strange because my heart said different. "Ciya, promise your sister will take care of your mother, Elis and Kiki well. If there is anything, do not hesitate to tell brother. Later in the month brother transfers to you, yes. But don't tell my mom that it's from my sister. You can make up stories so that you don't have to work anymore. Brother pity mother, mother's health is no longer possible to work. Since we were kids, you've been fighting for us, lest you have to work hard again." I said.

"Yes brother, Ciya promise. Ciya will take good care of mom. Ciya will also not let her work again. Brother must also take care of health, still maintain communication with us, brother. Brother ..." Your tears are back.

We both hugged. I can feel how heavy Ciya took me off. Actually I feel the same way because this is actually my most comfortable place right now, but how else.

"Yes already. Brother has to go, hunt for the night. Poor mom, too, not comfortable because you're still here." I patted Ciya's arm slowly, then told her.

Heavy, heavy this step. But as hard as I can, I try to be strong. I kept whispering to myself to be strong. As if going to Jakarta as usual on the weekend to work. I will definitely be home again. Mom will definitely send me back.

Somehow it has to be. Still confused I left the house, ushered in by my three sisters. While mother, no longer looks her figure. It felt really worried when the online taxi I ordered came. As loud as I could not cry, but as soon as I got into the car and started driving away from home, my tears spilled.

"Yes Allah ... Oh Allah ... O Allah. If there is no You to strengthen me, I may now be broken to pieces." I continue to say Istighfar. While my HP reads. Alternately messages from Ciya, Elis and Kiki come in. They cheered my departure. But that message couldn't get me up. I need mom right now, I'm really at my lowest point.

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Right now, I'm completely alone. In my lowest condition. I lost Abah a long time ago, then lost the love I thought was there for me. Now I've lost the most precious treasure of my life. My mother and my sisters. If there was a way to get them back in my life, I would.

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At nine o'clock in the evening, the online taxi I was riding stopped in front of the boarding house. After paying the fare, I went downstairs with a lunglai. There's no spirit at all. Coming back here is a burden to me, but I have no choice but to come back here tonight.

My goal is not my room, but Giya's. He's the one I think is responsible for all this. With anger I came to him.

"What the hell is Ra? Indeed problems? You didn't ask that either, did you?" Giya asked back, defending herself.

"What's? So you know he's got a wife and kids?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Astagfirullah, Giya. You know, I've just become someone else's household shredder!" I widened my eyes. "How come you're Giy, why hide everything from me? Why didn't you say from the beginning?"

"Yeah Ra, what's wrong anyway? And Andre is equally responsible for you. He married you, right? He chose you, right? Not that girl, is it?"

"Basic you have no heart. You are we I am a careless woman like you who likes to disturb people's husbands? I believe in you, but this is what you did to me. Tega you!" I roared, furious at being played with by him.

My attitude makes kosan a scene. Other residents came out, including Dila. He immediately pulled me back into the room, giving no one else space to make me a spectacle. While Giya, she had a chance to abuse me who was pulled by force by Msbak Dila.

"Here, don't be your pretender Ra. You enjoy all of that too, right? You are also happy to have rich men. Play smart so you don't get caught. Now if this is the case, blame someone else. Basic cheesy!" maki Giya who was upset because I had time to Jambak.

"You're talking. I have pride, I'm not that kind of woman. If you are like that, do not equate others with you. I take good care of myself because I'm not a woman!" I'm still trying to escape from Dila's mother while continuing to fumble. It hurt so much to be likened to him selling himself freely.

"Here, your holy-sucker. Now it's just been discovered that way. Yesterday was good to enjoy everything. You can live well also from him, the present even maki-maki. You should make it with me, Ra. I've introduced you to rich people who are loyal to you. Where she wants to marry you. But yes do not expect a lot of dong, already thankfully made into a mistress. Even ask for more. Conscious of you."

"You're Giy! I'm not like that. I never even received anything from him. Just so you know, all this I get from the results I work hard. Keep your mouth up!"

"It's dong Tira. What kind of a fuss do you want to make again, huh? You want everyone to know and then make you as a material ghibah. Conscious dong. Already, now come in. Don't fight him again. No need to be treated. Coming in!" mbak Dila pulled me with all her might, she forced me into the room. Her body that was twice as big as mine made me unable to fight her. Staggering, I entered the room.