The Second Woman's Regret
Why Should There Be Love?

"Where is that ticket? Why can there be a father? Why is there a father's name too? Duh, this is how the hell is the story?" I scratched my non-itchy head, looking at Mr. Saka who was just smiling. It makes me more confused.

"Already, don't ask too many questions, just enjoy the journey. We'll sit side by side for seven to eight hours. So just ask later. Now I'm gonna go to bed, sleepy, all night hunting for train tickets!" said Mr. Saka, he then closed his eyes. Before long there was a very slow snoring sound, almost inaudible if not really beside him.

I realized, what the hell is this? He said all night hunting train tickets? Then he had planned all this, or maybe he knew that I was going to Yogyakarta so he went along. Butwhy? Wh-wh-what for? This also cannot be a coincidence because I know the schedule of Pak Saka in the future, there are no clients in Yogyakarta. Then what's he coming for?

"Ahhh, why should I even think about it. He just doesn't want to tell. I better go to bed!" I said, then closed my eyes.

This journey is a form of escape that I do for the rejection of the people I love. For the sake of their happiness, I was willing to step away, continue the new life even though it was actually very sad. As in the dump. I need them by my side, especially with the problems I face. Is that worthless of me? The ones who want me are only the ones who are stunned by my looks and need my body, nothing more. Nothing is really sincere with me. Between conscious and not, heading to sleep, I unconsciously cried.

Who exactly am I? Jogja is the city I chose, because from my father a little story I got about my birth mother. Mother Ajeng Carnation. He lives in Jogja. I want to meet him. There is no meaningful purpose other than to want to know what kind of woman gave birth to me. After that I had no other plans. I'll just flow.

"Please, don't leave me alone." I spoke sobbing. While my hand was trying to reach.

"Ra, Tira .. wake up!" someone shook my arm week. "Tira, are you dreaming?" ask Mr. Saka.

"Ha, oh no. I ..." The rest of the tears were still on my cheeks, I hurriedly wiped them. Even when I fall asleep, the sadness is not something I can avoid.

"Tira, I will never leave you" said Mr. Saka. Confuses me.

"Well, why sir?"

"I know how you feel right now. You must be very sad. I promise to accompany you, Ra."

"What did you say? I'm doing fine. Why do I have to talk like that anyway? There's nothing to worry about from me!" i'm affirming. "What are you doing to Jogja? Why do we sit in the next chair? It's definitely not like the ones in those novels, is it?"

"Which "novels? I don't like reading fiction."

"Oh yeah? Then why is it here?"

"For you. To accompany you. As you said in your dream, you don't want to be left alone. That's why I'm here." Mr. Saka told me about the plan I already knew. He saw me book a train ticket from the office computer. We are indeed in one room. It is quite strange, the director and his assistant, but that is the order of Mr. Saka. I can what.

After seeing the ticket, Mr. Saka also booked the same ticket, but unfortunately someone has bought a seat ticket next to me. He had to fight until last night to get the ticket.

"Why come with me?" my many.

"Love?" I smiled wryly. "I don't believe in love anymore, sir, why should I also talk about love. Sorry sir, you should go back to Jakarta because I am not interested in talking about love. We have no business anyway, I've put my resignation on my desk."

"Tira .. It's okay now you haven't loved me. I accept. But it won't change my decision to love you. Until whenever!"

"Why should you do such a futile thing?"

"Because I am very sure of the God who turns the hearts of men upside down. Today maybe He hasn't made me in your heart, but later ... Who knows "again he throws a smile.

"I'm too tired of all this."

"I'll be your back, we'll face it all together. Yea?"

I shook my head, throwing my eyes out the window. For some reason, this heart refused to talk about love again. It's been too sick. First time in love but must feel the tremendous impact. I don't think I'll be able to.

"Then we start slowly. I will never force you to love me, but allow me to be by your side. At least, there is someone who can support you" said Mr. Saka.

"Sir, after this alone I don't know how my life is. Will do what? What to do? Really, I really don't have any plans. I am not excited to go through everything because it feels like everything is just in vain. So don't put any hope on me because I'm so desperate!" I said, with a tight chest, and teary eyes.

How not, after going through all these problems, where the peak again I still do not accept the family. Even I was suspected of taking the Bagus mas from Ciya.

If they knew, my life would be at stake for them.

Besides, if it's true that I'm going to snatch a good mas, I should have accepted the proposal from the beginning. But for Ciya's sake I let go. Unfortunately they even think so.

"It must have hurt a lot. But trust me, Ra. Later you will reap the fruits of your patience." said Mr. Saka. "Marry me so you can go back to your family. I'm pretty sure you're not willing to let them go."

"I don't want them to stay away from me because I love my mom. I have never hated my mother, nor have I ever thought badly of cornering Ciya. They are my life." I said, again I could not hold back tears.

Mr. Saka gave me his handkerchief, I could not refuse because of the tears that had flooded.

"I'm scared ... Give dad a chance. I was afraid that when I had hoped, my father would leave me too. Therefore, let us keep it this way. Let us be two strangers. Because I don't want you to leave!" I said, in a loud voice.

"I'm not leaving you Tira. That's my promise!" he looked at me with love, but everything scared me. Is he right for me, or will it only be temporary, and leave a wound?