The Second Woman's Regret
Speak Four Eyes

After being sure Mr. Saka left, I went back out because in the lobby was waiting for Bagus. He owes an explanation of the failure of his marriage to Ciya. Actually I don't want to care, but he keeps on forcing me to explain. I finally gave her that chance too.

"Tell me immediately because I don't want any new problems" I said.

"Ra, I did deliberately accept Ciya's proposal, even I wanted a marriage as soon as possible because I was very curious about your big family's evil plans. I mean, your stepmother's extended family. They seem to want to get rid of you, deliberately looking to profit from the failure of your previous marriage. I want them, especially your stepmother and sisters to feel how painful it is to fail to marry, and then to be ostracized as well. It's very uncomfortable. But it seems my efforts are in vain, they do not realize even more blame you" said mas Bagus.

"There's actually no need to carry me around" I said. "I don't need retribution, let God do it if they have bad intentions. What is the difference with them now? He also made a big mistake, breaking a woman's heart. Failing to get married is painful" I said

"Yes, I understand Ra. I just want to make them realize their mistake."

What was done mas Bagus was clearly wrong even though he reasoned to do all that to pay for my heartache. But I don't want any of that because until now I still hope that our relationship is okay because after all my mother has raised me and my sisters have become the best brothers for me before they know the truth that we're bloodless.

"Ra, I'm sorry. If you want to give me a chance, I will try to explain everything to Ciya so that he does not blame you anymore "promise mas Bagus.

Mas Bagus did all that because he still wished for me, love made him want to always protect me. But the choice was still wrong for me. Besides, I can't give him any hope because right now this heart belongs to Mr. Saka. I made a promise to marry him.

"I'm sorry, ma'am. I can't give any hope to you because I've been in a relationship with someone else" I said.

"This is the third time I've failed" said Mas Bagus. "But it's okay, Ra. Even though I can't have you but I will protect you, until anytime." promised Mas Bagus.

Love is sometimes as complicated as that, when we have tried as much as possible but it turns out not to be a match.

***

Towards the wedding preparations, Saka and I both agreed to prepare everything. Towards the wedding there is usually just a test like we experienced where I want without a party, enough chow and small thanksgiving, just a little, but Mr. Saka was the opposite because he wanted to prove to his father that he could be better even without his father. The debate between us had happened until in the end we both release emotions.

"I don't want you to constantly feel overshadowed by your father because in fact everything is not as bad as you imagine. You're just too carried away." I said.

"Why are you talking like that? Oh, I got it. You've been consumed by the words of my brother-in-law, Ra. You don't understand, what you said mbak Andin is not all right because mbak Andin has a great mission to reconcile me and papa!" said Mr. Saka

"Isn't that good? I should be happy that there is a family party who took the initiative so. You have to be airy, don't just put ego first."

"Ego on? You're accusing me again?" mr. Saka is upset. "Originally you know, if I follow Papa's wishes, I won't be able to marry you because he wants me to marry his stepson. Of course I don't want to. I just love you, Tira. So let me be as selfish as what you say!"

"Oh yeah?" unknowingly the word challenge even came out, Mr. Saka immediately stared in annoyance .

"Yes!" said. "You don't believe it? nih," Mr. Saka offered his cellphone. In front of me were messages from her father that contained a debate with Mr. Saka where her father disputed the image of me who had problems as a second woman.

[Pope does not agree, Saka. You have to marry a good woman. Not with the problem, where the problem is being a second woman. You think papa's not shy? Our family is dignified, papa does not like you carelessly choose. If you do not want to accept the choice papa is not a problem, but look for a better one. Understand!]

I could only swallow my saliva reading message after message. It feels right that rejection. Now I'm a minder myself because it turns out I don't have a place in that family.

"So yes," I said, playing with the end of the veil.

"Ra, I don't mean to make you sad, I just don't want you to be too concerned with Andin's words because he is trying to reconcile me and Papa. Besides, whatever papa's decision won't change how I feel about you. I still love you, Ra, and want to marry you."

"Yes sir, I understand. But can I go first?" my many. He got up from his seat and left himself.

"Rb ... Tira!" mr. Saka is chasing. "Sorry Tira."

"That's okay, sir. I guess all my sadness is over yet, I still have to fight it out." I said. Then walk quickly leaving her.

I need to get away before these tears spill. I don't want him to see me crying because Mr. Saka said he was most sad if I was sad.

With a taxi I went home, all the way, I tried my best to keep my mind from crying but eventually the tears fell as well.

So sad. It turns out this trip wasn't that smooth. It turns out that it is difficult to accept the past of others even though he actually did not intend it that way. Even when I know I'm straight away, but people's judgment still I've become the second woman.

This is the importance of recognizing someone who wants to be close to us in order to avoid things like this.

"What's wrong?" ask the taxi driver

"Yes, I am nothing, sir "I wipe away the rest of the tears, throw a look out the window, try hard even though this heart is completely broken. Arriving at the apartment, as soon as the door was locked, I immediately sat down under the side of the bed and cried. It hurts a lot, but that's how life is. Must be really careful.