The Second Woman's Regret
Mother ....

My chest was so full of hearing all the stories of Mbah. But no tears came out because it hurt so much.

Beautiful is really torture. When many women want to have good looks, I want otherwise because the suffering does not end. I feel sorry for the woman who gave birth to me. She had to suffer for her beauty. Though she did not want to be a second woman, but fate said something else. His innocence was taken advantage of by irresponsible men.

Now, Saka and I were taken to my mother's house. The house that is more worthy of being called a hut has partially destroyed the walls and roof because it is inedible with age. In a room that was revealed there was a container. There my mother was in the pasung.

Mother was considered crazy just because of the statements made on the agreement of the young women in the village. Though the possibility of depressed mother because of my loss and ostracized by young women in this village.

"Devil, really evil!" I said, screaming as hard as I could. I don't care if the villagers who happen to be there or even looking back and forth at me. My feelings are completely broken.

When we were invited to mother's grave, on top of her navel I cried so much.

"Why ... Why are we meeting so late. I want to hug you ... Mother. You should be strong, mom. Look at me, look at me. I am also lucky as you. Now how should I? do I also have to be a helpless human like you. Accept destiny, cry and don't fight if hurt? Mother .. We should have fought them. They should also feel the same pain as the suffering we experience!" I said.

If there were no Saka. I might not want to get out of mom's grave. I want to end up here too. In order for everyone to know, two people, mother and son, are treated unjustly and must end up dead because of their crimes.

"Ra .. It's noon, we have to get out of here" said Mr. Saka.

I was still silent, gently caressing the mother's navel.

"Ra .. crying that has gone will not change anything. Pray for your mother."

"Must I take revenge?"

"Tira,"

"I hate. I'm upset. I'm heartbroken. I'm sad. They are so cruel!"

"Here you go, let's go." Mr. Saka pulled my hand, he made me have to get up, then forced me to leave my mother's grave.

"I hate them all, sir. Including Ciya's mother." I said.

"What are you talking about. If you hate, it won't change everything. There are you who will be destroyed because of the hatred you planted."

"Ahhh, I don't need anyone's advice. I hate everything!" my emotions are unbearable. I left, Mr. Saka. Walk anywhere without knowing its purpose. But when I was really tired, I finally could only throw my body into the grass-covered streets.

"If you want to cry, cry. If you want to scream, scream. But obviously, never destroy yourself. You're the one who's gonna lose, Ra. You can still carry on with your life well, I am sure that if you follow what I say then your mother will be proud. But if you do the opposite, he must be sad" said Mr. Saka.

I'm silent.

"Tira .. You are in the lowest phase of your life. Faces if you feel sad, upset and even very angry because they have gone too far. But if you don't want to get up, they'll be happy because that's what they want!" said Mr. Saka again.

For some reason, I followed Saka's lead..I got back up, followed him back to the hotel. Even though I got there I went straight into the room, choosing to sleep to calm myself down.

***

This mood was still very messy when Ciya called many times. At first I ignored the call, but since he didn't stop, I finally decided to pick up.

[Hello] I said.

[Finally you picked up my phone too, brother. Are you satisfied that you have ruined my life?] ciya said at the end of there.

[What are you talking about? I don't understand. Especially fault? Why should I curse like that? Although we are not born of the same mother, we grow up together, so do not overdo it like that. I'm your brother after all. We have the same father!]

[You already know that but why did you hurt me?]

[I didn't hurt anyone. You hurt me.]

[Don't say much. You made my marriage and Nice mas Cancel. Aye, right?]

[Nice Mas cancelled the wedding shortly before the contract.]

[Oh, I'm so sad.] Clik. Call me off. My heart is pounding again. What else is this?

Innalilahi wa Inna ilaihi Raji. I could only say Istighfar repeatedly, digesting the true story of the incoming messages that almost all my brothers sent.

Starting from Ciya, Mbak Dila and her family, even stepchildren father.

They all compactly scolded me, blaming me. Only because when the time before the contract was good to cancel the marriage on the grounds that he did not love Ciya but me.

Damnit.

I grumbled. Annoyed with. If he really loves me then why even accept Ciya's proposal even willing to marry Ciya.

[I didn't expect the bad guy, why get me in trouble? If you don't love Ciya, or want to play with her heart, don't take me with you!] I sent a message to Bagus.

[I can explain everything. Can we meet?] his reply.

[I don't need an explanation. If you want to explain, explain it to Ciya and his family. Not me. I told you that I'm just an adopted son, doesn't mean that family, what you're doing is adding to my bad position.]

[Ra, we're talking.]

[I'm in Jogja. Looking mother.]

Mas Bagus asked me for a chance to explain why everything happened. He didn't mean to hurt me. He just wanted to teach them a lesson for being unfair to me. But he did the same thing, even worse.

Piqued. I grabbed the veil, then came out of the room. Simultaneously, Mr. Saka also came out. We were silent for a moment, then I continued down the hotel hallway, he followed behind.

"Why the problems in my life don't stop" I said.

"Because God wants you to go to class" he replied.

"Why should I keep going?"

"Supon God. You're the creature, whatever he wants to do."

"Who are you?"

He smiles.

"Why do you always keep my heart calm?"

"It's also part of God's destiny."

"Sir,"

"Yes?"

"Is the offer still valid?"

"What?'

"Being father's wife."

He smiles. "When are we going to KUA?"

"Quickly!" say