The Second Woman's Regret
Decision According to the Heart

Tonight before I finally make a decision, I deliberately spend time to honor God so that the decision I make is the right decision.

Last night for me not to sleep, keep chanting prayers and remembrance. There's nothing I can count on, not even myself, but God. I cried so much, resigned that really put everything down. Twice failed to choose a candidate for priest, now I do not want to fail again.

***

At eight in the morning, I met Aunt Sonia. We made an appointment. I told him all about my heart to Mas Bagus. About my desire to be his life partner. I deliberately told her everything to make my way easier. All I know and hope he still likes me, if Aunt Sonia still supports me as a prospective partner of his son, then my path to unite with mas Bagus will be easier.

"Hmmm," Aunt Sonia said softly. "Of course Aunt will always be on your side dear. Aunty always hoped to have a daughter-in-law as good, as smart and beautiful as you" said Aunt Sonia while giving a hug that signifies she is welcome. I was very moved, because one step I finally passed too. "Wait a minute, Auntie's gonna call Good. He must be happy with what you said earlier considering he has not been able to move on from you dear, until it is difficult to find his soul mate" said Aunt Sonia again.

Me and Aunt Sonia waited for almost an hour until finally Mas Bagus came. He was surprised to see me with his mother. Earlier when called Aunty Sonia, mas Bagus was not told to be reunited with me, but Aunt Sonia only said she wanted to meet with her future wife mas Bagus today as well.

"How long, almost Tira came home" said Aunt Sonia.

"What's wrong Ma? Why is Tira here?" ask me Good, confused.

"Have you said earlier, right, today mama will meet you with your future wife." Aunt Sonia smiled at me.

"Then?" mas Bagus still did not understand, while I just smiled while bowing my head.

"Then what? yes this, Tira will be your future wife. How's it?" ask Aunt Sonia again.

Mas Bagus was silent for a moment. He looked at me, alternating with his mother. Then he shook his head. "Why do you have to use this charade?" ask the Good. "If you're willing to accept, why must it be this long? You know, long ago, we should've had a three-year-old and I didn't have to go through something so upset!" mas Nice angry. Me and Aunt Sonia just smiled, we both hugged.

***

I was still standing stiff in front of the glass. Looking at the shadow of a woman wearing a white dress. This is the third time that a man will speak his ijab and kabul. It's just that I'm afraid, whether it'll be long or the same as before, just for a moment. I got worried.

"Ra, come!" Amanda broke my daydream.

"Man, is this going to be a while?" my many.

Amanda and I walked side by side to the altar after Bagus and Dad said hijab and kabul. My feelings are mixed. Between fear and worry. Really, I was afraid he would leave me. If that happens, maybe I'll never get up again

"Darling," mas Bagus scattered my daydreams. He put his hand out. I welcome hesitation, even after Amanda leads.

At the time of this meeting, not much came. Just a nice family, dad, me, Amanda, two witnesses and a penghulu. We deliberately do not invite many people for fear of unwanted things happening.

"Are you going to leave me too?" my question, when dealing with a good mas.

"How could I leave you while I've been following you since we were kids" said Mas Bagus.

"But .. with the defect I have,"

"I'm not perfect, baby, but we're going to complement each other, together for good!" good Mas kissed my forehead.

***

Tonight was our first time together as husband and wife. He and I are now in dispute.

"You know, in order to get it someone had a chance to doubt me." I said, to mas Bagus.

"Darling, do you believe me?" tanyakanya. "I believe in you myself. All those accusations . I never cared. You and the two men in your past are no longer our business. From now on we don't have to talk about it. You are mine forever."

The sky was getting darker but in my life it became so blue and light. I smiled with relief after giving everything to the right man.

Some people are not easy to accept someone's past, even continue to uncover the disgrace of others, but you can not let it all destroy your life.

--TAMAT-----