The Second Woman's Regret
Finally Married

"You really want to get married, Ra?" Mr. Robin as the manager saw me repeatedly when I applied for a week of marriage leave at the age of the company provisions.

"Yes sir." I replied, clear and concise.

"Why is this all of a sudden? You're not pregnant first, are you?"

"Hahaha, yes no sir." I immediately smiled wryly. It was as if he was saying that.

"Yes the marriage ended suddenly, there was no invitation for employees here as well. Moreover, try the reason for sudden marriage other than getting pregnant first? You are beautiful, young and now live in Jakarta too."

"Sorry sir, not all young women are like that." I confirmed to her that I am a woman who is very respectful so decided to get married sooner when there is a suitable so that things do not happen that are not desirable.

"Relatedly? Is not afraid of your marriage will hampered your career? Working in this office is a dream of many people. I just want to postpone marriage to be able to focus on a career here. For the future of me and my future family. You see, if you are married, your mind is usually branching, and not focused. Especially women. There are many episodes full of drama. There will be periods of pregnancy, childbirth, breastfeeding, sick children, sick husbands, ART problems, troubled families. Doubt is Ra. So before you experience all that mending think again."

"InshaAllah, I've thought about it."

"Where does your future husband work, Ra?"

"Migas, sir."

"O yes yes yes. It's already established yes. Well then.hopefully your marriage is smooth yes Ra and you can still have a career. Don't stop in the middle of the road, Ra. It's a pity that you quit even if your husband is already established. You are beautiful and smart Ra. Usually if the woman has stopped marriage, although beautiful naughty Buluk also and later so depends on her husband. Men if his wife depends on him usually easily underestimate his wife. Just be careful, Ra. I feel sorry and do not want to happen things that do not-tidqk to you because actually I really care about Ra with you."

"Thank you sir for your concern. InshaAllah I have thought everything carefully and I will continue to work here even if I have children." I said.

Finished taking care of the leave, I immediately returned to the work desk. Refocus to complete the work, including for the next week so that when the holidays can be comfortable.

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This morning, I was already in my mother's room, wearing a long white dress chosen in less than a week. I was lucky because the boutique we chose happened to have a stock of wedding dresses to suit what I wanted. Assisted by MUA, the dress was attached complete with makeup flawles that make me look different because usually never wear makeup. At least sow powder plus baby colon.

From behind the room, I peeked at the middle room that was opened until it seemed to continue to the guest house. Everything has been decorated. Although simple but looks different. Shades of pink and white became the color of choice according to my favorite color.

I accidentally saw a busy mother preparing everything. Welcoming guests who incidentally are their own extended family. Since this week the mother is the most bothered person to welcome this wedding. While Abah, sitting casually accompanied by his wife in the living room while igniting his cigarette. Suddenly my heart was tight, seeing the contrast between my parents on this happy day. Who really loves and who is fake.

"Ra?" mother approached, when accidentally our eyes looked at each other.

"Mom" I said, holding haru. "Sorry Tira."

"Mother must be so tired that she had to do everything herself even though Tira was Abah's son and mother "

"Pstttt, Ra, don't talk like that. Mothers love the children of mothers. I'll try to do what's best for you." Said mother.

I really believe that. Mother has always tried her hardest since we were kids, even though Abah was still with us until Abah left her. Just three months ago, my mom quit her job. That was after I insisted. That's why mom wants to. Otherwise you might still be working hard for my sisters.

So I wonder why Abah left her. Leaving the gem only for stone times. So the expression of people.

Long ago, in our house, Abah was hired by my mother. But after marrying his new wife, Abah has to work hard. I often hear stories of having to owe money if I can't give money to his wife when Abah is sick.

But God is so fair, right now my mother's life is so much better than yours. Mom can enjoy the fruits of her hard work even though she never demands anything from me. Abah still has to work hard to support his wife and two children.

"You should be happy, Ra." Said mother.

"If you're happy, Tira will be happy too!" I said. We cuddled.

"Don't cry son, you'll wear off your makeup." Said mother. Even so I still can't hold back haru. I love mom very much.

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Getting married wasn't something I had in my dreams. Abah's marriage and mother's failure makes me also reluctant to imagine marriage. For me, studying diligently to get the best job, and then make my mother and sisters happy is the biggest and last dream. That's why I fought so hard to resist the men who approached me.

Beautiful paras makes me easily liked by others, which is why I have to work hard to reject them from just inviting acquaintances, shooting, giving gifts to immediately propose to me as a wife. I refused everything.

Now, in front there, there is already someone whose age is nine years adrift is saying Ijab kabul with abah. He was taking over my care from my brother. It is my hope that he is really responsible for me. He did not waste me like what Abah did to us all this time.

After saying kabul ijab, unconsciously my tears and my three sisters; Ciya, Elis and Kiki flowed. The four of us hugged. They also asked me not to leave them even though I was married.

"Of course, my sister won't leave you. For your brother three and mother is part of your life. You guys are so mean and you'll never leave." I said.

"Then let's go out, brother. Meet bang Andre. We pray that brother is happy always" said my eldest brother.

Accompanied by my three sisters, we walked out of the room to the groom. All eyes are on me. But my gaze was on my mother, a loving gaze that I could not get past. I'm sure you're as good as the four of us.