The Second Woman's Regret
Iri Ciya

Heart ... release it. I let go of the Bagus mas with an airy heart. Immediately build a higher fortress so that he cannot enter into this heart. One way is to start busy yourself with work. Even I can affirm when Mas Bagus asked back.

Me and my good guys can't be together. She's from a respectable family, mother has repeatedly stated that only Ciya deserves it because I already have a stain. Although my marriage to Andre Winata can be annulled, I have been married! That's what my mom said, but I didn't tell her my heart.

"If you will, I can talk to your mother, Ra. In order to allow us to get married" said Mas Bagus for the last time.

"No need, I'm pretty sure. Looks like we're not really friends. There are obstacles and in my own heart also still consider mas only brother. I'm afraid that if it's still forced it's not even good later. Our friendship has deteriorated" I said.

"All right, I'm not gonna push. Like I said, Ra, I'll never change. Will always be a good friend to you" said Mas Bagus. He forced a smile even though that smile looked stiff. Naturally, when our feelings are unrequited, there will definitely be a bad taste.

"Then what about Ciya, mas?" I dared to question my brother's fate. I hope he doesn't misunderstand and assume presumptuous because I just want reassurance for my sister.

"Sorry Ra, as you say, love cannot be forced. I don't love Ciya either, for me she's just your sister. That's why I'm being nice to him." replied Mas Nice.

Although the answer was disappointing, but at least I can have an answer for Ciya so that he can act in the future. I don't want him to hope for too long.

***

At lunchtime, actually Mr. Saka invited me to eat together, but I refused because I had made a deal with Ciya. I invited him to meet to talk about the problem of Good mas. We met again at the previous cafe not far from my office.

"Have you met Mas Bagus?" ciya asked, her face beaming as she saw me nod. "Then what did he say?"

"I'm sorry Ciy's brother, but Good mas said he couldn't accept you because he thought of you as just a little sister." I don't want to make small talk, go straight to the main topic because it does not want to make him wait with uncertain feelings.

"Oh, so." Ciya was obviously very disappointed.

"You're Ciy's good son, you're sure to get the best mate one day."

"Why did you resist?"

"Because he only thinks of you as a sister."

"Not because of the disgrace you've made?" Ciya looked at me sharply.

"meaning?"

"Sister, everyone's talking about brother. They were still with the same thought that big brother was an actor. The second woman who ruined another's household."

"Oh," I'm speechless.

"Now I have to feel two heartbreaks because of brother."

"I'm sorry, but it's not so good."

"Not so how?"

"He never cared about what happened to me."

"That's according to my sister. Even if you don't care, what about your family?"

"It's just sister's self-defense because the reality is so!"

"No."

"Where do you know?"

"I've met Aunt Sonia even those who asked me to be the wife of Bagus mas." I'm really let go because Ciya continues to be cornered. I feel sorry for opening this myself.

"Oh, so it's true. Turns out nice mas fell in love with sister?" he smiled cynically. "Why is all this unfair."

"Ciy, don't get me wrong. Sister ...."

"That's it. I will always lose to my brother. The most beautiful sister, the one everyone always liked. The best brother, the smartest brother. Anyway it's all big brother and sister!" Ciya shouted hysterically to invite the attention of cafe visitors.

"Ciy, slow down your voice or everyone will look here. "

"Let it go, let them see us. Let everyone know, even though big brother already has a disgrace that is embarrassing big brother still still wins compared to me!" it's still very emotional. "It's really unfair!"

"Ciy, control yourself. Don't regret it lately!" I'm still trying to remind you. But he remained stubborn, carried away by emotion.

"I won't regret it. Just like not regretting when you know that Andre was married long before you married him!" ciya said loudly.

"What do you mean?" I don't get it.

"Yes, I already knew Andre was married before you knew. Before his wife hit our house. I've seen him with his wife and kids at the mall. At that time he also confessed to me and I promise I won't tell brother."

"Astagfireullah Ciy. You can be angry with your brother but don't make up stories like that." I said.

"No, I don't mean it. This is all true. I know everything, if you don't believe please confirm to bang Andre. We both agreed that we wouldn't tell you brother until you got married."

"Why is that Ciya? Why would you do that to your sister?" I was really disappointed in him, why he was so. All this time I always tried to sacrifice for my family but he could let me fall into a very strange problem.

"Because I envy you, brother. I always lose compared to my brother. From the past until now, every man I liked always fell in love with his brother. They approached me too just because they could be close to my sister. I wish that my brother would marry bang Andre so that nothing would be a hindrance to my love. But hell, my brother is still my shadow!"

"Ciy, is life just love for you? We're brothers, you're my sister and I'm your brother. In our bodies, the same blood flows. Why do you think so narrow. For your sake, I have sacrificed a lot. Even I ignored my application Good because I didn't want to hurt you."

"So you also like the same mas Bagus? Right, sis?"

"Like it or not is none of your business. What matters to me is you are my sister. I've always numbered you guys to even sacrifice myself."

"So you want to count with me? I felt even more pain with my presence. Look at what you've done, your mother and the three of us your sister have to bear the shame."

"That wouldn't have happened if you had told me at the beginning. But you're the only one whose heart is rotten. Just because of petty love you hate me to let me fall like that. Wicked you Ciy!"

"You are worse, brother!"

The quarrel between us was inevitable. We talked to each other until we became the center of attention. My heart is really disappointed, even more disappointed than being lied to by Andre Winata.