The Second Woman's Regret
Please, Tira!

Amanda's refusal did not dampen my steps to punish the two old bandots. Every time I think hard, as a result, my work goes into the field. Mr. Saka up to reprimand because several times I entered the wrong data.

"If you're not ready for work, just go home Tira. I don't want you to keep repeating it over and over again. Just a waste of time." said Mr. Saka.

"Yes, sorry sir." I went back to work, tried to concentrate but failed again. Finally, because he did not want to follow upset, Mr. Saka invited me to rest. He ordered two servings of lunch complete with iced coffee.

"I know it's hard for you." Mr. Saka opened the conversation when the dish was already on the table. "But when will it be like that, Ra? You will actually stage, will never go to class if you can not be sincere."

Single-minded? I was silent, digesting one meaningful word in my life for the future. True if I continue to maintain this grudge then I myself will also be damaged, but to be willing it is not easy.

"Don't let yourself burn with your own hatred, Ra. If you are sincere, God will surely repay you. I'm sure you know all that. You must understand better than me." said Mr. Saka again.

"A .. I don't know. I just want to live a quiet life." I said, with my head bowed because everything Mr. Saka said was true.

"Then please do so."

"But,"

"Ikhlas it .. no taoi-tapinya, Ra."

Why does it still feel unfair when all that happens to us is with God's permission. All is fair to all creatures. Be sincere, that's the only way to get that calm. Is not it so alive in this world, not everything we want we can get, because here is only a testing place.

"Yes, I'm going to say it, sir." I said.

He smiled while nodding his head. It may feel like it already is, but it will be comfortable in the heart.

***

This is the first day after I let go of everything. As Saka said, I became calmer, even compared to before that incident. Last night there were no more nightmares.

Face everything with sincerity, Tira! I motivate myself while looking up at the sky from behind the apartment window. Suddenly my HP rang. Message from Bagus.

[Tira, later in the afternoon, back home from work, can I have a chat for a second?] order it Good.

[Yes mas.] My reply. I guess he will talk about the progress of my case because now everything I have left to Bu Widi.

***

My lunch hour was shocked by Ciya's arrival. He invited me to lunch together, saying he wanted to tell me something. Actually I have an appointment with Mr. Saka, but I decided to have lunch with Ciya only, especially I was also curious how is the current mother.

"What are you talking about?" I asked, while enjoying my kwetiau and a glass of iced tea.

"I'm ... in love, brother" said Ciya

"Oh yeah? Who's she?" I looked at Ciya, happy because he was finally able to move on from the son of Kyai that my mother had discussed.

"But will big brother approve?"

"Of course if he is a good man and can make your brother happy."

"I'm sure he's good and big brother will also definitely justify Ciya."

"Good Bag."

I was silent, looking at Ciya who apparently also did not let me out of his sight. He really called it Great. The man Ciya liked was Mas Bagus. Actually it does not matter, but there is an uncomfortable feeling considering how the case mas Bagus proposed first which ended in an argument with the family mbak Dila.

"You know, don't you, Dila's happy with me Good?" I said. "I mean big brother, MMM ..."

"Yes, I know brother. And I don't think there's a problem. That's Dila's right, the most important thing is who liked the good mas. As long as I don't hang out with my sister, I don't have a problem" Ciya said confidently.

"Keep the bagus, also like?"

"That's the problem. I don't know how it feels Good. What I hope is that he also reciprocates my feelings, sis. I want to ask you a favor with brother."

"What Ciy?"

"Please ask me Good, help also so the bridge unites us."

"unite? But ...."

"Please, brother, who knows by helping match me and mas Bagus, can melt the heart of mother because when I tell you, mother is really happy and very hopeful mas Bagus can be her daughter-in-law. Mother said, mas Bagus will be the medicine for solace."

"really?"

"Yes, brother."

If it could open the door to my heart, I would. Maybe this is also a sign to me this twilight morning mas Bagus invite to meet this afternoon. Hopefully I can successfully carry out this mission so that I can help treat mother's disappointment indirectly.

***

I thought this meeting was just me, Mas Bagus and Bu Widi, but it turned out I was wrong. There is no Bu Widi here, but mas Bagus and his mother. I was a little shy, but seeing her mother so warmly welcome me made me feel comfortable.

"How's Tira doing? Aunt heard everything from Good. You must have suffered so much, had to undergo a tough and inexhaustible test of life." said Aunt Sonia, her mother mas Bagus.

"Alhamdulillah good Aunt, thanks to the help of mas Bagus also so I can pass all safely." I said.

The three of us ate dinner, occasionally telling stories about childhood. Aunt Sonia seems to have a memory of my childhood, she told me a lot about me.

"The aunt was from a little anxious at all Tira. It's beautiful, polite, courteous, smart again. Until Aunty once tagged your mother to take you a ghost." said Aunt Sonia.

Having a mother-in-law like Aunt Sonia who is very humble must be very fun. Moreover, he who does not have a daughter seems to love girls very much. That's why I'm kind of calm to imagine that Ciya will be a part of this family. A warm family, will replace the empty space that once existed in my sister's heart. I hope I succeed in this mission.

"Oh yes Tira, before, Aunt wants to apologize if later what Auntie until it will make you uncomfortable. But whatever it is, you should not hesitate with Auntie, especially just because the bad news that is already real is not true. Auntie wants to say something. Can, right?"

"Oh, sure can Auntie. What'sthat?"

"You and good are grown-ups. Aunty once proposed to you to your grandparents even though in the end she refused. Aunt realized at that time maybe you did not know Good, but now you already know each other. It's also good to show you care. All because he likes you, Ra."

Uhuk. Uhuk. Uhuk. I coughed, shocked by Aunt Sonia's statement. Likey? Mas Good to like me? But .... Then what about Ciya? I was speechless, only able to remain silent while holding back the tightness.

What other test is this God?