The Second Woman's Regret
Between Two Men

The third day in the hospital, my condition improved even though the right leg still hurts when invited to walk because it was stepped on repeatedly by Andre Winata, but at least there is progress. Today the police began to come because I was considered to have been able to provide information on the report from Mr. Saka. They interrogate, Mr. Saka and mas Bagus always accompany. They seemed unwilling to move from my side, even though I had told them to go home but they still did not want to. Ciya has been home since yesterday.

"I'm fine, Mr. Saka and mas Bagus can go home now." I said, for the umpteenth time tell them to leave. After unsuccessfully evicting with insinuations. It seems they don't understand allusions.

"I'm here, if he wants to go home please. I'm the one who brought you here, so I have to be on my guard to make sure that you're okay." Said mr. Saka.

"Mmm, same. I'm here too. I took time off to look after a friend who was sick. It's a shame that the cut wasn't used. Aye, right?" Answer me Good. Confuses me.

"But to be honest I'm not comfortable with two guys!" I said l. "After all, the criminal is already in jail, so there's no need to worry anymore."

"Don't ease the conditions, Ra. You're still an enemy of netizens, so don't be rash. They might attack you too. Remember when we had lunch, you were suddenly doused?" said Mr. Saka, making my guts shrill considering the bad moments I faced

"But I don't need to be taken care of two people either." I said

"Then you go home, Mom. I'm the only one here. Tira is my employee, so as his boss I'm responsible for making sure he's okay." Said mr. Saka. "We already have a work contract, I also want to give him a big project of infinite value."

"I've improved." I said

"Then we can discuss the work here. Aye, right?" mr. Saka smiled triumphantly.

"No, after what happened to you Ra, I can't leave you alone!" mas Bagus also confirmed. I was confused again but could only face these two people.

***

A week in the hospital, these two guys actually survived. Not going at all except to go to the bathroom and salat. Even eat only they order up to the door of the room, while the change of clothes are delivered by no one.

This afternoon, when there was Ciya. My sister asked them to come out for a while because there was something important to talk about. Although heavy, they finally complied.

"Hufffff, they finally left too. Really uncomfortable awaited by foreign men, where two more!" I blabbed while opening the veil that had been used for a week.

Asik with myself, without realizing I was nyuekin Ciya. He said he wanted to talk.

"What's Ciy? Is mom okay? Elis and Kiki too, right? Are you a graduation?" I asked.

"Sister," call Ciya.

"Yes?"

"Sister,"

"Why? Is there a problem?"

"Among those two men, who does big brother like?"

"Huh?"

"There's definitely, right?"

"Why ask like that? Of course the answer is none. You know, brother like this because of what? Because love. You're traumatized, you may never fall in love again."

"Rigger ... Don't be so."

"It's not easy Ciy, you know, it's too tiring to go through it all. Besides with the ugly image that has been crossed by the man, does anyone still want to be with brother? If there is, it feels like brother is not ready. Brother's still scared, Ciy."

"so yeah. Then they're both not?"

I'm shaking. Ciya smiled. "Why Ciy? You likey?"

We continued our conversation about family..About the mother whose heart was still as hard as a rock, frozen, unwilling to forgive me.

It's okay, I said. Although I'm actually hurt.

After a conversation, Ciya came home because Mother had questioned her existence. He was forbidden to see me because my mother was afraid that my sister would be affected if she was still close to me.

***

Two weeks hospitalized, finally able to go home too. After scrambling to pay my hospital fees, now they both are also scrambling to get me home.

"I'll just go home in a taxi." I said.

"Don't, danger!" Said mas Bagus.

"Have known the dangers, so do not make Tira not feel good so he was confused who to choose. Now get out of the way, Tira comes home with me!" Mr. Saka pulled the edge of my shirt, like a child, and dragged me to his car

"Not to be dragged around too many times, sir!" i complained. "Like a child. I can walk well!" i nagged.

"Keep you want the three of us to have a debate until night, until you're tired of yourself? You just got out of the hospital, got to go home and get some rest!"

"Yes not."

"Then don't protest!" He started the car, continued to the apartment. "If there's anything quick just call me, not the others!"

"Why?"

"I can protect you."

"But yesterday you failed to protect me."

mr. Saka glanced.

"Eh I mean ...."

I haven't been able to continue talking, Mr. Saka has been gas so that makes me afraid. As soon as he reached the apartment, he brought me up even though I had refused, the reason is just in case

Arriving at the door of the apartment room, before I entered he called me.

"May ... I'm sorry if I failed to protect you so you're like this. Next time I'll make sure I don't lose!" he turned around, leaving me alone at the door.

***

The night is getting late. The sky is dark. I'm still sitting in front of the window..With a thousand dreams. Hoping that all this was just a nightmare and I would recognize it a year ago.

Actually, the times I have been through so far there is no such thing as being happy. What to expect from a broken home. But there was at least a family; my mother and three sisters on the side. So whatever I do, there are people who strengthen, but now they are no longer on the side, either when or maybe never come back again.

I'll be alone forever.

The lights finally came down. I was crying alone. Under the night sky. Can I get through all this? Cap as a good woman is not strong. Though I'm not so.

[Tira,] message from Mr. Saka. [I'm sorry, next time I'll take better care of you. Oh yes, tomorrow there will be breakfast, lunch and dinner. I will also clean the room.]

I let the message go without any intention of replying.