The Second Woman's Regret
Answer to the Accusations

Aunt Heni and brother Andin are still looking at me, they're intimidating.

"Yes, I live in Mas Saka's apartment. But we don't live together. Ma'am Andin saw that time? Only I myself live there, while Saka mas in the shophouse." I explained.

"Even if we live together, there's a problem?" asked Saka who knew when she was next to me. Not only am I shocked, but also her stepmother and sister-in-law. "Didn't you also live in my father's apartment when my mother was alive? Whether we live together or not, who knows? Andin too, right? ever lived in a house with Aryo's mas?" reply Mas Saka, making the two women speechless.

"Hemmm," Aunt Heni cleared her throat. "By the way, what about your problem? It's done, right? you're really just focusing on Saka, right?"

"What do you mean?" ask mas Saka.

"It's okay, just make sure that in the future there are no unwanted things. You are an adult Saka, should know which is really sincere or just want to find wealth quickly" he said again.

"Clearly what you mean!" Saka.

"Darling, already. Let's eat the pudding, it tastes really good." I tried to divert the conversation by having Saka eat the desert that was still on the table, but Saka ignored it.

"Clearly!" saka said in a high voice, we were all shocked, even his father and brother came.

"Saka. Speak politely!" firmly mr. Prasetyo.

"This woman should speak politely. What do you mean talk like that to my wife?" ask Saka.

"Saka, don't misunderstand me. Everyone knows who Tira is and what the case was. Aunt just doesn't want you to choose wrong. You are one of the heirs of our family, so be careful when choosing friends let alone life friends. Honestly speaking, your sudden marriage plus the news about Tira made us worried. Make sure that Tira has nothing to do with her past. Is she really a good woman with her chastity? Or he has another mode, has been used by people or has a big secret that is still stored that we fear will be a boomerang for our families. That'sallthatis. Only you know how she is, is she still a girl or ...." Aunt Hani purposely hung up her words.

"My wife is none of my business. I told you that I am no longer part of this family. I want to live a quiet life without a lot of made-up rules. I want to live as is. From now on just ignore us!" mas Saka asked me to leave this place immediately.

My hand is still pulled by Saka mas. he just took off when I was in the car.

"This is why? no need to overdo it like that. Let alone talking like that, it was the same as beating the war drums!" say

"I was so to defend you!" mas said Saka, while advancing his car.

"Yes, I get it. But there's no need to overdo it!"

"What do you mean?" mas Saka stopped the car. "You don't like me defending you? You want me to let that woman insult you? hey, what kind of person are you? Or maybe what he said was true. You have a specific purpose?"

"Then why don't you want to be touched until now? Is it true that you and the previous man have been ...."

"What?" I was upset to see him talk like that.

"If not why avoid? Your lover was the husband of someone who had done this before, could you do it too?"

Plaque. A slap floated on his cheek. A reflex slap just came off because it did not accept the accusation.

"You have no right to accuse me like that!" say

"Then prove it!" he did not lose hard.

"if you don't have faith in me, you shouldn't ask me to get married. You should have known what kind of person I was. I'm not a kid whose parents are as rich as you, but I'm not crazy about treasure either. For a long time many men approached me, offering me a lot of luxury, but I refused because that was not what I wanted. I love the people I love sincerely, not because of any frills. I don't want to prove anything to you because I don't want to prove anything. You brought me into this story, but why are you accusing me of that now? like I was so ugly! If someone else did it I could still be patient but when it came out of my husband's mouth I felt very sick because of the many hopes I had hung on you. I want to be happy with you forever. But if you hesitate to continue it's okay, I'm ready to step down. We're not too far away" I said. "Now we should be alone first. I need time to calm down." I said. Then get off the car.

Mas Saka let me go, he even ignored me who was now riding into a taxi that happened to pass by.

"Are you really in doubt, Mom? you really don't believe me?" slowly, I wiped away the tears that came down.

I thought, after yesterday we got married there would only be happy stories. But the test is not finished. I'm really sad, mas.

***

The taxi stops in front of Amanda's new apartment lobby. I called him because he was the only friend I had. I don't know why I was so sure it would be a place to complain that could make my heart calm. Where else to go anyway, no family let alone friends I have.

"Sorry Ra you waited a long time?" said Amanda who just came down to pick me up in the lobby. After that we went up to his room. Only a small apartment room with a room, bathroom and kitchen are small enough but enough for one person. "Now I'm staying here after breaking up with Hito" Amanda said.

"I want to be here some time. Can you?" my many.

"of course. You rest first, I make food yes. If you want to change clothes just take it in the closet."

Without having to talk at length, I lay in Amanda's quiet sleep, crying out so badly, letting out this tightness in the chest. Why does everyone have to be this painful? wh why? Why do you give false hope, why should you accompany me in Jogja, why should you ask to get married quickly. Wh why?