The Second Woman's Regret
Men Don't Know Shame

I don't know how many messages and missed calls from Andre came to my phone. Starting from asking for my whereabouts, asserting that now we are husband and wife, repeating the words of love that make me eneg to the suggestions about the obligations of the wife to her husband. Reading it, I wanted to talk to him, but I realized, extending communication with him would only stress me out. He's been making big trouble in my life, better not to communicate anymore, not even to know each other.

Sorry I liked it once. He was present with his warm, attentive and mature attitude. I who thirst for the figure of a father finally managed to conquer it. I gave him a lot of hope. I'm really in love. But now that feeling is bland, there I really hate it. Hates Andre Winata.

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After the dawn prayer, my bedroom door was in the gedor. Who else did it if not Dila. My cousin is on a rampage. Asking me to apologize to his mother or he'll make me regret it. A threat that irritates me. She and her aunt started first but blamed me one hundred percent.

"Just you have to find my mom, apologize, bow at my mom's feet or you're in trouble, Ra. The deadline is until the Maghrib. Remember yes!" Threatened Dila, and then she left my room.

I smiled looking at Dila leaving. You are, although a brother, but since childhood actually did not really get along. He harbors great jealousy for me. Since childhood, I have always been a favorite of grandparents because I am the most adorable grandson, plus the mother of a favorite child. Grandpa and Grandma always put me first. What I am proud of in front of others is me. But it stopped after mom divorced Abah. Grandpa and Grandma were disappointed in my mother. Plus the incitement from aunt Par who thirsts for the affection of her parents. Finally our family was abandoned. Poverty adds to our condition.

After I got to work, my grandparents started to soften. Aunt Par is still trying to influence her parents, but grandparents are still opening their hearts to us. But now, our family is back in the test. I'm pretty sure they'll come back to excommunicate us.

"May ... Tyres. Your life is so sad. I just want to be happy, but it's like this again!" I am sorry for my own fate.

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[What message did you send to BI Par? Mom cried after she called aunt. Just now Grandpa and grandma came, we were all scolded by brother. Where his anger is not responsible anymore. We are big sinners, ] message from Ciya.

[Oh my God, how is mother now?] I clenched my hands tightly, annoyed with my own stupidity. Why should also be impolite, because the effect must be mother. I was really carried away by emotions, so I couldn't help myself.

[Mother is now in the room, brother. The door's in the lock. But I felt sorry for my mother too. Aunty said she would come again.]

[Mbak Dila apologizes to her mother. He said, it's hard for my sister to hurt my aunt with a reply.] Don't forget I sent SS my message to my aunt, here's my aunt's message to me.

[Huh, crazy respect auntie, Iha is definitely the wrong aunt. In the group alone still continue to corner sister.]

[Yes, brother will be there. Later brother just apologize.]

[Not to brother. Wh-wh-what for? Aunts have never respected our family. He wants to be respected, but never the opposite. At least appreciate a little. Not to lose either. Don't know how the truth story constantly cornered others. Already, sister cuekin only. Let us take care of Mom.]

[Don't do that, sister doesn't have the same mother.]

[Mom won't do anything. Sooner or later you'll understand why you did all that. We believe that my brother was not wrong. We know the character of the brother. Mother so because of shock alone, plus continuously getting unpleasant treatment from our families ]

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"Tira, there are guests." the sound of the boarding guard making me who was dumbstruck immediately realized. I hurriedly grabbed the veil, thinking that an important guest had come looking. But my steps receded when I saw Andre. The man was completely shameless, he still dared to meet me after what was done to me.

"Still dare to see me? There is no shame!" I'm instantly inflamed.

"May ... I really love you. Let's fix everything and repeat from the beginning. I'm in the process of divorce with her, so please be patient and give me a chance." she said, trying to grab my hand, but I swiftly dodged.

"With Andre Winata, I've said I don't want to know you anymore. So now get out of my life.understand me!" I said firmly.

"I wouldn't have left if you were like this. You are my wife, Ra." After all."

"I'll take care of the divorce papers!"

"By!"

"Go!"

"You said you loved me, but why are you changing now. I lied not to want to be Tira intentionally. I did it because I love you so much. Believe this. You don't know how to be in my position. She was not a good wife, so I could not stand her. I want to escape, and this is my path Tira. You're the only one I love."

I want to laugh, let go of my burden. Actually my frustration with him has piled up a lot. I'd love to take him to the boxing ring to hit him in the face. Given that I once grabbed a black belt in martial arts, it wouldn't be difficult to defeat a single male like him. Perhaps that way my emotions can be channeled. But I don't want to dirty my hands, let alone waste time with her.

Andre's begging, but I don't care. Want as bad as his wife, he should not complain in a cheating way like this. He also cannot trap me in the complexity of their household problems even though he claims to love me.

"Go before my patience runs out!" I said.

"Tira," he's still trying to melt my heart. "I would rather die than lose you. If I'm bad, I've been doing bad things since the beginning, but I didn't because I wanted us to marry Tira."

"Yes, just die." I said.

"Ra .. Are you serious?" he was surprised by my answer, probably because I didn't care, and Andre actually went halfway. I only glanced at the tip of the eye, then passed into the innards. I don't care about him anymore, even if he died this morning in front of my hostel. Such a man is not worthy of attention. A coward who hides behind the word love to get what he wants.