The Struggle for Wife Love
Bag 101's

"you mean what Dii? I'm still his wife and you, I'm still entitled to the situation he is in now!" say I'm firm

"this is for the good of mbak, mbak already in the love of life back should mbak grateful. Mbak can continue life and start all over again mbak" said Adi without seeing me

"wouldn't the rumors in the hospital be true? Zean donated all this for me to live?" ask me gugub

Adi did not answer my words, I hope there is an explanation and answer from Adi's mouth. I hope that answer is the same as my hope.

"yes, Zean no longer exists. He is the donor" said Adi Lirih

I was silent at Adi's words, my voice stuck in my esophagus and couldn't get any words out. It even felt like there was a hard object hitting my head making my gaze twitch.

"mas Zean just leave a letter before doing Operation Donation for mbak Tiara" said Adi while giving a letter to me

I received the letter with trembling hands, my voice completely unable to come out. Only tears drenched my cheeks, representing my deep sorrow.

Dita hugged me and tried to calm me down, I tried to hold back my tears but what a force. The sigh of longing and hope was now dashed, I hugged Dita tightly and cried as hard as I could.

" CHINAA....." I screamed while crying

Dita who hugged me cried when she heard the bad news, but she tried to calm me down.

"i don't trust Taa, she left me. Why does he always leave me Taa? I have a mistake what is the same with him? Until she left me many times" I cried

"already Raa, you calm down first. You have to be strong, Zean admitted this must be because there is a reason" said Dita

"i don't care why Taa, I want him. I want ZEAN Taa" I said angrily

I cried so much at my in-laws' house, Adi just sat there and watched me cry loudly. There was a hint of regret in his heart that had informed Tiara of such a state.

"tiara don't be like this, Zean did this for his own safety. Now you have to be able to live life and be happy" said Adi

"how can I live Dii? I lived my life on the death of my husband Dii. It's not fair" I said

"mas Zean had thought of this before, please accept Zean's last sacrifice. Ma'am don't be like this, for the sake of Zean mbak" persuaded Adi

I just kept quiet to hear Adi's words, my heart still hurts. It hurts to accept the reality, even accept everything that happens.

"in that case, I'd like to see Dii's grave. I want to see with my own eyes that Zean is really dead" said I who still do not believe.

Adi took us to a TPU near their house, I also walked in Adi's footsteps. Before long we walked, Adi stopped in front of a pusara that was still filled with fresh flowers. And my eyes were fixed on the tombstone that was stuck in the navel.